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More details since Tom asked:

I use Things as a GTDish type device — to capture everything I need to do so I don’t worry about it and can focus on work. I also use it to schedule all events and deadlines. I can’t be bothered with ‘projects’ since I do a better job keeping track of those in my head than making lists in Things. I also don’t use it for contexts, except the library — I throw all the LOC #s for things I need to get out of library in there, print them up, and mark them off.

The biggest thing I’ve found Things useful for are repeating projects: everyday I wake up to find Things has added three tasks to my to-do list: “Read for :30″ “Write for :30″ and “Transcribe for :30″. If I do all three of these things — on top of my teaching and other responsibilities — then I allow myself to browse the web for all the books I’ll never have time to read.

In terms of note-taking programs for Mac, I tried: Yojimbo, Together, Scrivener, Notae2, Mori, Notebook, Evernote and a few more whose names escape me at the moment. What I was looking for was: price (they’re all about US$30-40), decent way to export data (for when I code fieldnotes or the sofware stops being developed), robus support and developer community (aka track record), ability to clip webpages (important for WoW research), get data in via the finder (pretty much all of these now have a button or drawer you can drag documents or highlighted text to to create new documents), and the ability to categorize entries by ‘tag’ or ’smart folders’ (apparently increasingly called ’saved searches’ these days). I was particularly interested in finding a program that would let me keep multiple databases open, each of which had its own separate category structure — that way my WoW Research categories do not get mixed up with my PNG research categories.

Pretty much all of these products can do this in more or less the same way — and they are all much better than what I started using 2 years ago. I went with DevonThink despite the fact that it has tons of features I will probably never use because of the ability to open and close multiple databases, tag/group with ease, and because I might grow into its features as I need it more. 2.0 is much easier to use than the earlier versions I attempted unsuccessfuly to love earlier.

Speaking of software I use regularly, but which I forgot to mention in my last post: Dropbox. It’s finally managed to hit the sweet spot of online storage and version control. Let’s all give it a big round of applause folks.

As for dissertation-writing books, I must say that I am taken by Demystifing Dissertation Writing by Peggy Boyle Single. Like most people I got to know the book through her columns in Inside Higher Ed (and really if you’ve read them you already know 70% of what is in the book). Despite the fruity cover and kinda-lame name her ‘Single System’ there is a lot to like in the book: a clear outline of how to write, a small but useful bibliograpy, and just the right amount of depth. The book sort of orients you to what successful method is like but does not micro-manage you. One of her main points — the writers block comes from not enough ‘prewriting’ — really resonated with me.

Also, I like the book because the process it describes is familiar to me from doing fieldwork: take a living, buzzing world, simplify it by putting it on paper, reduce it down more and more to just a few quotes, and then start building up in a new, parsed form. This complex -> simple -> complex dynamic is more or less what I teach in my field methods class and I think it really works. That said I have not actually inflicted the volume on anyone but me yet, so I can’t really say I have experience using it in teaching.

One more quick shout-out — Single’s publisher, Stylus, actually turns out a lot of good books on teaching. I’d be interested in exploring them more, but requesting review copies is burdensome and requires giving up WAY to much personal information, etc. Yo Stylus: make it easier for me to publicize your books.

On category of things that did not make the cut with me, there are two that did not make the cut with me: first, academic socialbookmarking services like CiteULike or Zotero. Let’s face it: the problem these days is not discovering new things to read. Zotero and CiteULike are great programs for some people. But for me, who already as a long to-read list, cares about easy storage of PDFs and metadata, it is just far far better to spend the money on Sente.

Second, PDF management systems like Yep or various finder-enhancements that let you tag files etc: I think Alex Payne summed it up best when he said: “If you want to store data of differing types within a lightweight organization system, I encourage you to check out THE FILESYSTEM”. For academic books and articles I have a special program. For everything else, I have the finder. There is one exception: I wish there was a decent program for filing away syllabi as I download those things like a mother. Right now my half-solution is to store them in DevonThink. Ditto wih CVs.

In sum, one key to my recent optimization has been getting clear on what specifically I need programs to do, and then chosing one (1) program to do it. I resist programs that do more than one thing, and I resist the urge to do more than one thing with one program. Of course some things fall through the cracks this way — I no longer have long lists of books that I might someday read before I die. But that is the point: the stuff that I am not actually doing for a good reason does not fit in the system, and so I do not do it, which leaves me more time and focus to do the things that I need to do for a reason. Which is, of course, the goal.

Maybe it is the new apartment or (more likely) awareness of how little free time I will have once I’m a father, but I have spent a lot of time massaging out the kinks in my intellectual muscles.

First, I’ve rejiggered, reevaluated, and rethought the set up of my outboard brain. After testing a bunch of different combinations of note taking programs, PDF managers, and bibliographic software I’ve found that yes, the same combination of programs that everyone uses are in fact the best things to use: Sente for bibliography, Things for task management, Delicious for bookmarking, and DevonThink for notes. I tried Evernote, but I don’t have a Mobile Device and frankly, I fear the Cloud and want my data somewhere where I can lose or compromise it myself. Also it’s actually not that powerful in terms of bintiliions of ways to organize folders etc. Now if I can just take the 800 fieldnotes out of my OLD note taking program I’ll be really set…

Second, better scheduling. After years of sorta-using GTD I have finally shoved every bit of anxiety-provoking task into Things and my life really is much better. Also, I recently had a student come to me asking how I took notes or managed reading books for the purposes of writing articles, what my process was when it came to writing, etc. and I found that I basically had nothing to tell them — a mixture of intuition and a reliance on the power of enthusiasm to muscle my way through this process meant that I ultimately had little to pass on to anyone who wasn’t me. It also meant, I realized on reflection, that I was still relying on grad school strategies to do professorial work — and I mean here not only training students but also my own research and writing. And lets face it, how many of us really want our dissertation and first fieldwork to be the zenith of our research prowess?

So, having done some serious work on research methods over the summer I’ve spent the past semester doing a lot of work on handling ethnographic materials and writing them up. A lot of this, I’m not ashamed to admit, has involved trying out the various methods in the ‘how to write a dissertation’ books I have field-tested in course of learning how to be an adviser. Not surprisingly, a lot of them are really really good. In particular (I am ashamed to admit) I’ve started taking notes on readings in a structured and regular way for the first time. Like ever. This really beats surrounding yourself with dozens of opened, heavily underlined books and searching for quotes you remember in them.

Overall, it has been a good experience and all the rethinking is finally beginning to get amortized off in the form of actual productivity. Speaking of which… back to work!

Oh yes, I am tweeting. Come find me at http://twitter.com/r3×0r

The school newspaper asked me to answer some questions about Valentine’s Day. Please find the transcript attached:

Aloha Dr. Golub,

Thank you for taking time to answer these brief questions, as well as providing any additional insight you think might be of interest to our readers.

My questions are:

Is there an anthropological basis for the emotion of love?
No. You can easily fall in love without having taken any classes in our department.

Does love serve a useful purpose or is it extraneous?
Falling in love is one of the most wonderful, life-affirming experiences that can happen to you, so if you think ‘having wonderful, life-affirming experiences’ counts as ‘useful’, then there you go. Additionally, when you fall out of love you feel absolutely terrible, a feeling which serves the useful purpose of giving blues musicians more to sing about than just racism and alcohol abuse.

Are certain societies or cultures more predisposed toward feelings of love?
Love is a Western concept, although obviously you don’t have to be Western to come to care deeply for another person. Still, I think your standard haole American has got to be particularly predisposed to fall in love. American culture imagines the entire world as if it were a business, worrying constantly about the ‘useful purpose’ of everything, and Americans are obsessed with sharing their feelings for others. As a result they carve out a very small niche in their lives — romantic love — in which ‘love’, ‘feeling’ and ‘caring’ are carefully separated from ‘economics’, ‘buying’, and ’selling’. Thus Americans believe prostitution to be wrong because it combines love and intimacy with spending lots of money. Which thus makes it completely and totally different from Valentine’s day.

What difference, if any, are there between the way people express love in Hawaii and New York?
People in New York are often much colder than we are when they fall in love.

If you are married/involved, how do you plan to spend your Valentine’s Day?
My wife and I are going to get totally baked and watch ‘300′ like seven times in a row. No just kidding. We are planning to do all the “Love Is In The Air” achievements in World of Warcraft together, though. We might even try to farm the Big Love Rocket that drops off of Apothecary Hummel.

I spent New Year’s Eve December 31, 1999, in the house of the pastor of the Lutheran Church in Waiwanda waiting for what many believed was the end of the world. On New Year’s Eve December 31, 2009, I spent the evening on the lanai with my wife watching fireworks and smoke — mostly smoke, actually — filling Manoa valley. A decade is a long time, especially if you’re only (only?) old enough to remember three of them. So one thing I spent the past couple of days trying to figure out what exactly I’ve done in the past ten years. My natural inclination has ganged up with the feelings that I share with a lot of guys entering middle age to do their best to make me feel that my time has been wasted, that I have not lived enough. But even the anxieties I have a strong elective affinity for have a pretty hard time making me feel like I’ve wasted the past ten years. I’ve gotten a Ph.D., gotten married, gotten a job, gotten an apartment, have kids on the way, lived in Paris, visited China and India, and, most importantly, written superb Jedi knight fan fiction featuring Michel Foucault and Hans-Georg Gadamer as characters. Not to mention the fact that on January 1 my blog turned nine. NINE. Good lord.

The deeper I go in to life, however, the bigger the challenges get and the longer and more complex the work becomes. I think if I feel anxious about anything it is about the decade to come, not the decade that has passed. I’ve always joked that my goal in life, starting as a very young child, was to be a middle-aged professor and NOW AT LONG LAST THAT GOAL IS IN REACH. I even got ahead of the game by going bald a decade early. Hells yes. Middle age here I come! Stay tuned.

Last night before falling asleep I read How To Write And Use Educational Objectives, Fifth Edition by Norman Gronlund. That evening, I dreamed that I was enrolled in one of my colleague’s classes and had showed up to the midterm completely unprepared — a humiliating and embarrassing thing to do. But then as the test was handed out I realized with relief that it was not the a midterm but rather a mid-term feedback sheet on his teaching. And then my humiliation turned to smug satisfaction as I noted how poorly his assessment rubric was designed.

That was the whole dream. True story.

Last night my wife watched Mary Poppins while I watched the second season of Dexter. I think this says something about our relationship — namely, that there is a lot more Mary Poppins in my future and a lot less Dexter. I told her who knows the kids might like Dexter more than Mary Poppins, but she thinks I am wrong on this one.

In other news it is the end of the semester over here and I’ve been shifting my readings habits away from fieldwork and virtual worlds (the topics of last semester) to discussion classes and ethnographies of businessmen (the topics of the break). It is hard to steer yourself off a trail of reading after sixteen weeks on it. Like the steady, deep resistance you feel as you move a rudder — at least until it slips into place and then it becomes just as steadily and deeply unmovable as it was before.

I recently read two popular members of that small genre entitled ‘academic self-help books’: Mortimer Adler’s How To Read A Book and Magnum’s Teaching What You Don’t Know. They have a lot of similarities — both based on a mixture of experience and the psychological literature (such as it existed in the 30s, when Mortimer first published his book), padded up with cutsey anecdotes that slow down the pace, and both end with a list of great books. I wish I had Magnum’s book back when I was teaching what I didn’t know more often, and that Adler’s book was more easily excerpted for undergraduates. But there you go.

This blog will become more active in the near future as I have more than 144 characters worth of things to say and I get the back-end cleaned up and easier to use. However a few big public updates for people who might not have heard already, and listed in reverse order of importance:

1. Duke University Press has agreed to publish the revised version of my dissertation. Thank you very much Duke University Press!
2. I am in the process of closing on my first home.
3. My wife is pregnant. With TWINS. I’m going to be a father!

These are all great news and I’m very happy and humbled that my life is going so well at the moment. As soon as I plug my blog facebook into my rss twitter mobile internet device flows and clean up the backend to improve performance (and get a stable Internet connection in my house) (and finish up grading for the semester) I’ll be blogging more.

What might it mean to undergo violation, to insist upon _not_ resolving grief and staunching vulberability too quickly through a turn to violence, and to practice, as an experiment in living otherwise, nonviolence in an emphatically nonreciprocal response? What might it mean to make an ethic from the region of the uwilled? It might mean that one does not foreclose upon that primary exposure to the Other, that one does not try to transform the unwilled into the willed, but, rather, to take the very unbearability of exposure as a sign, the reminder, of a common vulberability, a common physicality and risk. It delineates a physical vulnerability from which we cannot slip away, which we cannot finally resolve in the name of the subject, but which can provide a way to understand that none of us is fully bounded, utterly separate, but, rather, we are in our skins, given over, in each other’s hands, at each other’s mercy. This is a situation we do not choose. It forms the horizon of choice, and it grounds our responsibility. We did not create it, and therefore it is what we must heed.
-Judtih Butler, Giving an Account of Oneself

I am coming up on my first full week in Port Moresby — the weather is (relatively) cold and (relatively) wet. I’m staying with a host family in Port Moresby who are welcoming, accommodating, and fun to be around. (I’ve been typing the word ‘accommodate’ repeatedly the last couple of days for some reason and it drives me nuts — two Cs and two Ms: Why?!?) The neighborhood where I’m staying is a perfect example of Papua New Guinea’s slow but steady growth towards stability and safety. It used to have quite a reputation (it still does to many. When I tell some of the executives that I study that I am living there they are gobsmacked.) but my little corner of it has quite a community feel — the tradestore at the corner is run by a woman from near Porgera, where I used to live, and last night I sat on the corner chewing buai and watching the local kids play footie in the street. Sorry — footie is ‘rugby’, I’ve reverted back to PNG/Oz English now that I am here. PNG seems to be righting itself — the totally random and supremely horrific violence (and sexual violence) that once scandalized the country in the late-90s seems to be a thing of the past, or at least much more rare. The managing director of one firm told me he saw white women jogging in the late afternoon as the sun went down — something unimaginable when I first arrived in 1998.

Having given social democracy and third-wayism a run for the first couple of decades of independence, PNG seems increasingly to be going in the other direction: privatization, business, and commerce are all the rage here. Mobile phone companies transform people’s lives. The 7,000 workers the upcoming LNG project is supposed to bring to the country is on everyone’s lips. Real estate prices are skyrocketing as freehold land becomes increasingly scarce. Cars clog the road and Moresby now has rush hours — a glut of white Toyota four doors running through the two blocks of Champion Parade Ground that constitute downtown Port Moresby. Neoliberalism is bringing benefits to people — at least in the short run. I’m concerned about the potential long-term effects of the near-abandonment of any confidence or hope in the government and civil service, but for now the obvious improvements to PNG are hard to ignore even if lefties like me worry about what may come later.

Bandwidth is unbelievably dear in Papua New Guinea. Moving packets over the Internet costs money, wireless is scarce and expensive, and cellphones need to be topped up constantly. After years of living in rural Papua New Guinea I can tell I am going to have to take a good hard look at how best to avoid hemorrhaging money turning kina into bits. Transport is also an issue — I am notoriously reluctant to drive in the states, and here in PNG with the backwards roads, reversed car controls, crazy traffic pattern, and the still-lurking issue of random events getting out of control, I just don’t feel comfortable trying to drive around myself. Luckily I have a wantok who drives a cab and my host family commute into work in a way that I can hop on to, but the fact remains that I have chosen a fieldwork topic that requires constant telephoning, emailing, and driving around when email, telephone, and driving are some of the biggest obstacles to me. Oh for an office with Internet and photocopying and a landline.

So all is good over here and I’ll try to post more as I have more to post and I figure out how best to access the Intarweb.

This is the way I go through life:

This morning I woke up in Cairns, where I landed last night in the first leg of my flight from Honolulu to Papua New Guinea. I woke up and got on the Internet to check my email. My wife was on IM and we were talking back and forth and she said “It will be nice for you to have a day in Cairns to spend before you head to Moresby” (from now on POM = Port Moresby, the capital of Papua New Guinea). I said to her: “No, I have a day stop in Cairns on my way back. I am leaving for the airport in an hour to fly to POM.” Then I got in the taxi, went to the airport, and went to the Air Niugini ticket counter, where they told me I was travelling the next day, and that I should have listened to my wife.

This is a lesson I have learned many times before as she has patiently and lovingly remembered — indeed, created — both of our schedules. But I guess that even in the relatively high-stakes realm of international travel, plainly and clearly written itineraries, and reminders THAT SAME DAY from my Wife who is thousands of miles away and has much better things to do than deal with someone as hopeless as me still did not help. At any rate the price of taking the cab to town and then back to the airport again was about the same as just changing the ticket, so I decided to go to Por Moresby early. So here I am.

On the plane, the Kindle started paying for itself and I read some science fiction: The Sparrow, by Mary Doria Russell and The Birthday of the World by Ursula K. Leguin (which I am still reading, the LeGuin). The Sparrow is a really famous novel, apparently, and deals with several of my favorite themes: imaginations of alien culture, first contact, small-group personal dynamics, religion. I admired how well-written the book was, but ultimately it didn’t appeal to me. I guess Russell is a lapsed Catholic who converted to Judaism and the book centers on a priest’s struggle to live with, to make a long story short, the experience of absolute evil. It is supposed to be a piece of holocaust literature with a Jesuit overlay, but I ultimately found the central dilemmas of the books — celibacy for religion’s sake versus secular, sexually fulfilling relationships, the possibility that God wants us to suffer and is evil, etc — way too Christian or, perhaps more narrowly, Catholic. The idea that God demands that you give up true love in the name of faith just sounds silly to me. Equally, the idea that God is responsible for the holocaust rather than say, oh I don’t know, the Nazis doesn’t really parse for me, and neither does the idea that this piece is some sort of apologia for the colonization of the New World because it reminds us that sixteenth century colonizers ought not be considered culpable for the crimes of colonization and missionization because they didn’t share our moral code so should not be held ur standards. Again: not working for me. As a portrayal of a man’s inner struggle with the uncertainties of the Catholic religious experience it was compelling, I suppose, but at the end of the day I just found the terms of that experience extremely, shall we say, unintuitive. Apart from people saying the shehekianu like seventeen times in the course of the book, it didn’t seem particularly Jewish to me — or at least it didn’t resonate with my flavor of Judaism.

The LeGuin, on the other hand, is absurdly well-designed. When I was in China with The Scarily Erudite Beloved we visited the oldest wooden building in the world still standing. It was a Buddhist temple from the Tang dynasty. It looked like most of the Buddhist temples I was dragged in the course of our Buddhist Temple Tour Of China’s Coal Producing Regions. However it had a sort of broad, thickened proportionality to it, and was well but simply made. There was a family or two who looked after it and the government gave them some buckets full of sand in case there was a fire. It was gorgeous, and it was a hundred centuries old. LeGuin’s book is like that. Just marvelous.

One of the stories is set on a world ruled by women with a small minority of men who are forced to do nothing all day but play sports and visit ‘fuckeries’ where guy-obsessed women pay them for sex. It’s a world where the women have all the power and the men have all the privileges. Men who want to, say, read or help raise the children they have conceived are viewed as abominations (I think you can see where she goes with this). This world presents us with an exaggerated version of the crisis faced on our own college campuses, where men struggle to be successful academically because intelligence and studying are seen as ‘feminine’. I am going to the story the next time I teach intro anthro and then teach the literature on male underachivement in college, just to let my male students know that they have the option of seeing a world of compulsory athletics and casual sex as a place to flee from, rather than to.

I am leaving tomorrow to fly to Papua New Guinea. I have known this for quite some time — I didn’t just pick up the traveller’s checks from the bank the other day on a lark — but it really hit me this morning, for some reason. Yowch. Time to get packing.

I think that is what I study: the performativity of collectivity. What does it mean? I’m still working that part out.

Here are some more random ‘kindle for professors’ thoughts:

1) PDF/DOC display and conversion…: A major plus. I’ve tried fooling around just a bit with reading PDFs and .doc files on the kindle and it works really well, so far — which means that the kindle can be used to read journal articles and long pieces (i.e. dissertations and theses you are advising) without dragging around tons of paper. This is nice for advising, or just for reading papers for a conference while you are on the plane to the conference. One of the things I was most hesitant about when it came to the Kindle’s functionality was how well it handled PDF conversion — I’m glad to say that it seems to do a very good job.

2) …Except for figures. Minor negative (for me) — the screen is too small to view figures, charts, maps, kinship diagrams, etc. and I can’t find a way to zoom in on just a part of them. This is not a big issue for me because I deal mostly in text. But if you work in a quantitative-heavy field and your data is being displayed in tables and such the kindle is not for you.

3) No analog hole: Major, major negative. Although it is easy to get stuff onto your kindle it is difficult to get it off. Physical books can be xeroxed, the xeroxes can be digitized and then distributed as PDFs to students, colleagues etc. (under fair use rights, of course). Those kindle books are cheap for a reason: they lack all of this utility. Of course you can always buy a book to read in kindle format and then go to the library to find an analog copy but even this is a huge pain compared to having the physical book. Perhaps in the future there will be some iTunes-like pricing for no-DRM in-copyright works but… I’m not holding my breath.

4) The affordances of paper and the affordances of kindle: Mixed. Paper books have many affordances which make them great to use (you’ll never remember which side of the page a passage is on when reading a kindle) and scholarly apparatus has been developed with books in mind. For serious scholarly reading paper books completely and utterly destroy the kindle’s pathetic bundle of affordances. Marking up your kindle documents with underlining, marginalia, dogearing the pages — either impossible or impossibly inconvenient. Even flipping back and forth between bibliography, index, endnotes, and what have you is a hopeless cause on the kindle .

To me this means the kindle is not a device that is designed for serious scholarly reading. Strangely, however, having a place in which you are forced to read casually is also strangely liberating. Even casual nonfiction gets at least some rough underlining from me to help me find my way through the contents when the volume lacks a detailed table of contents, index, or running headers, etc. Being forced to read at a shallow level, and not having to worry about reading in a place where you will be able to hold the book so as to underline it, or without having to even find a pencil, has actually increased the amount I read by forcing me to read avocationally.

Another plus with the kindle is instant delivery of contents. When you live in Hawai’i, as I do, the time it takes to get something shipped out to you from the mainland (and the cost it takes to get it shipped really quickly) really is a concern when you are working on a paper which requires materials that the local library doesn’t have. And, lets face it, with books available instantly, even if I lived down the street from The Strand I’d still become totally hooked on instant delivery. In way instant delivery enables impulse purchases and the crippling, information-omnivore ‘browsed everything and read nothing’ tendencies of Internet scholarship. But there are times when you know you _must_ read a book that has come out and that you can either buy it for US$15 and have it now or wait a month for the university press which claims the book is now ‘published’ to ship it to Amazon to ship it to you.

Like many intellectuals I take pleasure in collecting books and having a shelf-full of volumes that reflect my own scholarly makeup. But in Hawai’i or other places with little space, and in a world where rare finds in bookstores are memories of a pre-Abe.com day, it really is nice to know that you can purchase and read a six hundred page history of the reformation without having it further lower the oxygen-paper ratio in your apartment.

Of course the major reason I don’t just sell those books when I am done with them is because I have underlined them and can find quotes and facts in them that I would never locate if I pulled a 600 page book out of the stacks and tried to remember where that weird quote that I wanted was buried away in the depths of the book.

I guess what I am trying to say is that the kindle makes it difficult for you to add value to your book. And that the strict set of usages it encourages and discourages help make you conscious of the different kinds of reading academics do, because it only allows certain sorts.

Last random thought on features: when I can get academic journals delivered to the kindle via some combination of my university proxy and RSS feeds, then I will know the kindle has arisen to conquer us all.

I bought a kindle. I dropped US$400 on a device to let me read books when I already own a tremendous amount of books that I will never get to. Why? And, is kindle any good for professors like me?

I bought a kindle because I live in Honolulu and I go to the mainland (or farther away) two or three times a year) and each time I take 5-10 kilos of books with me because of 1) my bizarre need to read constantly 2) I read non-fiction which comes in larger sizes than the normal paperback 3) as an American I constantly need to feel I have a ‘choice’ about things, including what I read. Most importantly, I’ll be traveling to Papua New Guinea, living there for 2 months, and coming back this summer and will need a lot to read. So even though I am not a gadget person these travelling needs pushed me over the edge of a decision I would not normally have made. My bags just got much _much_ lighter which really _really_ matters to me.

Professors, or at least social scientists like me, have very particular reading needs. We read the way athletes work out, and for all kinds of reasons — we read specialized literature for our research, we read popular and general pieces with an eye towards teaching them, we read for pleasure (actually I don’t read for pleasure that much, but when I travel I do). How well does the kindle handle our specialized needs?

Most of the Kindle is Amazon website. Before I bought a kindle, I used Amazon.com constantly for my scholarly work as a ‘discovery’ or ‘awareness’ tool — the website helps you discover books by understanding your preferences, making recommendations about similar books, and providing access to lists that others have written that can be used as the basis for further browsing. It also helps you filter these books and decide which I want to read, why, and how badly. It does so by providing metadata that quickly helps you judge the books (date, publisher, author and author bio) as well as the ability to quickly scan the table of contents (I rarely get to the point where I need to read an excerpt). It also allows you to organize and store your discoveries via various arrangements of your shopping cart, lists, wishlists, and so forth.

Almost all of these features are missing from the Kindle shop. The product details (year, publisher) are still there (and, alas, you still have to scroll down to see them), the recommendations are there, and the listamania lists are around (but much scarcer) and may perhaps grow in time. But there is no quick and obvious way to save kindle editions of books to a wishlist, or to take a look at their tables of content — instead you have to download the free sample or switch to the Amazon paper bookstore, check out the TOC, toggle back over the kindle bookstore, and then keep browsing. This is a big pain.

Paper books are available in many different versions and at many different prices while kindle books normally are not (tho, to be sure, there are multiple editions of public domain texts). Therefore a good way to sort them would be by price — by saying you want to spend more than US$2 and less than US$20 you essentially not only find books in your price point, you are also categorizing books by date since the numerous (and often irrelevant) public domain books get filtered out. Except, of course, that Amazon does not allow you to search in this way.

The best tip for searching I can give so far is to search for the name of a press (University of California, e.g.) and then expand the nested menu on the left hand side of the screen to search through their inventory.

At any rate, all of this applies solely to the kindle website when viewed on a browser on your computer. The version of it you get on the kindle itself is really inadequate as a research tool, and so far I’ve found impossible to browse effectively in any serious way. I know that Amazon is out to serve the ’serious reader’ rather than the professional one, but if I was looking to further adoption amongst academics I’d seriously work on making the kindle section of the website look and feel more like the rest of the website, and get the on-device store more usable.

I spent 45 minutes today trying to remember the name of the early-oughts blogger who had a side website with MP3s of acoustic covers of, among other things, “Going Through The Motions” from Once More With Feeling and, my favorite, Mr. Rogers’s “Its You I Like”. Some desperate googling later and I not only find it is “Kevin Fanning”:http://www.kevinfanning.com/ author of “Whygodwhy”:http://www.whygodwhy.com/about/ but the “entries for the lounge are still around”:http://www.whygodwhy.com/category/lounge/, but the mp3s aren’t there anymore and the Mr. Rogers number seems to have disappeared completely. If you’re reading this, Kfan, hook me up.

Today I went to the library to look for a book called something like “First Steps Towards Cyberspace”. It is an early collection from like 1991, which is pretty early for people academics to be thinking about Cyberspace.

It turns out that back in 1991 when librarians got books about Cyberspace they were still rare enough that they didn’t say “Ah, yet another volume about cyberspace”. In this case, they said “Space, huh? Well we have a call number for that.” And they filed is under QC173.59.S65, which is the Library of Congress catalog number for studies of space and time — like as in Einstein space and time.

It was a unique and special time for me, because I think there is very little chance I will ever visit QC173.59.S65 again in my life. It is not that I am not interested in theories of relativity — although I am not — but rather that it is one of the few areas of the library where I can literally physically not understand a damned thing they are talking about inside of the books there. Like, not even a little bit.

As it turned out, QC173.59.S65 was extremely poorly shelved and none of the books were in order. Or perhaps there was just a disturbance in the space-time continuum that moved them. At any rate the book I was looking for wasn’t there. So maybe I will have to go back again, someday.

As I reflect on this post, I realize I have gained insight into two things.

First, that many of my students will not have the physical ability to find stuff in the library that I do because they did not grow up learning to check to see if books had fallen behind the rest of the books in the stack, had been misfilled, etc. They just lack (I imagine) those sorts of physical shelf-searching skills oldsters like me have.

Second, this blog has probably become like the #1 google hit for the string QC173.59.S65.

Or maybe not.

An entry level vouvray and almond tofu go together pretty well together, actually.

Yesterday was a very important one in our history — you can “read the full patch notes for yesterday’s update here”:http://www.chromecow.com/2009/01/20/us-democracy-server-patch-day/

Yesterday this blog turned seven. Today I updated my wordpress install. The lesson of the past 365 days? Stop being so afraid about blogging personal stuff.

I’m planning for their to be an uptick in content quality this year. Go 2009!

So I have a question for all you readers.

For years I was very proud of the fact that I didn’t own a television because I considered the vast majority of what came out of it to be pollution. However times have changed — TV has gotten better, and DVRs help filter and timeshift it. More and more these days, televisions have stopped being receivers of broadcast and screen to show content on with everything from tivo’d shows to downloaded movies, to streaming Netflix etc. We might even get a Wii.

So the scarily erudite beloved and I have been thinking about getting serious about digital content and investing in… something. That’s where you come in. What should we get? We are thinking either a big TV with a DVR or, perhaps, even just getting a bigger monitor and showing stuff off the computer. It seems like there are a number of options. What do you think the best way would be to get content onto a screen? Are all TVs hookupable to computers now? What is your setup, and how does it work for you?

Remember that scene in Indiana Jones And The Temple Of Doom where the ridiculously othered and exoticized evil south asian priest puts the mojo on Indy and turns him into a bad guy and then Short Round realizes that fire will break the spell and grabs a torch and stabs Indie in the heart with it and he wakes up and is a good guy again and is like “omg we’ve got to get out of here and save the world!”? I woke up this morning realizing that Indiana Jones is our country, Short Round is our 349 electoral votes, and the torch is Barack Obama.

The sound track to World of Warcraft is now downloadable off of iTunes for a buck a pop. Because I play with the sound off so much of the time it is maybe not as evocative as it could be for me, and I have to admit I’m left wondering who is going to download this music to put on their iTunes…

…until I realized… Kara soundtrack… for office hours….

Two quick notes:
1. A Savage Minds entry of mine “got the nod”:http://www.boingboing.net/2008/05/29/indiana-jones-a-pink.html at either Boing Boing or the Boston Globe, depending which one you think is more important.

2. A forthcoming article of mine got a nod in a “Chron article by Siva Vaidyanathan”:http://chronicle.com/temp/reprint.php?id=k8yk3t00wchd2kvvxpfmm7rkcl0n7lpt — or so I’ve been told, since its behind a content wall.

3. No, I have no idea what happened to the formatting on my blog. I kind of like it, though — harkens back to the _just one column_ days.

The past few days have been really unfortunate — people who I know or who have played an important role in my life have passed on, including:

“Gargy Gygax”:http://blogs.guardian.co.uk/games/archives/2008/03/05/gary_gygax_cocreator_of_dd_dies_at_69.html – Creator not just of D&D but opener up of geekdom as a possibility or movement

“Joe Williams”:http://news.uchicago.edu/news.php?asset_id=1280 – the author of the best book on how to write ever

“Chris Kosmidis”:http://www.littler.com/people/index.cfm?event=getPerson&contactID=3326&office=406 – I used to work for Chris when he did computing stuff. His loss — especially at his young age — is tragic.

Rest in peace, each and every one.

Well “now the wait is over”:http://www.amazon.com/One-Pound-Fat-Replica-1Lb/dp/B000BHQLY6/ref=pd_sim_dbs_misc_title_4 — also available in “super sized version”:http://www.amazon.com/Five-Pound-Fat-Replica-Demonstration-Model/dp/B000BHONVE/ref=pd_sbs_hpc_title_1.

Apparently these are used in ‘aversion therapy’ for people trying to loose weight.

I had no idea that Amazon had a “lunatic fringe”:http://www.amazon.com/Grand-Unified-Theory-Equation-Journal/dp/B000Y9N8W4/ref=pd_sbs_misc_img_4, but I suppose that as the long tail grows ever longer and the catalog gets more complete it won’t surprising to see “churches”:http://www.amazon.com/Wedding-Chapel-10-Wood-Roof/dp/B000HUQ1C4/ref=pd_sbs_misc_title_5 or “tanks from Jabba The Hut’s Sky Barge”:http://www.amazon.com/JL421-Badonkadonk-Land-Cruiser-Tank/dp/B00067F1CE/ref=pd_sbs_misc_title_3 for sale.

“Step one”:http://www.nypress.com/18/8/news&columns/proptales.cfm

“Step two”:http://www.allguinness.com/2008/01/03/did-i-forget-to-mention/

Space Marines: Nothing can stop them.

This is the seventh anniversary of my blog — as its lifespan creeps towards double digits and the number of posts shrinks it seems more and more clear to me that it has become a permanent habit, albeit one lacking in the original drive that I once had for it. This is what happens when you begin reading and writing for a living — at the end of the day squeezing a few words out for a blog is hard. And then after you’ve done that for Savage Minds doing it for your _other_ blog is even harder!

What have I been thinking about this year? It was about this time last year that I realized the natural route out of my dissertation was to begin thinking seriously about Leviathan both in the sense of the concept as it is thrown around in the academy (such that it connects Job and Latour-n-Callon) but also in that it connects two key ethnographic areas for me: the ancient near east and the early modern period in Europe.

The ancient Near East — and a shallow but broad understanding of the contemporary Near East (is that the appropriate term? ‘middle east’? ‘west asia’?) — fit with my intellectual project for all sorts of reasons. Its the center of American politics and my own faith, a flashpoint for anthropological thought on segmentary lineage systems, and one of the first places where social complexity got off the ground. This last bit is the most important: in PNG the question is always “why is everything so hard to hold together” and of course the first place where people really began holding things together (so far as we know) was over there. As a way to continue connecting with my friends who did philological stuff, and to integrate myself into a four field department, learning about this area seemed a good idea.

Of course, there are states and there are states, and early Modern Europe is really the place to go to understand the genesis of the particular disciplinary forms that washed up and receded over PNG. Its also the period when the music I like the most was written, and yet somehow I didn’t know very much about it. The historical sociology of the state, in all its geeky Weberianicity, was a fun topic to return to. Having to teach Foucault to graduate students sharpens one’s interest in this period, and of course this is the period not only of Leviathan, but the air pump (and the birth of social science) so developing some sense of what it is like is important to me.

The other main ethnographic area which sits in the back of my thinking about PNG is, of course, the US. As the implicit contrast with PNG in all descriptions, it sits there in anthropological assumptions as ‘the thing the other place is being contrasted with’ and yet being American and knowing something about the US are quite different things. Consumerism, purchased food, advertising, and so forth all blossomed at the same time as the US, and you need to know something about their history ‘here’ before you understand how what is happening over ‘there’ is different. Reading up on social history of the nineteenth century helps, as does hitting up the ‘founding fathers’ stuff (a sort of late early modern state formation)– as a Californian you tend to think the world started with the gold rush 1848. And of course white colonization of the Pacific rim in the late 19th century has affected by adopted home as well. Finally, learning about American culture is important as I move into my study of American gamers.

Finally, learning about Americans means catching up with qualitative sociology — another one of the things I did this year was figure out what sort of sociological traditions have been running parallel to my own. This meant tracking down the Chicago school and its legacy and, incidentally, the pragmatist Dewey-James-Mead sort of origins of its thought (this brings us right round to 19th century US again). I’m broadly sympathetic — especially as I head towards psychological anthropology — but still can’t learn to enjoy James’s Victorian prose.

There are other themes: mmogs, PNG and more PNG, elites and social networks, the hydrocarbon industry, the sociology and history of anthropology, open access, teaching and pedagogy, but I think I have run out of steam. Hopefully this is at least a partial snapshot of what happened, mentally, for me in 2007.

When I try to sing like Tom Waits, I sound like Marlon Brando trying to sing like Tom Waits.

When I try to sing like Billy Holliday, I sound like Adam Sandler.

A quick note — I’ve moved from my old Textdrive server to the new Textdrive-absorbing Joyent server. So there will be some outages as I move stuff over from one server to the other but on the positive side: MUCH faster load times.

I was shocked and dismayed this morning to read that “Guy Mascord was killed in Port Moresby earlier this month”:http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/main.jhtml?xml=/news/2007/08/23/wpapua123.xml (more “here”:http://www.stratford-herald.co.uk/mainstory.php?ID=1135 and “here”:http://www.news.com.au/dailytelegraph/story/0,22049,22288197-5012773,00.html). This episode made the paper because he hired a (as the paper puts it) ‘witchdoctor’ to bespell his house in order to keep people away. But for me this terrible news is much more serious than this somewhat salacious detail allows.

I knew Guy Mascord well when I lived in Papua New Guinea from 1999 to 2001. He and his wife frequently worked as contractors at the Porgera Gold Mine, and I stayed with them there and visited them when they lived with in Alotau. I remember Guy as a small, quiet man with a twinkle in his eyes who I knew mostly in his capacity as a consultant for the Porgera Joint Venture. Like many permanent expats in Papua New Guinea, Guy managed to combine a deep cynicism about the fickle nature of life in PNG with a firm optimism about the country and its possibilities. He was a keen observer of Porgera and our conversations about local politics and the ups and downs of gold mining informed my own views of the valley. His loss is a terrible tragedy and I send my condolences to his family during what must be a very very difficult time.

New articles

I’ve updated the “things I’ve written”:http://alex.golub.name/log/things-ive-written/ page to include two new articles that have appeared recently. Just FYI.

Savage Minds is down temporarily… stay tuned… it’ll be up soon…

My good friend Biella “Maddog” Coleman has been chronicling “her woes dealing with Blue Cross Blue Shield”:http://healthhacker.org/satoroams/?p=783. I thank my stars everyday that UH has a strong union, good healthcare… and that I’m mole free! Biella’s asked me to help spread the word on her plight, so do take a second to check out her blog and spread the word.

“Martin London has passed away”:http://www.sacbee.com/300/story/171287.html — he was a real mensch.

“Oh my oh my oh my”:http://www.agwieland.com/?p=30 AllGuinness has just incremented. Gratz to all!

Over the weekend I went to a library sale at the Bishop Museum. It got written up by an article in the Advertiser. The quote from me in the article: “It’s always fun for a professor to come home after work and read a few monographs

For the record: yes. We _did_ go to the beach.

Ok so here is a longer note on the earthquake in Hawaii. The first thing to say is that everyone here is safe and sound that the earthquake was for us here in O’ahu, luckily, a non-event. This is perhaps best symbolized by the fact that the 6.0 quake resulted in a “four inch tsunami”:http://the.honoluluadvertiser.com/article/2006/Oct/16/br/br2659183047.html.

Growing up in California and living in an area of Papua New Guinea where we got not only the usual _guria_ (earthquake) but also blasting from an enormous goldmine, I tend to be schizophrenic about earthquakes, tremors, and whatnot. I feature either feverish over-preparation (stockpiling food, locking doors, readying basebal bat to fight off raskols) or disregard. I apparently chose disregard this time around. When I was woken up by the earthquake my first response was to go back to bed. But it kept on going and the scarily erudite beloved did too and by the time I got up and out of bed it was clear that it was a big quake. The aftershock immediately afterwards was also long and just about as strong, which was quite sobering. Still, after a brief consultation with the neighbors, we went back to bed.

The next day we found that power was out all over the island — not because the system was damaged but because (apparently) the system is designed to shut down automatically to prevent catastrophic breakdowns and flare-ups and so forth. So as a result we had 24 hours of no power so that the engineers could get everything up and running. The result was no cell phones, no Internet, no traffic light.

This ended up being not much of a big deal. I mean we live in _Hawaii_. The danger here was not lack of heating. If anything, we are at the hottest and most humid part of the year because the tradewinds have died down. But luckily they were up for most of the day yesterday and it was quite cool. And of course not having stoves to cook on is not a problem in a place where people can (and do) barbeque every day of the year. Water was still on, so drinking water and showers were no problem. And of course one nice thing about being Jewish in Hawaii is that you are never in danger of blackouts — you always have a full stock of candles.

I think the people who lived in high-rises had it far worse than us — no pumps in high-rises meant no water pressure and of course those big towers become quite still and dark when the power goes down. Except, of course, for the swankier ones (of which there are many) which have backup generators. But for us in our ohana-style home with lots of friends and the extended family living on the lot, this was no big deal.

If anything the earthquake was a chance to catch up with reading, break out the ukelele, and play boardgames by candlelight with family. Indeed, with no way to make coffee and an enforced break from work, it was difficult to do anything but catch up on reading and nap. A lot.

Luckily, most people had the experience we did, although apparently a few had it harder for us. Most of all we are glad that there was so little damage, so little violence, and so little injuries reported. If the black-out has lasted a day or two more it might have been a very different experience indeed. But as it was, we are glad to report that all are healthy and happy and even well-rested.

More later when I have time, but the long and the short of it is that we are all fine over here in Hawaii and although the quake hit people differently in different places, our experience of it was exactly that of the headlines over at the Advertiser: “For most part, residents roll with quakes, find quality time”:http://www.honoluluadvertiser.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20061016/NEWS01/610160353/1001. So we are all ok.

Inside Higher Ed is running another op-ed piece of mine entitled “stepping onto the tenure track”:http://www.insidehighered.com/views/2006/09/19/golub. This actually marks a bit of a change of my relationship with the site — I’ll now be publishing a regular monthly column with them called “tenure tracked” and I’ll now officially be called a ‘columnist’. As far as I can tell this doesn’t really change my relationship with IHE, except that they’ve found a way to stroke me ego and keep me happy and writing for them without actually having to pay me more money! Seriously, though, I am very excited and happy that my relationship with IHE is maturing — it’s an exciting organization to be a part of, however peripherally, and I look forward to working with them more in the future.

Ever since I have been hired as a professor I have been more and more concerned about what people find out about me when they search for me on the web. Or maybe I should say: ever since I was hired as a professor and then went and wrote a blog entry about laxatives. At any rate I did what I rarely do as a result and checked the Google results for “Alex Golub” and “Alex” respectively.

I’ve been the top hit for “Alex Golub” ever since there _was_ such a thing as Google hit, and I did this on purpose to make sure that _I_ was affecting the results for my name and not other people. It is only in hindsight that this was actually the wrong strategy since it meant I then had to figure out what to say and — more importantly — avoid saying anything stupid. Which is actually very hard to do.

What struck me about searching for my full name this time around is how far you have to go to learn about any of my other Googlegangers. Alex Golub the tennis player, who once shared page results with me, has now vanished. Even Alex S. Golub, award-winning surgeon, has been relegated to one brief mention surrounded by more redirects to me. That is on the ninth page of the Google results.

The tenth page. That means that there are _ten pages_ of me on Google. I am not sure I am particularly happy about this.

Now turn to the ultimate — and more realistic — measurement of Googlejuice: first name Google searches. I do not especially mind that I am nowhere near the top of Google searches for “Alex.” As far as I am concerned Alex King deserves all the Googlejuice he wants for getting WordPress together. Frankly I am just happy that someone has unseated “that friggin parrot”:http://www.alexfoundation.org/alex.htm from the top of the results. The first mention of my name comes on page 10 of the Google results for Alex.

I think its telling in some undfinable way that the ratio of first name pages to whole name pages is so close. I have no idea why. Perhaps we should call it the Parrot Coefficient? The closer we get to 1 the closer we approach celebrity? Much more interesting (and ego inflating) than working about such posh as absolute ranking.

For our wedding, my scarily erudite beloved and I received a “John Boos”:http://www.johnboos.com/ cutting board. We needed a nice new cutting board, but I must say this was more cutting board than we will ever need in our lives. Or, more accurately, it is easier to say that it is the only cutting board we will ever need for the rest of our lives.

As you can see from the website, the John Boos cutting board is a curious mix of stubborn New England emphasis on craftmanship and tradition, a superbly beautiful piece of woodwork, and exactly the sort of thing marketed to ‘foodies’ who couldn’t give a rat’s ass about tradition or woodwork but have a “positive customer experience” everytime they assemble the expensive, precut ingredients according to recipe they got off epicurious.com. (I am a glutton, not a ‘foodie’. There’s a difference.) To make sure that these sorts of people ‘get it’ John Boos sends cutting board owners a sheet of instructions with every cutting board written in the bleak moral language I’ve previously seen on the bottom of sheet music. Except instead of saying “Every illegal photocopy of sheet music destroys choral singing” the instructions said “THE AVERAGE PERSON CAN LENGTHEN THE LIFE OF A MEAT BLOCK 5-10 YEARS THROUGH OBSERVING THE FOLLOWING RULES IN ITS CARE” (caps in original).

These instructions, at the “support”:http://www.johnboos.com/support/block_care_instructions.cfm section of the Boos website. Yes. My cutting board has a support section. Frankly I am suprised that I did not have to download patches the first time I attempted to mince garlic. It is that kind of board.

Anyway, the long and the short of it is that — wait for it — wood lasts longer when treated with mineral oil. So I went out this morning to get some mineral oil from Longs. I found the bottle easily enough, but was a bit flabberghasted by the label, which read “Mineral Oil” and then, in smaller latters, “lubricant, laxative.” Mineral oil is a _laxative_? It doesn’t seem unreasonable to me, and yet I experience some sort of Levi-Straussian category error when I attempt to wrap my head about this. And then I remembered the last time I went to Longs to buy some epsom salts, which included instructions for how to use epsom salts as a laxative it, which strikes me as even more scary a category error.

So: either back in the day pretty much everything was a laxative or it could be that everything at Longs can be used as a laxative. I prefer to believe the former.

“there it is”:http://www.anthropology.hawaii.edu/faculty/golub/index.htm

The two most exciting things that happened to me today were meeting the person who buys all the anthro books for my uni’s library and the “hot new library homepage”:http://library.manoa.hawaii.edu/index.html which is so superior to the “terrifying older version”:http://libweb.hawaii.edu/index.htm.

Yeah library!

In addition to a job, I just got a new apartment with a nice big lanai — here’s the “view”:http://flickr.com/photos/53898944@N00/209874512/

Looks great eh? It’s less glamorous when you’re a bike commuter that has to pedal up to that view. Still, I wouldn’t trade it for the world.

I am _extremely_ happy to announce that I have accepted a full-time position as an assistant professor of anthropology at the University of Hawaii at Manoa. My scarily erudite beloved and I are incredibly happy to see that this has worked out and that we will be able to share a university together for the foreseable future.

Friends and family will know that this has been in process for some time, but it was only recently that I received an official offer from the university, which I accepted. Like all new professors I am overjoyed to have a full-time job complete with benefits, healtcare, and a decent salary. But I have the unique privilege of being part of a department that has a long and illustrious history of work in Pacific anthropology which I look forward to continuing. Now begins the Struggle For Tenure.

“Huzzah!”:http://www.flickr.com/photos/86518141@N00/173384502/

I turned 33 recently and am now almost a week into my “Jesus year”:http://www.doubletongued.org/index.php/dictionary/jesus_year/. And yet despite this fact I’ve had little time or inclination to write a post exloring my feelings on the subject. The short answer: good. For many people their thirties mark a time of transition in their lives as they ponder what they’re going to do now that they are grown up and can’t party any more. The nice thing about graduate school is that you don’t have any fun during it, and so see the thirties as blessed release rather than a let-down. No just kidding. I had a great time in graduate school and it sets you out on a career trajectory whose apogee comes decades after you get your Ph.D. So my life has in fact been steadily getting better for the past decade and doesn’t show any signs of stopping. In fact success at other things is the main reason I’ve been too busy to blog here!

One particularly successful thing that happened to me the other day was the arrival of my wedding ring in the mail. My fiancee and I have been planning to get married for a year now, and we are just over a month away from The Big Day. But someone none of the planning — not even her getting her wedding dress — really brought home to me that fact that this was actually going to _happen_. I am not a jewelry person, so I tried to ring on to make sure it fit, and then shook my hand up and down in the air to make sure the ring wouldn’t come off in the course of vigorous activity. It stayed on. I guess I’ll have to wear it everyday for the rest of my life. I couldn’t be more delighted.

So onward and upward — I am all about my thirties, yo.

I’ve updated the look of my website. This is my way of giving up on keeping web design one of my main skills and relegating it to something I used to do in my glory days. The theme looks fantastic because it’s Ben Eastaugh and Chris Johnson’s superb “Tarski”:http://ionfish.co.uk/tarski/ theme. I may try to tweak it a little but it looks great the way it is now — or it will when I get all the divs to behave.

As it turned out posting “Lightsaber Without A Key” on someone else’s server didn’t work out too well and alwaysblack and I decided it would be best if I ran the remainder of the story here on alex.golub.name. Nothing traumatic, just quicker updates this way. There is now a “Lightsaber Without A Key”:http://alex.golub.name/log/the-lightsaber-without-a-key/ page that has the entire story from beginning to end, and I’ve just added “the sixth installment”:http://alex.golub.name/log/the-lightsaber-without-a-key#VI — hopefully if I get back to posting every 10 days or so then I should have it done by early July!

I’m not sure whether you need a cookie to see this or not, but the latest edition of Critical Inquiry features a touching and eloquent “memory of Wayne Booth”:http://www.journals.uchicago.edu/CI/journal/issues/v32n2/320215/320215.html by Jaime Redfield. It’s an incisive portrait of a man by someone who was his close friend and the piece is a wonderful bit of Chicagoana. Redfield is by now a third (fourth?) generation Hyde Parker — he is the one who registered me to vote in Illinois during one of his door-to-door registration campaigns with his daughter. That was the University of Chicago all over: a celebrated professor of ancient Greece keeping democracy alive by registering voters. It’s a very touching piece for anyone who knew them, the neighborhood, or the university.

Hawaii is having the wettest winter in its history as a _state_ — the last time we had this much rain in March was in 1951. The Honolulu Advertiser has “stories”:http://www.honoluluadvertiser.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20060401/NEWS12/604010325/1001/NEWS about it, including a “flash gallery”:http://the.honoluluadvertiser.com/article/2006/Apr/01/ln/photos.html of pictures. Check out the one’s of Makiki stream flooding — that’s two block from my house! Luckily we’re two blocks _uphill_ of Makiki stream, but I saw some of the flooding yesterday as I was walking home. The system can handle a lot of water and in situations like right now (we’re having a brief sunny spell) everything drains ok, but yesterday we couldn’t handle it. Firefighters, utility company folks etc. are doing there best, but we’ve also had the most raw sewage spills in the past 20 years as sewage systems go crazy. Something like a million tons of raw sewage had to be vented into the canal around Waikiki when a sewage line broke. Of course this just meant that the waters at Waikiki beach got as dirty as, say, that at the point in Hyde Park.

We’re far enough uphill and on enough of an incline that we haven’t taken any special measures… yet. We’ll see how the rest of the weekend goes…

My dissertation is now available for download! This is the version I submitted to the dissertation office (‘the margin nazis’) at the University of Chicago, so it is only semi-canonical — there may be changes to the formatting of the bibliography, page numbers, and so forth. Additionally, I just hit ‘convert to PDF’ in Open Office, and haven’t gone back and checked that everything was PDFified ok. The Official Version will be the UMI version, but that won’t be out for another eight months to a year, so I figured I will put this up. I am a notoriously poor speller and proofreader, so please do not tell me about typos in the final version — it will make me feel bad and might tip off the dissertation office. So let’s just call it good and move on, shall we?

“Making the Ipili Feasible: Imagining Local and Global Actors at the Porgera Gold Mine, Enga Province, Papua New Guinea”:http://alex.golub.name/res/writing/Golub2006.pdf (1.5 meg PDF download)

Yesterday I finally acquired my Hawaiian name: Ka’iolama. It’s not unusual for people taking Hawaiian language classes to be given Hawaiian names by their kumu (teacher) but I during my first semester of Hawaiian I never asked for one. There were lots of reasons why: I had just finished getting “my Chinese name”:http://alex.golub.name/log/2005/06/22/request-for-comments/ (which ended up taking like a month), I wanted a good name rather than one that was just a translation of my English name (Aleka for Alex, Malia for Maria, Po for Paul, etc.) and finally — it just didn’t feel write. I’ve accumulted something live five or six names and nicknames by now and I take seriously the process of acquiring each one. In particular, taking a Hawaiian name as a recent immigrant to Hawaii — and indeed, a white anthropologist who specializes in the Pacific! — taking a Hawaiian name marked a certain level of commitment to and membership in a certain group of people interested in perpetuating Hawaiian language and culture, and I felt that one semester of learning how to say hello and goodbye in Hawaiian didn’t constitute a genuine engagement with that community.

My second semester of Hawaiian, however, has been much more intense and has involved a lot of immersive language learning. Not only and I sharing the classroom with students who are themselves kanaka maoli (indigenous Hawaiian), but even the white guys have Hawaiian names! It simply felt like I wasn’t trying to ‘pass’ as someone who knew Hawaiian culture — instead I felt out of place for _not_ having a Hawaiian name. So I figured it was time.

I talked with the two kumu who had taught me so far about my other names and tried to come up with one that fit them. My Hebrew name is Eliyahu (Elijah), which had a range of resonances for them, but these all had their roots in Christian missionization in the Pacific, and even if today there is nothing more authentically ‘Pacific’ than Christianity I didn’t feel comfortable with that. Rex had connotations of royalty that seemed hubristic and insensitive for a white person in a former kingdom to lay claim to. Plus Kalani (exalted one, heavenly one, often used for ‘chief’) is _way_ too overused and, in some people’s opinion, shouldn’t be used unless you _are_ exalted. My Chinese name, ‘exuberant Goose’ was nice, and I told my kumu I thought something that suggested great ambition and discipline combined with occasional bouts of extreme silliness would be appropriate.

After some thought we settled on Ka’iolama. Ka means “the”, and ‘io is “buteo soltarius”:http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hawaiian_Hawk, the Hawaiian Hawk. It is, admittedly, and overused bird to find in a name — ‘Iolani Palace (which I drive past on my way to work everyday) is the “Heavenly Hawk” Palace. The hawk is associated with royalty and known for flying higher than other birds. We thought this matched wild goose in my Chinese name, which is known for solitary flight. Interestingly, the buteo genus is technically a “buzzard”:http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Buzzards — apprarently the negative connotations of this term are found only in the New World, and in the Old a ‘buzzard’ is simply a kind of hawk.

“Lama” is a bit more difficult to pin down. Like all good Hawaiian words, it has multiple meanings. My kumu picked it for me because it means to ’shine’ or be ‘enlightened,’ which is meant to capture the fact that I am an educator (or just plain overeducated!). The moon is malama. Reduplicated you get malamalama “light of knowledge, clarity of thinking or explanation, elightenment, shining, radiant, clear.” The seal of the University of Hawaii features a torch and a book with the word ‘malamalama’ written on it. This is appropriate because lama can also mean a torch or lamp or “disopyros sanwicensis”:http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diospyros, the endemic species of ebony used for making these torches, which was also associated with medicinal qualities (sick people were often put in huts built of lama wood).

What my kumu _didn’t_ tell me is that “lama” is also the Hawaiian term (obviously taken directly from English) for rum, and by extension alcohol in general! “He kanaka inu lama” is a heavy drinker. I like this because it is strangely cognate with the Tok Pisin ’spark’ (from the English ’spark’) which means ‘drunk’ — both terms associate drunkeness with illumination and conflagration.

So depending on how you look at it I could be either “The Enlightened Hawk” or “The Drunk Buzzard” (technically this would be Ka’io’ona, but it translates better than “Rum Buzzard”). I think double/multiple/hidden (kaona) meaning is not only in keeping with my ’serious/silly’ character, but also very Hawaiian. I’m just fine with it. Thanks very much to my kumu for coming up with such a wonderful new name for me!

Short and enigmatic, two new slogans have entered my life recently. I read the first on the window of the Taco Bell on King and Ke’eaumoku street. It was advertising some new sort of burrito. I don’t remember what the burrito was, but I remember the slogan:

*A full 1/2 pound of flavor*

This is, to me, the ultimate slogan of American food capitalism. What flavor, specifically, does it have? This is left completely unspecified. And who cares — after all, there’s a half pound of it! While I am not surprised to see capitalist faux-Mexican food preparation reduce quality to quantity, I do find it a little strange that flavor is now measured in weight rather than, say, size. “That’s great meatloaf, honey — it’s got three pounds of flavor!”

The other slogan comes from the soap that my scarily erudite beloved recently bought, which has displayed on the wrapping of each and every bar the motto:

*Trust the mildness*

I am not sure what words I associate with the word ‘trust’ but ‘mildness’ isn’t one of them. Perhaps that makes me a bad person? Regardless, Jergen’s exhortation to yield myself up to its products soft and truthful ways seems simultaneously incongruous and vaguely sinister in a seductive, medicinal sort of way.

After complaining in print a month or so ago, I can now report that I am the proud recipient of “a chili pepper”:http://www.ratemyprofessors.com/SelectTeacher.jsp?sid=403&orderby=TLName&letter=G at Ratemyprofesor.com.

Heh. I just upgraded to Wordpress 2.0 and the backend is VERY pretty. Also: yeah instant category adds!

Today my blog turns four. On previous anniversaries I was able to reflect back on the blog’s history and its twists and turns over time. After four years, however, these begin to fade into the background. Come to think of it — what did I do this year? A year ago I had just moved to Hawaii and finished my first semester teaching fulltime, and was struggling to finish my dissertation. In the 365 days since then I’ve defended my dissertation, gained experience and confidence teaching, started Savage Minds, released the paper version of AHATPOLS, started the digital version of its sequel, got on the AnthroSource Steering Committee, and sent off a couple of pieces for publication which are _still_ not in print.

Hey, that sounded pretty impressive. But the best part of all: I got engaged. Huzzah!

It’s been a full year for me and I have two more pieces to send off to publishers before break is over, so I’m afraid I don’t have time to wax philosophical even though this is definitely the time to do so. So good luck and keep going and… happy new years everyone!

First, let me congratulate Christians everywhere on the birth of their god: Congratulations!

Second: this is my second Christmas in Hawai’i. This Christmas, as last year, I received many cards and emails asking me “how it feel to be in place where it isn’t snowing on Christmas.” The answer is: exactly the same way every Christmas I ever had growing up. It will be 60 degrees (Farenheit) and rainy in my home town tomorrow — typical of the mild ‘Mediterranean winters’ I experienced as a child in California’s central valley. So the answer to the question “isn’t it wierd to be someplace so warm on Christmas” is: NO. You know what was weird to me? When I moved to Chicago and woke up on Christmas and it was actually snowing. THAT seemed weird to me. Snow seemed weird to me. Still does. I like to keep it far from my body, because it is cold. For me, moving to Hawaii is a return to normalcy — except that Hawaii is quite a bit cooler (about 20 degreees) in the summer than the central valley of California is.

It doesn’t snow where I live now. It didn’t snow where I grew up. There are million — indeed, hundreds of millions — of Americans who live in places where it does not snow on Christmas. I know that for many Christians Christmas essentially IS nothing than a celebration of winter weather, even if they live in a warm climate (why else did they spraypaint the snow in the corners of windows on the streets in my California suburb?), but this is a little embarassing. I hate to make snarky remarks about the transparently ‘pagan’ aspects of Christmas since it’s such an overdone critique. But if you keep asking me about snow I will have no choice. You have been warned.

Remember: Christmas is not about snow. It is about the birth of your god. Rejoice and — merry Christmas!

With the holiday season fast approaching, many of you are wondering: “what sorts of presents would Alex like to receive?” And so I would like to take this opportunity to remind you of two things: First, you should feel free to purchase presents for me at any time of the year, not only the end of the year. Do not let the warm glow you get from making me happy fade with 2006 — buy me presents all the time!

Second, I’ve put together a list of representative present-types on a new “Amazon wishlist”:http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/registry.html/ref=wlem-si-html_viewall/102-8716047-1531308?id=10E8DCQ63LGPL. This list is special because I’ve made a great effort to include things that aren’t books or video games. As you can see, I was staggeringly unsuccessful, but at least I gave it a shot. What can I say? When you live in a place where it’s 83 degrees everyday, you simply don’t need socks. So at least I’ve indicated what sorts of things I read in my free time, so you can get me a biography of Andrew Jackson even if the Sean Wilentz is not yet available at your own Local Retail Outlet.

At times it seems tempting to ‘personalize’ your presents by coming up with something you think I would like even thought it is not on this list. I urge you not to take any risks when it comes to buying me presents. As Radcliffe-Brown once put it in his short piece on applied anthropology, “The Stakes for Which We Play Are Too High to Allow of Experiment.”

W00t! After semesters of teaching I am now finally an official professor: I have “a rating at ratemyprofessor.com”:http://www.ratemyprofessors.com/ShowRatings.jsp?tid=753498! Apparently I am a good teacher, although exactly why is still a little unclear. Indeed, sometimes the comments verge on the enigmatic, such as the line “one of the books he has chosen for the class is very different from other books.”

I rate a 4.8 out of 5, which is pretty good. In fact, it is higher than most of the other professors in my department. But don’t get too excited, though — I am also one of the few in my department who has not earned the coveted chili pepper before their name to indicate that they are ‘hot.’ Transference: it’s complicated.

I know some professors harbor considerable resentment to sites like Rate My Professor for one reason or another, but I’m just happy that someone cared enough about my course to register an opinion one way or the other. I’m even more delighted that the opinion was a good one. However I also found out today that one section of my intro anthro course is full and I haven’t even finished teaching the ones for this semester. Perhaps I should try to be scarier so I can get smaller class sizes where a discussion-based format would work better?

Here’s the latest news about Spink’s sentencing: the Chilliwack Times “reports on his trial and conviction”:http://www.chilliwacktimes.com/issues05/114205/news/114205nn6.html. They also quote my blog — and you can tell they do it accurately because they even include my patented typos!

UPDATE: More on Spink at “an article on MSNBC”:http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/10110633/ (thanks Erin!)

Is my fiancee the bestest person in the entire world or what? In order to cradle and preserve it during the stress and strain it will inevitably take at the AAAs, she has crocheted a beautiful cell-phone cover for it! Here are two pictures of it accessorized with a copy of _Towards and Anthropological Theory of Value_. I call it “Still life avec Graeber”:

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witness also the hand-crafted obverse, in which the complex dialectic of my identity is once and for all settled:

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Yeah Scarily Erudite Beloved!

1. Every Thomas Pynchon novel includes at least four or five songs, complete with lyrics and descriptions of what the songs sound like. When is some enterprising composer going to set them, a la Jake Heggie’s cabaret songs, to music? There would be much publicity.

2. Last night my Scarily Erudite Beloved and I were talking about language (we are professors in love. We do this. Deal.). She claimed that ‘languish’ and ‘anguish’ were the two most over-determined Elizabethan rhymes. I then ran over the possibilities and realized that L was the only letter you could stick in front of ‘anguish’ and still get a word. But no longer! The SEB reccomends ‘panguish’: the anguish of a penguin (cf. March of the Penguins) e.g. “my egg! My egg! It’s rolling away!” or “I’ve got to get out of this TUXEDO.” I prefer the more on-brand ‘manguish.’ After all, an ‘anguish’ is an anguish, but a manguish is a meal.

My dissertation is due to be deposited deep in the belly of the squat, brooding limestone beast called the Joseph Regenstein library. I can not tell you how much fun it is to proofread 400 pages of thesis. For extra added fun I tweak the margins and doublecheck the bibliography. My eyes glaze over. It is the Glaze Of Revision.

If it was simply a matter of spit and polish I would not be so stressed, but if the library does not like my formatting, then I do not graduate. Not graduating does not matter to me so much since I have already defended my dissertation, which is all anyone cares about. But I don’t graduate and I have to tweak the thesis format yet again, then I will have to enroll in the uni for _another_ quarter, which means _more tuition_. And I do not want to pay tuition any more. I am ready to move on to student loan payments.

The party, she does not stop.

I dreampt last night that I was a soldier in an exciting military campaign with photrealistic graphics and edge-of-my-seat action. However, just when the battle was getting good the scene shifted away and I found myself at the start of another battle, this time in a totally different historical period. After two more shifts of location I realized that I was dreaming that I was inside a new, uber-cool real time strategy game and that I would never get to play any of the good parts of it because I was only dreaming the demo version that my mind, apparently, downloaded off the unconscious’s internet. This seemed really unfair to me. It’s bad enough I have to pay US$50 for video games in waking life — the least I could do is get them for free in my dreams.

An anonymous poster on an earlier entry about indicted drug dealer and former anthropology major “Doug Spink”:http://alex.golub.name/log/index.php?cat=27 has announced that Doug Spink has been “sentenced to three months in a minimum security prison”:http://alex.golub.name/log/?p=369#comment-17026. I have no idea whether this is true or not — Google News had some brief articles on the trial, but none of them mentioned Spink’s sentence. It looks like the prosecutor was more interested in the people running the ring than in Doug, who was basically a mule.

The New York Times reported today that “Wayne Booth”:http://www.nytimes.com/2005/10/11/books/11booth.html passed away yesterday. In addition to sharing a university, Wayne and I had another connection — I worked as his personal assistant troubleshooting problems with his computer at home. For much of graduate school I supported myself by working in computing in various ways, including make house calls to help professors out. Typically this included emeritus types who fell through the cracks of the support policies of their divisions as well as very busy professors — I am one of the few people who can say they’ve been paid to defragment Homi Bhabha’s hard drive. But out of all of those people I remember Wayne the best, and I am truly grieved at his loss.

When I first began working with Wayne I knew that he was a famous professor, although I had not done more then glance at some of his work. As someone who provided desktop support to professors, I knew that they sometimes had egos or a sense of self-importance that needed fixing as often as their computers did. It did not take long after my meeting with him to get a sense of his unique personality: laconic in the great tradition of the American frontier, but extroverted as well. In fact his writing could sometime seem self-absorbed — this was a man, after all, who wrote articles about his hearing aid in local literary journals. By the time I met him, Wayne was a man who had already spent decades being feted as one of the most important intellectuals in his discipline. He was a teacher who had not just won every teaching award Chicago had to offer, but had helped define the character and goals of the College at the University of Chicago. He was a faculty member hardened by decades of departmental politics — all of which he had won. He was in many ways a real role model to me.

One of the things that impressed me about Wayne was how he had managed to do this without becoming proud and haughty. He had an ego — you don’t get to the top of any field without feeling the need to prove something about yourself to the world — but he wore it lightly, and he put it in service of his work with others. One of Wayne’s biggest problems when I knew him was his hearing — he wore a hearing aid and had special amplification on his phone. As a result I spent more than one occasion defragmenting his hard drive or dowloading his mail while listening to him work over a dean or department head on the phone. On these occasions he demonstrated the self-confidence and emotional intensity necessary to get one’s way in institutions like Universities, where influence is the currency that power comes in. But in his personal life he was a remarkably loving father and husband — he and Phyllis had been married for more than a half century and had an obvious and uncomplicated love for each other that was amazing. As I helped him send and receive email I occasionally read correspondence between his daughters and himself which revelead their relationship to be equally open. Indeed, their encouragement to him as he worked through health problems and general old age revealed a kindness of character which was the ultimate proof of Wayne’s ability as a father. And of course, over the computer were pictures of grandchildren and other relatives. When he worked, his family was literally never out of his sight.

I know that Wayne was a great teacher because he taught me. Many senior professors patronize the younger and less able, but Wayne’s ego directed him to teach rather than judge. He was generous of his time with me and his paychecks were always ten or fifteen dollars more than I had asked for. His situation at home was a mess — an ancient, virus-filled computer running a modem connection on faulty wires operated by a man who knew little about computers, but whose scholarly life depended on word processing and email. When I had to back up his data, wipe his hard drive, and reinstall his operating system in order to convince the networking people his computer was virus free, he bore it out with a patience and trust that few of my other clients did. As we got to know each other better, we discussed areas of common interest. We were both musicians, both had an interest in rhetoric, and were both opposed to the war in Iraq (he called himself a ‘dove’ — a term from a conflict decades gone). At one point I waived my usual fee and asked instead for an office hours so that we could talk about Kenneth Burke — a unique opportunity for me. He not only spent an hour with me talking about Burke and suggesting readings, he offered to lend me books from his own personal library and then, at the end of the session, insisted on paying me for my work on his computer anyway. I still own and teach from the copy of “The Craft of Research” that he gave me — I wish now I had the nerve to ask him to sign it for me.

Working with Wayne was a unique opportunity for me to watch a genuinely good person and an unquesitonably great professor live out a life filled with success and happiness. I send my condolences to Phyllis, the rest of his family, and his colleagues.

5766 in the house. Congratulations to the world on reaching another birthday, and I hope you all have a sweet (but not cloying) new year. High Holy Days have been relatively uneventful for my Scarily Erudite Beloved and I — indeed, I’ve been so busy teaching and such that it seemed like the Days of Awe took me by surprise, smacked my in head with a blackjack, and then dragged my unconscious body into a dark alley, where it stuffed my pockets with apples dipped in honey. Consistently, however, when I take the bus to temple the bus driver has asked me whether I was lost or need help. This isn’t unusual — the Honolulu bus system is full of tourists who unknowingly miss the ‘Iolani Palace stop and end up puzzled in Mililani. What is unusual is the way that I get mistaken for a tourist on it, something which almost never happens to me. True, in other situations I am occasionally encouraged to “enjoy the rest of my stay” since I am in some way the honkiest of honkies, but when I am dressed up somehow the effect is magnified. On the way back from Shul I stopped to get plate lunch, and the women behind the cash register gave me a fork and knife instead of chopsticks. This only reinforces my sneaking suspicion that a lot what gets called ‘race’ or ‘ethnicity’ in Hawai’i is actually a lot about class, and a lot of what counts as ‘haole’ is really about dress and not skin color. I never feel offended one way or the other, but it is curious that it happens. Why is it that when I’m wearing slippers, cargo shorts and a shirt from Target I get the chopsticks?

Huzzah! That wasn’t hard at all.

Some weirdness may happen to the website as I switch over to my new server. Then again it may not. Hold on a sec.

Yesterday I got my first cellphone. Ever.

My scarily erudite beloved and are not anti-cellphone people, and we’ve often talked about getting them, but ultimately we just figured we never had anyone to actually call. Occasionally when we visit the mainland we realize it would be easier having them, and of course we still get blank looks from friends when we suggest that we actually meet them at a particular time and place rather than just ring them up ‘when we’re almost there.’ Cellphoned, they are untethered from planning in a way we are not.

But a few weeks ago I had a fall off my bicycle (I am now fine) and there was a lag of an hour or two between the time I got taken to the emergency room and I was able to contact the woman who is soon to become my next of kin. So that settled it. We are now cellphoned.

At first I did not expect having a cellphone would greatly impact my life. Then, as I spent more time staring at the perky, vaguely optimistic looking Samsung I had been saddled with I had a creeping but unmissable feeling that my life was being irrevocably transformed into something wonderful and different from what it had been before. True, after spending forty minutes trying to figure out how to download Tetris to my phone a bit of the wonder had worn off. And I have yet to receive a call since, as I knew all along, there is no one I really have to call who I won’t see in person or on the intarweb in a few hours anyway. But who knows? Perhaps this is the beginning of a beautiful relationship? I think I’m going to call it Rufus.

A reader from an earlier post about my fellow Reed alumn tells me that Doug Spink has pleaded guilty to charges regarding the 169 kilos cocaine the police caught him with, and that his sentencing hearing is coming up. Here’s a snippet from “the comment”:http://alex.golub.name/log/?p=369#comment-16117:

On February 28, 2005, Douglas Spink was arrested in the Western District of Washington after taking delivery of approximately 169 kilograms of cocaine from Wesley Cornett. Cornett was a courier for Robert Kesling, the owner-in-interest of the cocaine. Investigation establishes that Spink, Cornett, and Kesling were part of a single conspiracy to distribute cocaine and marijuana in the Western District of Washington, and elsewhere. Spink and Cornett have entered guilty pleas to the charges set forth in their indictments and are awaiting sentencing. Kesling is set for trial.

I had no idea there was such a thing as an ‘owner-in-interest’ of cocaine, or anything else for that matter. Despite the fact that Spink was never my friend — or even much of an acquaintance — Google now considers my blog to be the #1 source of information about this case and so if anyone wants to fill the world in on it, the comments would be a good place to do it. I figure that if I can type in all the words to _Nullo in mundo pax_ (the other thing Google thinks my blog is good for) then surely y’all can keep us updated on the Spink trail.

I’m happy to announce that I got an email today from the American Anthropological Association informing me that I have received second place in their essay contest “How will AnthroSource transform anthropological scholarship?” for my essay “AnthroSource — actually useful?”:http://savageminds.org/2005/05/24/anthrosource-actually-useful/. Maybe I would have gotten first if I had answered more enthusiastically in the affirmative? At any rate, this means some minor fetting at the AAAs in Washington in December and cash money totalling US$250 — in other words, the cost of five brand new computer games. I’d like to thank the AAA for their appreciation of the essay, as well as their enabling me to unite the Grove Street Families and take back San Andreas, retake the galactic republic from the evil clutches of the Sith, explore the minimalistic themepark of Darwinia, and relive my late-80s Sid Meier-fuelled swashbuckling in fully-rendered 3D.

Or maybe I’ll just buy all three volumes of Fornander’s Hawai’ian Antiquities.

Busy busy busy

The rest of the month will be a particularly busy time for me as a number of due dates, publications, applications, and courses all align into a crunch time of cosmic proportions. This means I will either not blog at all because I will be too busy, or else I will blog a lot in a desperate attempt to avoid work. Just letting you know.

I’m very pleased to announce that I have been selected to become a member of the AnthroSource Steering Committee. “AnthroSource”:http://www.anthrosource.net/ is the American Anthropology Association’s version of JSTOR and they (or, I guess now I should say ‘we’) are trying to build it out into something new and wonderful. While I have some competency thinking about technology and have managed various technology organizations before, I’ve never served on an Official AAA committee before and have no idea how it works or what specifically we will do. However, by signing on to the AnthroSource Steering Committee it does become at least partially my responsibility. So if for some reason you have something to say about AnthroSource, feel free — I am now one of the people you can say it to.

After some searching through the Oregonian’s painfully organized website I was able to fish up “Gail Kelly’s obituary”:http://www.oregonlive.com/obituaries/oregonian/index.ssf?/base/obits/112514055358120.xml&coll=7. It’s remarkably brief and quite a counterpoint to the responses I’ve received to my blog entry to her.

In a weird sort of an inversion of an internet quiz site, I’m writing a summary of my teaching evaluations for the anthro department at UH Manoa, where I taught over the summer (this is the only place I’ve taught where I give them the summary rather than the other way around). Anyway I never blog about my classes — it’s not my students fault I have this nasty habit, after all, and they deserve privacy — but I think now that it’s done the class went really well and I had a great time. Apparently, within a few standard deviations, they did too. So, if any of you are listening: MAD SHOUTS OUT TO ANTHROPOLOGY OF CONTEMPORARY PROBLEMS. KEEPING IT REAL IN SUMMER 05 YO!!!!!

Ok enough of that. On to the real topic of this post, question 18 of the faculty evaluation: “What two or three single words best describe the instructor?” I’ve not encountered this question before, and tabulating the answers gave me a strange sense of being seen through other peoples’ eyes that a 5 point scale about “instructor’s ability to communicate subject to students” didn’t. Anyway, here are the results — of which I’m very proud and happy — in case you were wondering what I am like in real life (or at least anth 300):

knowledgeable (listed 7 times)
intense (positive way) [sic]
expressive
fair (3 times)
interesting (2 times)
funny (2 times)
enthusiastic (2 times)
articulate (2 times)
smart
extrovert
engaging
humorous
genuine
open
accepting
prepared
conversation provoking
cheerful
learned
pink [sic]
informative
contemporary

Alas, “artist with the light saber” and “clean movement through his passagio” didn’t occur. It’s just a matter of time, though.

Gail Margaret Kelly, my undergraduate adviser and the woman responsible for my choice of anthropology as a vocation, passed away yesterday. Readers of the blog might remember that my friend Thomas Strong and I recently organized a conference in honor of Profesor Kelly entitled “Fashioning Anthropology”:http://web.reed.edu/gailkelly/ in which students from across her forty year career at Reed College paid tribute to the influence she had on their career. As Joel Robbins noted in a recent email to the Association for the Social Anthropology of Oceania informing the group of her passing, “no fewer than five of the scheduled papers at that event were by students of hers who had gone on to do graduate work focused on Melanesia,” noted Robbins, and although “She did not seek much attention for herself beyond Reed’s campus” and thus “many ASAO members may not realize how important she has been to our field… her influence on those she taught and mentored, her impact on our corner of the anthropological world has been quite deep.”

Professor Kelly (never ‘Gail’) is a difficult woman to memorialize because she was simultaneously unknown to the wider world of scholarship and an unmissable presence on the Reed College campus. There is an additional paradox that must be frankly dealt with as well: although many of us consider her to be the epitome of the teacher and mentor some people (perhaps most?) disliked her, often intensely. In fact, her ability to humiliate and anger students was sufficiently strong that one person responded to our initial invitation to attend the conference not to accept, but to let us know how, two decades after all her graduation, the memory of Professor Kelly still angered her. “Ms. Kelly’s contribution to my academic education was stifling and intimidating,” she wrote, “teaching to the few she deemed worthy of her attention instead of looking to inspire all of her Anthropology students.” Another friend of mine (who did not major in anthropology) remembered Professor Kelly recently along similar lines, but in a way more in keeping with her spirit: “She was mean to people, but only the ones who deserved it.” She was so intimidating that she was named the “scariest college professor” in Portland by one of the local papers. As anthropology major turned international drug smuggler and possible zooerast “Doug Spink”:http://alex.golub.name/log/?p=369 summarized, “Put simply, Gail’s is the sharpest mind under which I’ve ever studied. Not in the grandstanding sense of self-importance, but rather in the literal sense of cutting, quick, and deadly effective. She had no tolerance for students without intellectual depth and a high work ethic. She expected more, something of interest, presented with flair, substance, and intellectual rigor.”

Trying to understand how Professor Kelly could be admired as a great mentor while simultaneously disliked by many around her requires understanding the woman capable of evoking such contradictory responses. My memory (written with the help of the Internet and not much else) is that she was born in Portland Oregon in 1933 [update: I was wrong about this, she was born in Deer Park, WA] and attended Reed College as an undergraduate. Like many anthropology students she wrote about Wasco-Wishram culture, the Native North American group that David French, the dean of anthropology at Reed, had worked with and knew well. Her thesis applied Morris Opler’s idea of ‘themes’ to her material, and she graduated in 1955. She pursued graduate studies in anthropology at the University of Chicago. There she grew interested in the project on new nations that was active at the time, and was particularly influenced by Edward Shils and the Committee On Social Thought. Professor Kelly wrote an MA on social organization in the Northwest Coast that was in keeping with her Boasian Reed background, and then turned to Africa for her dissertation on “The Ghanaian Intelligentsia” and graduated in 1959. If I remember correctly there was a bit of concern that she had not done fieldwork as part of the thesis and was perhaps distant from the department, and Shils had to vouch for her work. Shortly after completing the dissertation she conducted 18 months of fieldwork in Ghana — partly in order to satisfy the anthropology department — of which I rarely heard her speak at length. She returned to Reed in 1960 after publishing an essay in Bert Hoselitz’s collection “A Reader’s Guide To The Social Sciences” and continued to teach there for the next forty years. Between 1976 and 2000 she advised over 60 thesis students, including me, and is probably responsible for close to 100 undergraduate theses written at Reed.

In Professor Kelly’s classes ‘anthropology’ meant ‘British Social Anthropology’. Even by during her time as a student at Reed the anthropology department had an unusually strong tradition of excellence with links to the Boasian tradition. David French was a student of Opler, who taught at Reed (although not during Kelly’s time there), as did Alexander Goldenweiser. But as far as I can tell her experience at Chicago aligned Professor Kelly her much more closely with the synthetic project of sociology. I went through my entire undergraduate education with her without reading Boas, Sapir, Lowie, Benedict, or other Boasians. The exception to this was Coming of Age in Samoa, which we read in Intro Anthropology so, as she put it, “You can say you’ve read a book by Margaret Mead.”

As macrotheorists go she focused on a very Parsonian (now considered tendentious) reading of Weber and, above all, Durkheim. Marx was something that I had to learn about in the political science department — I think Professor Kelly considered him a cargo cultist slightly less interesting than Yali — and Freud was simply never mentioned, except perhaps occasionally as we dismissed all psychological theories as studying phenomenon ineffable and transitory when compared to objective, enduring social facts. Adam Smith never even appeared. Professor Kelly’s interest in ‘the classics’ of social theory was the legendary flip side of her immersion in a sort of Parsonian synthesis of social science — she had come of age intellectually, after all, when Parson’s two volume reader in “Theories of Society” was creating a cannon of the ’sociological tradition’ out of imported European theories, and authors like Henry Sumner Maine, Fustel de Coulanges, and William Robertson Smith were considered to be important theorists worth reading in their own right, not merely for historical interest. She lamented the retranslation of Mauss’s _Essai Sur Le Don_ and continued to speak of ‘prestations’ rather than ‘gifts’.

Our ‘Advanced Social Anthropology’ class started with The Andaman Islanders (ALL of it) and ended with Political Systems of Highland Burma. Our ‘Social Theory’ course involved a close reading of The Division of Labor in Society — indeed, a page by page examination of each passage and footnote as if it was holy writ. Her Religion and Ritual course focused on Elementary Forms of the Religious Life. In fact I took them back to back, discussing Elementary Forms for an hour and a half, waiting fifteen minutes, moving to another classroom, and then discussing Division of Labor. All of her classes during my time at Reed had titles like this. “Gifts and Goods,” “Millenarianism,” “Religion and Ritual,” and so forth. Professor Kelly was not opposed to other disciplines. All right-thinking anthropology majors obediently shuffled off to take Ray Kierstead’s course on the Annales School since these historians were considered cousins of the Annee Sociologique. Equally, at an earlier stage in her career she was quite interested in the philosophical literature on cultural relativism and alternate rationalites and co-taught a course on it with Bill Peck. Equally, she was not opposed to novelty, particularly in ethnography. The Gender of the Gift — hardly your traditional ethnography — figured prominently in her Gifts and Good Class. She dismissed (disastrously, I later realized) Bakhtin as worthless, but picked up on the work of Bruno Latour a decade before mainstream anthropology would discover him. But above all she valued the classics.

She viewed the academic world in the highly personalistic terms more familiar to those familiar with the tangled social web of indy rock bands or the private lives of celebrities. The key to the Fortes-Leach debate (which we read. In intro anthropology.) was not the way that Leach was beginning, based on his reading of Levi-Strauss, to articulate a theory of alliance rather than descent. What mattered was, we were told, that Fortes had to pass through Leach’s office in order to reach his own, thus making confrontation inevitable. She could be very candid about the world of anthropology and its characters. She was quite frank in saying that most anthropologists simply didn’t read half the books they talked about — something I thought impossible until I got to graduate school, and realized the value of being able to call someone on the minor details of Divinity and Experience Amongst The Dinka. It was this sort of gossipy, informal approach to these books — who was teaching where, and so forth, that made this work come alive for us and informs my own sense of intellectual history (which is as good a description of what she taught as ‘anthropology’ is) to this day.

Nevertheless, it is difficult for me to remember exactly what I read for each class because I did not have a sense when I was an anthropology major that I was reading _for_ a class. One of the participants at the Fashioning Anthropology conference remarked on Professor Kelly’s well-known penchant for having syllabi that did not include lists of books or even very explicit lists of reading. He remembered when he asked her why this was that she responded “Because I do not consider you responsible for a set list of books. I consider you responsible for the entire literature.” The entire literature: this was her all over. I remember her remarking in class to us that “being an anthropology major doesn’t just mean doing the reading for class. It means reading the latest journals, checking used bookstores, keeping up with the field as a whole.” She was serious. My office hours with her consisted of me mentioning a topic of interest, and then her suggesting that I read a book on the topic. Further meetings would include a discussion of the book and then mention of another book ‘I might like to look into.’ If I hasn’t read it by the next time I saw her, stony silence ensued that made it clear to me she wondered what I was doing in her office. The result was basically another independent study course that stretched over my three years as an anthropology major, combined with the development of a keen interest in what was being published and what sorts of things were being ordered or, more telling, remaindered and sold used at Powell’s. There were no secondary sources (although some of us found them out on our own and read them secretly), there was only the primary text. We did not skim. We did not skip. We read books closely, and in their entirety. It was the beginning of a total immersion in the life of the mind.

But of course in the end, nothing was good enough for Professor Kelly. The idea that you could do anything to please her simply never occurred to us — the goal was simply to mitigate as much as possible her aloof disdain at your inevitable failure. In fact despite the fact that I was one of her most successful students — close enough to her to organize a conference in her honor — I consistently earned Bs and B-s in her class. The sole exception to this was her Weberian Themes in Social Anthropology Course, in which she begrudged me an A-. This was only the smallest part of the humiliation that one suffered at her hands. In order to be admitted to the anthropology major one had to take a junior qualifying exam which consisted of something like 5 4 page essays written in a single, morning-long examination on a reading list of 10 or so books which one had to read in addition to one’s usual coursework. It is telling of Professor Kelly’s (impossible) standards that in the class before mine — a class that would send students to SOAS, The University of Chicago, and Princeton, among other schools — no one passed the qualifying exam unconditionally, and everyone had to rewrite their answers. In fact, I myself did not pass when I took my qual, and had to rewrite a question (I believe it was a comparison of Levi-Strauss’s hot/cold distinction to Appadurai’s theory of global flows).

As my discussion of her intellectual habits suggests, Professor Kelly was a conservative in the best meaning of that word. She had a keen appreciation of tradition — both scholarly and otherwise — and was aware of how the oft-invisible rules of our heritage made our life more meaningful and worthwhile. She combined this love of etiquette, fashion, and manners with a cool blondism (her beauty, though long past when I met her, was something we had all heard of) and mixed it with a good deal of condescension to the degraded state of the world in which she was forced to live. At one point after a recent sexual harassment scandal that resulted in a policy of no closed-door meetings with students, she invited one of my classmates in to her office for an office hour and — in violation of the policy but in keeping with Reed’s long-standing tradition — instructed him to close the door. “Unless,” she added, transforming momentarily into Grace Kelly, “you think I’m going to rape you or something.” The unease that many of us felt around her was the sense that we were in violation of secret rules of which only she was aware. She told one student of Scots descent that his shortcomings as a person were due to the fact that he “was descended from a race that subsisted entirely on oats and apples.” Professor Kelly was the kind of person who could ruin my day by archly noting that I — a Californian raised in t shirts and shorts who attended her classes in tie-dyed t shirts, hair below my shoulders, and mutton chops — was wearing white after labor day. We were often put in intimidating and uncomfortable social situations. There were rumors of her hiring her male students (she had few female students) to act as waiters at cocktail parties and dressing them in tuxedos. Our mandatory weekly thesis meetings occurred early on Sunday mornings at a local coffee shop where she would hold court in an overstuffed chair. At 7 or 8 in the morning — a brutal time for a hung-over college student — she would ring you up and tell you what time to arrive. Bleary-eyed students would dully appear, join her and her previous student, chat together until she dismissed the one she was finished with, and then met with you. This enforced salon continued until she had met with all of her students.

Anthropological critiques of a denial of coevalness seem hopelessly inapplicable to Professor Kelly, since she considered no one to be her equal. Similarly, she was unabashedly interested in the exotic because it was not boring. On more than one occasion she told me that the most important thing in life was not to be bored, and often mentioned that Malinowski ought to have put this directly after food and shelter on his list of human needs. It was clear that she kept me around because I was not boring, and I think this was how she chose her students (and make no mistake about it, she chose you as an advisee, not the other way around). She had the keen eye for ethnographic detail that only comes from a life time of shopping. Her interest in Melanesia was undoubtedly due to how strange people were there, but she also found the average Oregonian exotic. Why, for instance, did people wear baseball caps backwards? Why in the 1970s did all of her students, as she put it, “walk around dressed up like Oscar Wilde”? She mused on the totemic significance of the icons that allowed one to identify which part of town different buses went to. “We,” she would say definitely of Reedies and other people living in southwest Portland, “are people are the beaver.” She would then arch one eyebrow as if to suggest that there was perhaps something unpleasant about the people of the Deer, Raindrop, and Rose — Portland’s three other neighborhoods — that would require us to exchange shell valuables or wampum with them. How could critiques of anthropology’s authority or colonial background touch a woman who didn’t buy the idea of cultural relativism (or even tolerance) in the first place? This was the person, after all, who described hippyism in a lecture as “hedonism if it had been invented by puritans” and who remarked to me once that people spit in public “because they wanted to be disgusting and were disgusting.” In fact she considered freshmen to be inhuman and refused to have anything to do with them — you were not allowed to take Intro to Anthropology until you were sophomore. She knew how to play hard to get.

Professor Kelly was the ultimate in sink-or-swim professors, and I look back on my time as her student with some ambivalence. I spent a lot of graduate school unlearning my dysfunctional ways of coping with authority figures and advisers, and it wasn’t until the final years of my program at Chicago that I developed a friendship and rapport with the chair of my committee. But ultimately I owe her more than she owes me. She taught me how to live the life of the mind, and instilled me in that the only reason people cannot achieve great things is that they believe they cannot. She gave me the ability to become whoever I wanted to be in life, and taught me that anthropology was a part of living it. When Tom and I picked her up at her house to drive her to the conference, we both wondered aloud at the beauty of Oregon in the fall as if, despite our years at Reed, we were seeing it for the first time. “Yes,” she said quietly, “you don’t notice these thing when you’re young, you know.” It was a moment that helped remind me that I owe Professor Kelly not just for what I have learned from her so far, but for the continuing role her teaching will play in my life as it unfolds in the future.

My Scarily Erudite Beloved has run off to do other things this evening, leaving me alone in the apartment with two lit candles, a bottle of 2002 Louis Latour Domaine de Valmoissine Pinot Noir and a mini barbecue chicken from the local Korean place. I take some small comfort in the unexpected and gratifying realization that a 2002 Louis Latour Domaine de Valmoissine matches a mini barbecue chicken wonderfully. It pairs esepcially well with the macaroni salad.

My Scarily Erudite Beloved and I met in choir. Between the two of us, we have a total of over four decades of singing experience. Our guest list includes not only a choir’s worth of people — and I mean _real singers_ — a conductor, and an accompanist. So far, the only thing we’ve really spent time thinking about our wedding plans is what music we’ll have. I’m shooting for a full 40 minutes at least — a real concert’s worth of music.

But what will be sung? This question is complicated by the fact that a lot of choral music is about the false god of the Christians, and wouldn’t be appropriate for our wedding. For some things — Sicut Cervus, for instance — we can make exceptions, since they are basically covers of Hebrew psalms in the first place (and our singers all already know Sicut Cervus by heart). We are looking in to Eric Whitacre’s 5 Hebrew Love Songs (we’d cheat and have the piano rehearsal accompaniment playing instead of the string quartet) — except not the embarassing middle movement with the Israeli tambourine thang. The ‘Hinei Matov’ movement from the Chichester Psalms was also recommended to us, as was Pinkham’s Wedding Cantata, except that the SEB does not really take a shine to the wedding cantata. We thought about a movement from Palestrina’s setting of the Song of Songs like “Nigra Sum Sed Formosa,” but the SEB summarily vetoed it when I, mindful of the Becky Barnett character from Boogie Nights, agreed we could do it, but only if we listed it on the program as “Chocolate Love.”

Finally we both agreed that William Walton’s “Set Me As A Seal Upon Thy Heart” would be perfectly appropriate, and I suggested that she listen to the recording of Walton’s choral music “with the castle on it” which I thought was the best one. It turns out that there are two such recordings (which feature churches and colleges and not actually castles) — one with the Finzi Singers and one directed by Christopher Robinson. Then we got into a big debate over which recording was which, which came out on Chandos, etc. etc. Finally the debate was solved or, more accurately, brought to a sudden halt, when googling around on Amazon for the recordings let to the discovery of a DVD entitled “Lambchop’s Passover and Hannukah Surprise”:http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg/detail/-/B00006JDRE/ref=cm_bg_d_18/002-3949094-5952040?v=glance. Like a trainwreck, we were “horrified”:http://images.amazon.com/images/P/B00006JDRE.01.LZZZZZZZ.jpg. And yet could not turn ourselves away. The difference between a train wreck and Lambchop’s Passover and Hannukah Surprise, however, is that 1) you can not next-day-air a trainwreck to your door and 2) I have never seen a 5 star review of a train wreck before.

The upshot of this is that the Walton is probably on for the wedding, regardless of which recorded version each of us prefers. As for the rest of the program, well, we’ll just have to finalize it _after_ our DVD arrives to make sure there isn’t a hilarious sock-puppet based number we want to incorporate into our nuptials.

*Update:* You must all read “Katie Rains Amazon Review”:http://www.amazon.com/gp/cdp/member-reviews/A3NI7FDALIDFT4/ref=cm_aya_rev_more/002-3949094-5952040?%5Fencoding=UTF8 of “Hannukah on Planet Matzah Ball”:http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/customer-reviews/B0000VLA6W/ref=cm_cr_dp_2_1/002-3949094-5952040?%5Fencoding=UTF8&s=dvd: “The movie starts with aliens on planet Matzah who found out they were jewish and who begin to chant ‘we are jewish! we are jewish!’ like it was some crazy cult. Then out of space comes this menorah that falls into their spaceship….” It just gets better from there. Although to be fair another reviewer notes “The singing dreidyl is also annoying, but I can tolerate that part.”

SEB, here, with another guest entry.

So we’re going to China. In a little more than three weeks. Rex is going to schlep around with me for a couple of weeks while I survey county-level museums in southern Shanxi province, and engage in some schmoozing (“guanxi”) as well, to renew my relationships with various Chinese archaeologists. Rex will get to see me In Action, finally. It will probably be dull for him.

Nevertheless, he needs a Chinese name. Most if not all Westerners who study Chinese take a Chinese name, usually chosen by one’s Chinese teacher. This lets you practice and get used to the ways names and titles work in Chinese, but if you later spend any significant time in China, you also find that it is much easier to go by your Chinese name, which is often much easier for your Chinese colleagues to remember than the polysyllabic tongue-twisters we use among ourselves. So I need to give Rex a name for this and future trips.

Choosing Chinese names is a tricky business, especially for non-native speakers, and many Westerners end up with dumb-sounding names because their Chinese teachers didn’t have the time or the classical education to choose something poetically appropriate, or didn’t foresee unfortunate homonyms, etc. (I knew someone in college whose Chinese name sounded exactly like the word for “premature ejaculation.”) But if you’re going to travel to China a lot, this is the name by which you’ll be known, so you want to choose appropriately.

I got lucky. My first Chinese teacher (almost 20 years ago!) was not a native speaker of Chinese, but she chose a name that turned out to have some lovely poetic resonances, and that is classical enough that it seems appropriate to Chinese ears as the name for a person who is highly educated. It also lends itself to nicknames. My name is Long Meiruo 龍梅若; Long, the surname, means “dragon,” while Meiruo means “like a plum blossom,” meaning the winter-flowering prunus, that blooms while the snow is still on the ground. I’m from northern Maine originally, and my teacher reasoned that anyone who can grow up in Maine must be able to bloom in the winter. It sounds classical because the dragon and the plum blossom are very ancient poetic symbols, and because my teacher inverted the usual order of characters in my personal name (modern syntax would favor “Ruomei” over “Meiruo.”)

The name suggests a variety of different nicknames: my host family from a 1988 homestay, who were old revolutionaries, a couple of ideologically unimpeachable former army doctors, thought it should be understood as meaning “like Long Mei” (龍梅), an obscure revolutionary heroine. Classmates and colleagues near my own age called and continue to call me “Young Long” (小龍), but as this also means “Young Dragon,” it sounds a bit masculine to some, and older people have called me “Young Mei” (小梅子) in a rather old-fashioned style. Finally, after somebody cracked a joke to this effect at a conference in 1998, the entire staff of the Wenwu chubanshe (Chinese archaeological publishing house) and everybody I know at the Central Academy of Fine Arts remembers me as Xiaolongnü (小龍女), “The Dragon Girl,” who is the particularly butt-kicking heroine of a Jin Yong martial arts novel. The name has served me well.

I’m wondering if I can do nearly as well for Rex, and here’s where you come in with the comments, Fearless Readers. I think I’ve got a name for him: it’s Gong Yanda (龔雁達). First, I wanted a G-surname, to go with Golub; there are a lot of choices, but I went with Gong because it’s composed of the character long for “dragon,” my surname, with the character gong, meaning “together,” below it. My overeducated Chinese colleagues will get this immediately.

Yan is a kind of wild goose, long a poetic trope for unfettered soaring of the mind and heart. In legend, they were said to carry messages between those long separated. For example, Liu Shang’s (劉商) poem cycle Eighteen Songs for a Nomad Flute (胡笳十八拍), written about 773 CE, describes the homesickness of the Han dynasty Lady Wenji, abducted about 195 CE by the Xiongnu to be the wife of a nomad prince. It contains these lines, in the tenth song: 遂令邊雁轉怕人 絕域何由達方寸 “The wild geese of the frontier, it is said, fear men; here, at the ends of the earth, how can I make my heart heard?” Lady Wenji worries that the wild geese of the steppes will not carry her longing back to her home and family, as a Chinese goose would. These lines also contain the second character of the name, da, which can mean to reach, to arrive, to expand, etc. Yanda might then translate as “to go far, as a wild goose.” It is, I think, a good name for someone who is an exuberant writer and thinker, with an energetic imagination and a taste for adventure. What do you say?

Anybody who calls him “Exuberant Goose Golub,” however, is just asking for trouble.

Wow. I am really, really exhausted and don’t want to write anything for a long time. It took a week or so to really set in, but man… post-defense listlessness. Posts here and elswhere may be intermittent while I extend my solar sails and recharge.

A few years ago, Papua New Guinea’s independence day fell on Yom Kippur and — after sundown — there was much rejoicing at my apartment. Today marks another conjunction: “Kamehameha Day”:http://www.loc.gov/bicentennial/propage/HI/hi_s_akaka1.html and “Shavuot”:http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shavuot. I don’t know if you’ve seen the statue of Kamehameha the Great in downtown Honolulu but I asure it is literally _life size_ — that guy was enormous. Like Achilles, he was so endowed with mana/arete that he could lift boulders that it would take five of today’s men (and women) to move.

Unfortunately, this conjunction was not nearly as felicitous as the Yom Kippur/Independence Day episode. In fact I woke up to find that my bicycle — my BIKE, DUDE — was stolen right out the back of my landlord’s courtyard. I’ve never owned a car and am strictly a bike commuter. Pure suck. It wasn’t particularly valuable, and I’ve been through enough tough stuff in my life that I didn’t feel to ‘violated’ to have my property taken off me. Nonetheless, it did totally screw up my plans and schedules. I am hopeful that I’ll get the bike back, but not counting on it — my Critical Mass homies do not report great success in this area.

Yuck.

First: I’m now officially Dr. Golub. I’ve reached levelcap in just over a decade of playtime on this avatar. The defense was very civilized and polite and there was lots of endgame content. Now there’s nothing left but guild stuff, speaking of which…

Now on to the real news: my next big project post-dissertation is getting married. Yes, my scarily erudite beloved and I are officially going to tie the knot sometime next summer. Sorry if you didn’t hear from me personally about this — the overwhelming response of friends to this news was “I’m not surprised.” The exception to this was the man I asked to preside at the wedding. “Will you marry me?” I asked. “Not in the state of Illinois” he said.

Many people have told us that planning a wedding can be stressful. We’re just thinking of it as a two day conference with only one session — and we’ve both organized those before.

Huzzah!

Blogging will be intermittent as I fly to the mainland to defend the diss. Actually, that may not be true, since I’ll be crashing with a l33t FOSS Guru… so it’ll be my attention (rather than bandwidth) that will be the scarce resource. But, like, when _hasn’t_ that been true?

Do good and be well.

-A

“The median home price in Honolulu is just over US$550,000″:http://www.sfexaminer.com/articles/2005/06/01/business/20050601_bu01_real.txt. Finding a city as an academic couple with a ‘two-body’ problem is always stressful and difficult, and it is even more difficult when you’ve found a place where it is almost impossible to get some security in your future housing-wise. So it’s always good to hear stories of “true love and cheap real estate”:http://www.nypress.com/18/8/news&columns/proptales.cfm in tough markets.

(I just got this from the department secretary so it looks like the end times have indeed begun):

AN ANNOUNCEMENT FROM THE
DEPARTMENT OF ANTHROPOLOGY

Dissertation Defense of *Alex Golub*

“Making The Ipili Feasible: Imagining Global and Local Actors at The Porgera Gold Mine, Enga Province, Papua New Guinea”

will be held Monday, June 6, 2005 at 3:30 p.m. in Haskell 101

The Dissertation has been approved for hearing by the following members of
the advisory committee who are:
Marshall Sahlins (Chair)
Manuela Carneiro da Cunha
Danilyn Rutherford
Michael Silverstein

Attendance is open to faculty and graduate students. (Would faculty who
plan to attend please so inform Anne Ch’ien so that you may be counted for
purposes of constituting a quorum.) Copies of the Abstract, Table of
Contents, and the author’s CV are available in Haskell 119.

Précis

Making The Ipili Feasible: Imagining Global and Local Actors at
The Porgera Gold Mine, Enga Province, Papua New Guinea

Based on 22 months of fieldwork from October 1999 to August 2002, this dissertation examines the relationship between the Ipili speaking ‘landowners’ of the Porgera Valley and Placer Dome Inc., the Canadian mining transnational which operates a large gold mine on their land. The dissertation examines the ‘feasibility’ of the Ipili in two ways. On the one hand, ‘the Ipili’ made to assume a certain shape as an ethnic group if it was to be the sort of entity with which corporate and governmental actors could sign the legally binding documents necessary to create the gold mine. On the other hand, political, economic, and military considerations created a moment of opportunity in which the Ipili could become feasible (efficacious) political actors who successfully extracted numerous concessions from both Placer Dome and the Government of Papua New Guinea. This dissertation presents a close ethnographic analysis of high-stakes negotiations between landowner and company representatives as a leaping off point for a broader consideration of Ipili identity, the relations between extractive industry and indigenous people in Papua New Guinea more generally, and the interaction of ‘global’ and ‘local’ forces. This dissertation finds that relationships between institutions hinge critically on the personal relationships and idiosyncrasies of their representatives. It argues that the dynamics of land registration in Porgera involved the creation of groups which, although rooted in past practice, take their form in response to the elicitation of outside forces. This contrasts sharply with how this process is envisioned by Papua New Guinea’s elite, who consider registration successful if it is a transparent recording of primordial and unchanging ethnic identifications and entitlements. At the most general level, the dissertation finds that in order for these abstract institutions to appear to act, the coordinated action of networks of particular individual people must be portrayed as something done by collective subjects such as “the Ipili,” “the State,” “the Company,” or even “globalization” more generally. Thus despite supposed differences of scale between ‘global’ and ‘local’ institutions, both rely on a similar dynamic of ‘mediation’ to appear in the world.

Keywords: Papua New Guinea, mining, globalization, kinship, identity, governance, capitalism

Honolulu is the land of small dogs and white wine, not cafe culture. But, like every major city, Honolulu has its fair share of good, independent coffee houses. My favorite is Coffeeline, which is in the YMCA just off of campus at UH Manoa. It is a quiet, funky place with lots of plants, good sandwiches, and signs on the wall juxtaposing quotes from John Coltrane and Buddha. They are accessible for disabled people and have been recycling and using glass and ceramic servingware rather than styrofoam, paper napkins, and plastic forks since they opened — a rare thing in Hawai’i. Every university should have a cafe or three like this where students and faculty can go and chill.

Except that Coffeeline has been under threat for the past year now of being closed down as part of the College of Education’s plan to move into that building. Why they can’t coexist I have no idea — the politics of space on University campuses is almost always a dark and inscrutable affair. I’m not privy to the details, but I do know that Coffeeline is a great cafe and provides a valuable community service.

If you agree, why not write the head of the Manoa neighborhood board?

Jim Harwood
c/o Manoa Library
2716 Woodlawn Dr.
Honolulu, HI 96822

If you’re interested in finding an independent coffee shop near you, why not visit “Delocator”:http://www.delocator.net/ and “learn more”:http://www.delocator.net/whydelocate.htm about the role of small business in local neighborhoods?

Update: The Advertiser has “more on Coffeeline”:http://the.honoluluadvertiser.com/article/2005/Jun/01/ln/ln20p.html and tonights meeting (which I can’t attend, unfortunately :( )

Biella “M4d D0g” Coleman is officially “Dr. M4d D0g”:http://healthhacker.org/satoroams/archives/000752.html. I am so proud and happy for her. Two years ago we hardly knew each other and now she is a close friend and “collaborator”:http://digitalgenres.org. She deserves all the best things in life, and has produced a fantastic and important dissertation. Congratulations, b. Mazel tov.

It’s going to be in the high 80s all week here in Honolulu, and my refrigerator is busted. They repair people came by but it is still broken. All of my food is rotting — the insulation in the refrigerator is now making it _warmer_ than room temperature. At least when I was visiting friends in the Sepik everyone was set up to live lives without refrigeration because they never had any in the first place. At the moment I am full of self-pity and feel like I should just get a huge plastic bucket full of sago and eat off of that for the next week or so. Oh well. One nice thing about living in Honolulu is that if I want to complete my Sepik experience I can always run down to the corner store and get some betelnut.

It could be worse. I could go back to eating kaukau straight out the ashes. Or lambflaps. [shudders]

I just updated to “Wordpress 1.5.1″:http://wordpress.org/development/2005/05/one-five-one/. Since this is a minor upgrade if anything is broken it is definitely my fault. You can upgrade too if you like.

Awesome! My ancient blog post on “The Salsa Queen of Cheltenham”:http://alex.golub.name/log/?p=161 has just gotten blog spammed by — get this — Cheltenham’s salsa scene. Awesome!

Cheltenham Salsa 4EVAR!!!!!!

I pressed ‘export to PDF’ and twenty seconds later Open Office produced a 437 page PDF of my dissertation. This isn’t the end of course. There is still the defense and then depositing. However, the big push is over. It’s too bad really — I was just starting to feel like it was coming together…

After it is deposited I’ll post it for all and sundry to download. If you’d like to have a look at it for debugging purposes drop me a line and I may send it on. I am a little hesitant to broadcast it at this point as I’m not sure I’ve sufficiently pseudonymized some chapters.

Nonetheless. This is a time for great rejoicing. Now I can focus on the REALLY important things in life like Andrew Huff Fan Fiction.

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I am going through the final, painful thicket of ideas that is the ‘theoretical’ section of my dissertation. “This is what my brain feels like”:http://www.geocities.com/heartland/ranch/1201/oandkrh400.html?200528. These two paragraphs just took me literally an hour to write/revise:

“But mining, like cannibalism, “is always symbolic, even when it is ‘real’” (Sahlins 1983:). It is important to realize that both the semiotic and technical aspects of mining are flip sides of the same coin. As the “pragmatic-poetic turn” of contemporary linguistic anthropology (the term is from Silverstein 2004:623; other prominent statements regarding this turn might be found in Silverstein and Urban 1996 and Baumann and Briggs 1990) has demonstrated, all human interaction requires the deployment of a shared set of sociocultural concepts in order to ensure that interaction coheres to create “a coherent, intersubjectively accomplished interactional text, the interpersonal achievement of a ‘doing’ of something – an instance of some generically understood social act – to which more than one individual has contributed” (Silverstein 1998:270) This is true even of perilinguistic interactions such as those that occur in Porgera’s open pit, where the operators of, say a Catepillar 769 haul truck and an O&K RH8 excavator, must work together to dislodge material from the open pit and transfer it from the bucket of the excavator to the back of the 769 without either of the operators being killed — a remarkably easy thing to do in a line of work where the tires of your vehicle are taller than you are. While the complex figuration of text in context in the course of the linguistically mediated interaction of Mr. A and Mr. B described by Silverstein (2004:623-625) may be poetically more complex than the ‘doing-something’ of shoveling ore into the back of a truck, it is none the less true that even miners must invoke sociocultural conceptions, inhabit roles, and share a set ’standard operating procedures’ that will regiment action if the most elemental aspect of mining is to occur without mishap. This “mutual tuning-in relationship,” as Schutz (1964:161) called it, is always metapragmatically regimented, regardless of the antintellectualism inherent in the ethnometapragmatics of any single miner who is engaged in the improvisational performance of ‘mining’ in realtime discursive practice.

The question of how to keep the mine open, then, is shot through with two dimensions which are interrelated, rather than opposed. Looked at from the point of view of engineering – moving the physical materials which are insensible to the semiotics of our lives – the logistics involved in keeping the mine open requires ‘practical’ and ‘real’ action: you can not talk the gold out of a mine and modulo the inevitably culturally shaped means and ends that determine what and how ought to be mined, the physical nature of the resource creates technical imperatives which must be met. But every human being who is part of the complex chain of logistics that runs from machine operators in the open pit to people signing checks in Vancouver deploys some sort of narrative about who they are and what they are doing which permits the technically complex coordination of action of thousands of individuals that results in the creation of bars of pure gold. Keeping the mine open is thus shot through with both engineering and signification.”

I’ll be in Portland for the next couple of days. Posts to resume thereafter. Be good to each other while I’m gone.

Brand new sidebar — same great taste! Let me know of additions changes, comments etc. I’ve added links to my outboard brain sites (delicious, citeulike, bloglines) as well as archives by category and date, as well as a blogroll of all the anthropologists I could find. This last is a dump of my anthropology folder from bloglines. It includes people who are teaching anthro or who have a Ph.D. in it _and_ talk a lot about it on their blog. Guys with ‘Greek racial purity’ calculators on their site aren’t included. The problem with drawing a bead on the anthropology blogosphere is that there is a lot of bleed around the edges — so much so that it makes the center hard to find. I want to locate the chewy caramel center before I begin adding on the delicious layers of nugat.

You know for a blog that is purportedly centered on anthropology, I spend remarkably little time talking about what I actually do. Along with Thomas ‘Strong Thomas’ Strong, I’ll be in Portland, Oregon next weekend where we are organizing a conference in honor of our undergraduate advisor entitled “Fashioning Anthropology: Papers in Honor of Gail Kelly”:http://web.reed.edu/gailkelly/. We have a number of very well known people giving papers: James Faubion, Joel Robbins, Jill Dubisch, Steven William Foster, Dennis MacGilvray. Dell Hymes wanted to come but I think he is not as mobile these days as he used to be. Steven Nugent was also in the queue, but you know London to Portland is a _long_ way to go for a weekend.

I am never quite sure what to make of my education at Reed. It was, by the standards of most anthropology programs, incredibly regressive. My ‘anthropological theory class’ started with _The Andaman Islanders_ (which we read in its entirety) and ended with _Political Systems of Highland Burma_. To this day when I hear that people are assigning Foucault in Intro Anthropology courses I often wonder alound why they don’t assign Durkheim. Many of my class mates consider me hopelessly backwards for preferring to read Levi-Strauss, Mauss, and Halbwachs to Deleuze, Latour, and Virillio. However, at the same time they often express an appreciation for the depth of my knowledge of anthropology’s history. How can you expect to get one and not the other?

Most of the time I find this puzzling. However, since Professor Kelly was notorious opinionated and intolerant, I am planning on having a great time writing a completely unfair and imbalanced spleen-venting screed against the excesses of contemporary ‘theory’. Now that the 90s are over I can finally tell everyone exactly what I think of ‘resistance’ and ‘hegemony’ as adequate analytical concepts. Feel free to drop by if you’re in that neck of the woods.

The less-screedy version will show up on this website at some point. In fact, Tom and I have tentative plans for a disgustingly progressive publish-on-demand creative commons type festschrift.

Here is a list of phrases or ideas or sayings that I feel I should be employing more often in conversation.

Semiotic Lumberjack — the dishevled, unhygenic theorist look. “For instance.”:http://home.uchicago.edu/~jniimi/carldrew.JPG

“Voting with your feet”

“Give the thermometer” — flirt

“On the bias” — opposite of ‘on the level’

“[tell him to] peel an eel” — get lost

“modulo” — just makes sentences shorter.

“let the eagle soar” — an ironic reference to the Ashcroft song used to mean ‘get really really incredibly drunk’ e.g. “I’ve got twenty bucks. Let’s let the eagle soar.”

“fucking up my Christmas” — via mc chris. “Good” “attractive” or “desirable”. Paradigmatically, used of a woman.

“When you’re holding a hammer, everything looks like a nail” — I love this phrase. Don’t ask me why.

“The handle is one of us” — from the brief parable “a lumberjack walked into the forest. The trees looked at the ax and said ‘The handle is one of us.’” I’m not sure what this is about, but it is enigmatic and vaguely dark. I like it.

“Just because X is all about Y doesn’t mean that all Y is about X” — It’s surprising how well this works on people who have taken The Dark Path of Cultural Studies (as opposed to the unobjectionable Light Path, which is more about force-heal and less about force-grip). E.g. “just because Derrida is all about ambiguity doesn’t mean that all ambiguity is about Derrida.”

Use of pretentious wine terms to describe things other than wine — e.g. “Joel’s book had solid structure but never really opened out on my palate.” or “he’s oaky, but I find his tannins too astringent”

Amazingly, I find the idea that Doug had sex with animals and then sold the resulting video tapes for money surprisingly plausible. At least this is what one anonymous commenter has claimed. In fact, however, I’ve tried all of the Google searches they’ve suggested and can find no such thing. It appears to be true that 1) he frequented alt.bestiality and 2) “he may have sold tapes of animals having sex”:http://groups-beta.google.com/group/rec.pets.dogs.misc/browse_thread/thread/5b4c7775a4186767/3d063ff4df2b1b9d?q=%22douglas+spink%22&rnum=1#3d063ff4df2b1b9d to people. Frankly, these two things don’t even begin to approach 372 pounds of cocaine in terms of salaciousness.

It appears that Doug is “pleading innocent”:http://www.heraldnet.com/stories/05/03/11/100loc_spink001.cfm and the trial is going to be in mid-May. Should be interesting to see what happens.

There is a good chance that I will be spending a fair chunk of the summer in China tagging along with my Scarily Erudite Beloved as she scours various provincial museums throughout the Middle Kingdom’s heartland. My question to the intarweb is: how best does one such as myself go about getting a grip on Mandarin? I am looking for speaking, not reading. I figure if I can get some very basic fluency stuff down, then I can pick up the rest from the SEB who is all up on the Mandarin tip. So: What are some good self-study resources? I am not exactly your father’s Oldsmobile — I have a background in linguistic anthropology and have already studied five other languages, including one with something like tone (probably pitch accent — our phoneticians are still working it out). So I can tackle slightly more advanced works. I need something between a reference grammar and a text book and a phrase book.

As an undergraduate anthropology major I was assured by my advisor that anthropology was a fine leaping-off point for law, medicine and business. She also claimed — seriously — that it was excellent training to be a smuggler. She reminded us that smuggling — especially the mundane sort, low-profile sort like smuggling crates of plastic combs and cigarettes into a third world country — could be surprisingly good money. I was a little weirded out the other day, then, when I friend dropped me a line to let me know that “one of my former anthro classmates had been arrested for attempting to smuggle 372 pounds of pure cocaine from Canada to the US”:http://www.oregonlive.com/news/oregonian/index.ssf?/base/front_page/1110286795204270.xml (fill out their quick survey to get to the story — this is for sure worth it).

372 pounds.

US$34,000,0000.

Yowza.

I remember Douglas Spink as a cliche from some mid-80s junk-bonds-and-coke movie starring Robert Downy Junior. It turns out that playing the prep school kid gone bad is not the only thing the two have in common. They are now united in their common pursuit of blow. Although I think Rob has a habit while Doug’s 169 kilograms definitely counts as ‘intent to sell.’ When I knew him he was clean-cut (unusual at Reed) and handsome and wore polo shirts and slacks and had a sweater draped over his shoulder and was followed around by a scrupulously trained purebred Golden Retriever. Since I was more of the leftist political performance artist type at the time we were natural enemies. However, we both had the same advisor and maintained a coridal and, I think, puzzled distance. Now almost a decade later he owes his mom — _his mom_ — US$80,000 and I’m teaching undergraduates about homosexual initiation in Papua New Guinea. Is life strange or what?

… That is the question. Should I include one on this site? Academic believe information should be free — unless it should be a deep, dark secret. I know people who hand out off prints left and right to all comers but then stonewall mightily when asked for CVs or even — secret of secret! — _syllabi_. Partially this is a reflex from the bad old days when all we had was treeware and information circulated differently. However, I sometimes feel it’s also the result of an astute appreciation of the Ivory Tower’s business model: publish stuff as wide as possible to drive up demand for teaching, which is what you actually make a living on. We’re kinda like Wilco that way — we give up the CD for free, but please _please_ come to our shows.

Anyway, there is really an art to the CV. You have the really, _really_ long one sitting on your hard drive, and then you appropriately edit for your audience depending on the occasion. So once again we encounter the old problem with living a world-readable life on the intarweb: the positive side is that you reach a huge audience because literally _everyone_ reads about your life. The negative side is that you reach a huge audience because literally _everyone_ reads about your life.

I suppose my feeling is putting a CV on the website would give people a chance to evaluate my writing (for instance, in the recent spate of postings on race) in the context of my career and professional authority. To the extent I’m proud of what I’ve done, this seems like a good idea. To the extent that I feel like I could be a harder worker and more successful person, then it seems like a bad idea.

What do you think, is the bio on my “about page”:http://alex.golub.name/log/?page_id=355 enough?

Well it is official. My dissertation is now over 500 pages long. This means spell checking it take twelve frickin’ hours. Great. I am a moron in formatting. My dissertation is over 400 pages long when the “do not split paragraph across page break” box is unchecked. This means that spell checking it takes ten frickin’ hours. Great.

The upside is that my defense is now officially set of ’sometime in June’. I need to spellcheck one more chapter and then send it off. I’ll do that today. Then I have six more weeks to revise two more chapters. Tick tock tick tock…

“This guy”:http://www.streightsite.blogspot.com/ is writing “a book about blogs”:http://www.blogpros.blogspot.com/ and asked me to contribute. Frankly the website looks like the Yes Men doing a parody of a late-nineties Fast Company type consulting firm. But the letter he sent me was only slightly formletter-ish and he even sent me a ‘reminder’ that I hadn’t replied to him, which I thought indicated either 1) some level of personal oversight or 2) some commendable scripting abilities on the mass email front. The responses that he’s gotten so far say things like “by spending my time thinking about what I’m writing rather than how I’m writing it and how I’m going to get it published, I’ve been able to refine my weblogs over time to find the synergistic intersection between my professional interests and those of my industry space.” Ladies and gentlemen, I am here to tell you today I think about the synergistic intersection of my industry space _all the time_, as evinced by the questions and answers provided below:

Why did you decide to start your Golublog anthropology blog?

My blog began as a result of fascism and genetic engineering.

In October 1999 I arrived in the Porgera Valley of Enga Province, Papua New Guinea with funds from a schwanky Fulbright grant burning a hole in my pocket to begin what ended up being a two year stay. There I shared a 32 square meter tin-sided house with a family of five. The result: little meterage per person, although they were very kind and gave me more than my fair share of space. Like most anthropologists, I found my initial immersion in a foreign culture exciting but also unrelenting and deeply exhausting. Soon, following a time-honored tradition, I found myself resorting to increasingly desperate attempts at self-deception and escapism to ignore the fact that I had, in fact, signed up for fieldwork in a place which lacked not only _biftek au poivre_ and the occasional oaky cabernet, but showers, bread, laundry, and beds. As I honed my ability to judge exactly how many fleas were in my sleeping bag, I retreated further and further into the few escapist venues that I had brought with me from the First World.

While less technically adept anthropologists reveled in literature and novels I choose the much more engrossing expedient of immersing myself in _Civilization: Call To Power_. As I sunk deeper into denial about my situation my ability to play Civ increased beyond even the eldritch levels of competence I had acquired while procrastinating during the composition of my M.A. Slowly, however, even this grew to be less and less solace as the AI’s ability to challenge me decreased. My mood was particularly darkened by the fact that the only way to triumph over the AI at the very highest levels of play involved ruling with a fascist government, developing genetic engineering, and then plowing through my opponent’s continents with scientifically hardened browshirted troops. It was at that point that I turned off the computer, gave into escapist fiction, and picked up Anna Karenina. In fact I read a lot of good books during my fieldwork — _Gravity’s Rainbow_, _Wind Up Bird Chronicles_, _Cryptonomicon_, _The Brothers Karamozov_, _Infinite Jest_, _Underworld_, and, incongruously, a copy of _Cry, The Beloved Country_ that was in my house when I arrived.

It is very common for graduate students to get halfway through their doctoral programs before they realize exactly how much they have given up when they signed up for a Ph.D. They watch their friends get married, settle down, have kids, have houses, have jobs, have _fun_ — all while they are still living on US$10,000 a year and cooking the same Economy Lentil Diet they ate during college. But this realization never really hits home more fully until you are in the central highlands of Papua New Guinea reading _Anna Karenina_ and contemplating how many fleas are in your sleeping bag. My interest in Papua New Guinea dated back to my studies as an undergraduate and so my arrival in the field represented the culmination of over a half-decade study of the country. It was supposed to be the culmination of an already-promising young career. It ended up reminding me how much I missed the things I had given up to get there.

As a result I swore that when I got back I would try to ressurect that creative part of myself I had lost track of when I became a social scientist. When finally returned in late 2001 I found I had missed two very big years. My first reaction to coming home was “What do you mean George Bush is President again?!” The second thing was Harry Potter — the first time I heard the name of Harry Potter was on the BART on my way into San Francisco when two people reading books with the name “Harry Potter” emblazoned on them starting talking to each other and mutually admitted to ‘reading all of his books over and over again’. I assumed he was some sort of Fundamentalist Christian self-help guru, something it would take a _very_ embarassing gaffe at a party to realize was not, in fact, strictly true. 9/11 happened less than two months after I arrived in-country, but now is not the right time to talk about that. Finally, I arrived only to find I had missed the internet bubble, and so I went through all of the hype and excitement about the internet that took most people two years to work through in the space of a couple of afternoons. What else could I do but start a blog?

Over time my blog has morphed from a personal diary (now intensely embarassing to me but mundane to others) to an attempt to think out loud about what had happened to the internet since I left it (which temporarily turned me into a pretty well-known blogger), to a place to experiment in fiction (which resulted in two novels). I blogged stuff that should have been privateand figured out, like so many of us to, where I felt comfortable drawing lines. In particular I realized that entries about how drunk I had gotten while talking about Levinas at parties were not what I needed to make sure I had a web presence that would facilitate getting a faculty position. Also I realized that I had a limited about of mojo in me and I had to choose between writing my dissertation (and, by extension, other scholarly work) and experimenting as a writer, blogger, poet, healer, lover etc. It was a difficult choice, for I know the world needs some good good loving. Nonetheless, I decided to focus more on anthropology. This ended up working well since it corresponded with a growth in my own interest in copyright reform and open source scholarship, so the latest version of this blog seems to make sense. At least in my head.

There’s a longer, better story involving “snow monkeys”:http://alex.golub.name/oldlog/archives/2002_03.html#000025 which sketches in the details starting from my much earlier history in highschool, etc. but I’ll leave that to one side for now.

What do you think makes a blog successful? (attributes, measurements) — and your blog in particular?

In general? The synergistic intersection between someone’s professional interests and their industry space. In my case? Lightsabers.

The never ending struggle of the comments appears to be over, at least for now. Please let me know immediately what your “twenty minute acoustic set in heaven”:http://alex.golub.name/log/?p=347#comments would be. If I am wrong in re: comments then drop me a line.

I think when I added the search box to the left hand column of the log I broke the comments. Sorry for that — especially when the ‘20 minute acoustic set’ post and the ‘race’ post have been popular enough that people have been emailing me personally with suggestions, etc. It’ll be fixed soon.

For the record, most of the ‘briefly noted’ posts that used to appear on my sidebar have exaporated to “my CiteULike library”:http://www.citeulike.org/user/rex or (more rarely) “my del.icio.us tags”:http://del.icio.us/ajgolub. These are all culled from “the RSS feeds I read”:http://www.bloglines.com/public/AlexGolub. Let he who has ears hear.

I’ve just finished revising the third chapter of my dissertation. I have six chapters in my dissertation, so finishing the third means that I am half way through. The page count at the moment is 475 pages. It will most likely grow to 500 by the time I am done. Given my progress my committee is tentatively planning to have me send the last chapter in on 1 May and then defend in mid-May at some point. Depending on scheduling — and my ability to do good work — we may or may not have to wait until the fall. Right now I am just excited that it is coming along so well.

I recently upgraded to 1.5 and for some reason comments are turned off at the moment. Strange, 1.5 is very nice indeed, and the upgrade went so smoothly. I think it is my custom theme that is causing the problem. They should be back soon.

“Is that a riddler mask?” asks Mac. “Paper bag with eye holes or lone ranger mask?” asks “Steve”:http://www.onepotmeal.com/article/813/photophobe. How could one doubt the answer for a second?

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“I think I’m a new kind of super hero,” I tell my scarily erudite beloved. “The mesh wrapping around irradiated hosui pears gives me strange and powerful abilities when worn as bracers.”

“You should call yourself ‘the Super Sleeper’.”

“Super Sleeper? Naw, that makes me sound like a mattress.”

“How about ‘Captain Facemask’.”

“Too much like a football penalty.”

I am thinking of creating a side kick — the spunky ‘Propellant Girl’ who takes hits off of her exhausted asthma inhaler and then breather the noxious, poisonous fumes of the propellant onto her foes. The marketing possibilities are endless.

From a student in my latest Intro Anthro course:

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I’ve changed the motto in this blog’s masthead to reflect the fact that the date of my dissertation defense is now written, if not in stone, than in very very hard plastic and is only two and a half months away. Dissertations are complex documents — mine is now 375 pages long — and finishing them is so deeply entwined with your psychologicla well-being and professional progress that opening that black box of your psyche and looking inside in order to figure out ‘how you feel about your dissertation’ simply doesn’t make sense.

Better to just focus on the finish line. I’ve always liked Steve Levy’s charming little book _Insanely Great_ on the history of the creation of the first Macintosh, and I’ve now adopted Steve Jobs’s motto as my own. As Levy writes:

Jobs’s speeches were punctuated by slogans. Perhaps the most telling epigram of all was a three-word koan that Jobs scrawled on an easel in January 1983, when the project [the release of the first Mac] was months overdue. REAL ARTISTS SHIP. It was an awesome encapsulation of the ground rules in the age of technological expression. The term “starving artist” was now an oxymoron. One’s creation, quite simply, did not exist as art if it was not out there, available for consumption, doing well. Was [Douglas] Engelbart an artist? A prima donna — _he didn’t ship._ What were the wizards of PARC? Haughty aristocrats — _they didn’t ship._ The final step of an artist — the single validating act — was geting his or her work into boxes, at which point the marketing guys take over. Once you get the computers into people’s homes, you have penetrated their minds. At that point all the clever design decisions you made, all the tists and turns of the interface, the subtle dance of mode and modeless, the menu bars and trash cans and mouse buttons and everything else inside and outside your creation, becomes part of people’s lives, transforms their working habits, permeates their approach to their labor, and ultimately, their lives.

But to do that, to make a difference in the world and a dent in the universe, you had to ship. You had to ship. You had to ship.

Real artists ship.

REAL LIVE SNOWMONKEYS JUST WAITING FOR YOU. WE ONLY NEED YOUR CREDIT CARD NUMBER TO CONFIRM YOU ARE 21!

This takes me back to the good old days when obscure psychological processes resulted in The Blog Entry that convinced half my readers that I could speak Japanese, and eventually began the Philip K. Dick-like rift in my consciousness that, once I figured out Rex and I were different people, resulted in the Huff Fandom.

“The week after I met Graham, Kathy and I won the USABDA adult syllabus Latin championships. The stiff mannerisms and contrived choreography of international-style ballroom disgusted me. I told Kathy she could find a new partner, took my winnings and gave Leuschke a call…”

“My romance with Iratze began almost as soon as the assasination attempts…”

“How can you say that when the genius of this plan lies in its stunning sincerity…?”

Here is one (potential) redesign. The motto will have a different and better font eventually. Feedback welcome

It is now three years since I’ve been blogging, and four months since I’ve lived in Hawai’i. When I concentrate on the ‘three’ in three years, this blogging thing seems a lark, but when I focus on the ‘years’ I’m a little proud that I’ve been able to keep on going this long. The blog has changed over time, from a personal journal to an intellectual outlet to a soapbox and now to a more occasional, lived in thing. As for O’ahu, the more I learn about it the more I love it. Over New Years the Scarily Erudite Beloved, ADM (Super Market to the World) and The Shambler took in Waianae and walked up Kaena point. Even as I grow more familiar with the city and the island I realize how much more there is to check out here. I’m hopeful I’ll end up staying.

In past annual reviews I’ve looked over this blog’s past. In this one I thought I’d point to the future. I’d be tempted to call these ‘plans’ but given the state of things I think it would make more sense to call them ‘predictions’. So here it is – my top ten predictions of things that will happen to my blog:

1. Sidebar blog moved to main are of blog. Frequent, shorter posts. Like boing boing, but with more stuff on kula.
2. Redesign to be ‘less gloomy’. More color and light.
3. More posting on my research on MMOGs, which I’ve been mum about so far.
4. Coming in February/March: “Thor Grendahl and the Entrance to the Underdark” (name still pending).
5. A ‘the dissertation is finished’ post.
6. Possible DGI renascence and/or group blog.
7. Publications in left hand sidebar.
8. Proper blogroll etc. in other sidebar.
9. The birth of Poreke Press
10. MP3s of me and the SEB singing.

If any of this seems like a terrible, terrible idea let me know. Happy new year everyone!

Being a young and inexperienced college professor can lead to oodles of self-doubt and boatloads of insecurity, especially if you take teaching seriously instead of assuming its an appendage to research. Therefore I was understandably thrilled when a student took the time to email me this at the end of classes this quarter:

I just wanted to let you know that I really enjoyed your class, in fact
it is one of the most interesting classes I’ve ever taken. I’m the type
of person that likes to brainstorm about opinions in general, however
your class got me thinking of perspectives that had never even crossed
my mind. I think the way you teach is phenomonal, thank you.

I’m a good teacher! Yeah!

Congratulations Christians! As many of you may have heard recently on NPR, members of the Christian faith from around the world will soon celebrate the day three supposedly wise men followed a star to a barn where a woman who had never had sex was about to give birth to a guy who was simultaneously his own father and a dove with magical powers. So Golublog would like to take a moment to say: Congratulations all Christians on the birth of your god! And for those of you who have fallen from the back (‘backsliding’) and seek to be reconciled with the infant Jesus — now’s your chance!!

Alternately if you wish to spend your holiday buying me presents, then by all means do so.

In the last six months or so I’ve been rearranging the configuration of my outboard brain, shifting from a world with a links page to one with bloglines and a sidebar blog. The last thing I shifted over was my Amazon.com wishlist (ok I think this link works now). I used to use it as a reminder of books that I ran across, but now that I have CiteULike and the sidebar and other ways of remembering these things, I have taken the radical step of turning my wishlist into a list of items that I wish to receive.

This time of the year is often confusing for interfaith present giving. Many people ask me: Is it appropriate for me, as a Christian, to buy a Jewish friend a present? Would I be insulting them if I called it a ‘Christmas gift’? A ‘Hannukah gift’? Many Jews, in turn, see Hannukah as a minor holiday, and giving large gifts is sometimes viewed as unseemly or being overly ‘Christianified’. For this reason I thought I should take a moment to state for the record that I encourage people of any faith to buy me presents at any time. Christmas is fine. March works for me too, come to think of it. In fact, Christmas and March combined would still be ok. So go nuts folks.

I’ve also recently presents of a different sort. Its sort of a long story. Basically when I shipped my library over from the mainland, two boxes were dropped by postal employees and then burst open, spreading Melanesiany goodness around the floor of the post office. But rather than stuff the books back in the box and resealing it, my box was refilled with a bunch of other people’s stuff. As a result I’ve been ‘gifted’ with a bunch of random ‘presents’ that belong to other people. One of the items I received — a set of headphones — had a name and address on them, but when I googled the name I found out the guy who owned them had just been arrested for racketeering, so I decided maybe I wouldn’t call him up and see if he wouldn’t be willing to trade his headphones for my copy of “Mining and Indigenous Lifeworlds in Australia and Papua New Guinea”. But are all of this things just his? his family’s? Two peoples? Three? Its hard to say, because in the mail I have received:

1 pair of headphones
1 set of demonstration silverware with clear plastic handles
1 ‘piddle pack’ (bag with a sponge you piss into when you’re on a boat).
1 set of froofy berets
19 Best of the NCO Journal (featuring articles like “Preparing to Wear The Diamond: What it Takes to Complete the First Seargeant Course”)
1 Very well done but still obviously fake Louis Vuitton Purse
1 1789 page Tessco wireless products catalog
1 VCR tape of the classroom edition of “Reviving Ophelia: Saving the Selves of Adolescent Girls”
1 “Dressage Masterclass With Dane Rawlins” book (still in plastic)
1 Volume of poetry by Edmund Jabes, includes “The Book of Questions,” “The Book of Yokel,” and “The Book of the Book.”
1 telephone

Some of the stuff could be useful. I think I might have a pop quiz in class on personhood in Melanesia — the winner gets a free fake Louis Vuitton bag. I must also admit that now that I know how easy it is would complete the First Sergeant Course I kinda want to do that too. But overall I’m stumped. Of course, the person expecting their piddle pack is probably trying to figure out what to do with my copy of “The Royal Touch.”

Here’s the menu from our first Hawai’i Thanksgiving.

Starters: Champagne, Edamame, Canteloupe Slices
Soup: Carrot Curry Soup
Salad: Romaine and Radicchio with Hosui Pears, Walnuts, Gorgonzola and Balsamic Vinaigrette
Main course: Escallopes of Turkey with Cognac Cream Sauce
Wild Rice Pilaf with Wild Mushrooms
Wasabi Mashed Potatoes
Shanghai Bok Choy with Garlic
Cheese Course: Maple-Smoked Cheddar, St. Andre, Artisanal Garlic-Herb Cheese, Unidentified Stinky Runny Blue Cheese, Crown Figs, Walnuts
Dessert: Cold Honeydew Melon Soup with Macadamia Nut Ice Cream

Starters: Slice up the canteloupe, blanch and salt the edamame, and uncork the champagne.

Soup

Carrot Curry Soup
2 tbsp butter
1 tbsp curry powder (garam masala, what have you, but sweeter rather than very hot)
1 large leek, minced (may substitute scallions)
1/4 c. dry sherry or vermouth
2 c. chicken or vegetable stock
3 lb. carrots, scraped and chopped into rounds
1 1/2 cup whole milk

Saute the leek in butter till softened. Add curry powder and stir-fry until fragrant, about 30 seconds. Add vermouth and let cook for a minute to drive off the alcohol. Add stock and carrots. Simmer till carrots are very tender. Puree (in a food processor or with an immersion blender). Taste to balance seasonings and salt. Stir in milk, heat and serve. (Be sure not to let the soup boil after adding the milk.)

Salad

1 medium head romaine
1 small head radicchio
2 Hosui (Asian) pears, peeled and cubed
1/2 c. walnuts
Gorgonzola or other blue cheese crumbles
Balsamic vinegar
Olive oil
Garlic
salt

Mince 1 clove garlic and mix with 1/2 tsp or so salt. Press with a spoon or a pestle and allow to sit for 10 minutes. Add balsamic vinegar and olive oil in desired proportions to make a vinaigrette.

Wash greens and tear into salad-size pieces. Arrange on salad plates. Top with walnuts, chunks of pear, and cheese crumbles. Dress with vinaigrette and serve.

Main Course

Escallopes of Turkey with Cognac Cream Sauce
Bone and skin a breast of turkey and slice into cutlets, or buy prepared turkey cutlets (MUCH easier). Dredge briefly in flour seasoned with salt and freshly ground pepper, and saute in sizzling butter, just a few minutes on a side, till tender. Set aside. In the same pan, saute 3-4 minced shallots till translucent. Add 2 tbsp minced fresh tarragon. Turn off the heat and add 3-4 tbsp cognac, standing back in case it flares up. Simmer for 1 minute and stir in 1 cup heavy cream. Taste to balance seasonings, and serve immediately with turkey escallopes.

Wild Rice Pilaf with Wild Mushrooms
2 c. wild-white rice mixture, cooked
1/2 c. dried mixed wild mushrooms, reconstituted in boiling water (or 1 c. fresh)
1 c. of the water used to reconstitute the mushrooms, or vegetable or chicken stock
1/4 c. Dry sherry or vermouth
1 medium onion
1/2 c. pine nuts

Saute onions in 2 tbsp. butter. Mince mushrooms and add them when the onions become translucent. Cook briefly (for dried mushrooms) or until mushrooms soften (for fresh). Add sherry or vermouth and let it bubble up; add mushroom water or stock. Add rice and stir to mix evenly. Cover and cook over gentle heat until all liquid is absorbed. Stir in pine nuts and serve.

Wasabi Mashed Potatoes
About 12 potatoes (red or Yukon Gold)
one tube of prepared wasabi
1/2-1 c. milk
1/2 stick butter

Quarter and boil the potatoes (no need to peel them). Drain them and put them in a big bowl where you have room to mash them with a good potato masher. Now begin adding the buttermilk/butter and wasabi in doses — preferably small spurts of wasabi and huge gouts of butter and milk. The key to mashed potatoes, of course, is lots and lots of butter. The second key is the wasabi. Don’t go overboard. We’re not looking for hardcore horseradish action. Just a slight undertow of burn to give the taters character.

Shanghai Bok Choy with Garlic
Wash and tear up as much Shanghai bok choy as you like. Slice into thin slices the better part of a head of garlic. Heat peanut oil in a wok until near smoking. Add the garlic and stir-fry quickly. Add the bok choy and stir fry further until tender. Salt and serve.

Cheese Course

Cognac
Maple-smoked cheddar cheese
St. Andre
‘Artisanal Garlic-Herb Cheese’ (that’s what it said on the label)
Unidentified Stinky Runny Blue Cheese (we threw the label away and can’t remember what it’s called)
Crown Figs
walnuts

Dessert

Cold Honeydew Soup with Macadamia Nut Ice Cream
1 Honeydew
1 cup loosely packed mint leaves
4 tbsp. fresh lime juice
2 tbsp. sugar
1 quart Roselani macadamia ice cream

Scoop all the good stuff and juices out of the honeydew and into a big bowl. Add the lime juice and sugar and mint leaves. Process in batches in a food processor. Then pour it all back into the big bowl and go over it again with an immersion blender. We’re looking for juice-level smoothness here, folks. Refrigerate.

To serve, pour just a finger or so of the soup into a shallow bowl and top with a generous scoop of icecream. Garnish with a spring of mint or something. The ice cream is the main attraction and the soup should be just a thin coating on the bowl — it’s quite flavorful and you need only a little. For larger groups, use more ice cream and less soup. Yeah Roselani!

The other night during flossing the Beloved and I discovered that she did in fact own a Chinese Bandit Mask hidden away behind our pharmaceutical collection. So I now have a bandit mask that is currently in beta-testing. Results are positive so far, but the release candidate will have a looser fit and ‘roach silk’, whatever that is. It definitely helps me sleep — although the TWENTY SEVEN SHOTS OF WHISKEY I HAVE BEFORE I GO TO BED might also be helping.

Oh, honestly.

Some of you Fearless Readers seem to have gotten the impression that Rex is drinking himself to sleep every night just to blot out the moonlight shining through our inadequate curtains. I’m here to report that his insomnia has been ever so slightly exaggerated for dramatic effect. It’s important to realize that doses of gin are called for in inverse proportion to doses of SEB, and since we now live together in a tropical paradise, well, you get the picture. There is too much excessive drinking in my own family tree for me to be interested in having any in my house. While we do need better curtains and/or a really chic sleep mask for Rex (I’ve been looking for pink satin, with marabou trim), you can take it from me that he is not sitting up into the wee hours with a bottle of Tanqueray. Why do you think his latest fan fiction remains unpublished? Really, people.

–The Scarily Erudite Beloved

I’ve lived in Honolulu for two months now. This is what Manoa looks like from Roundtop when the scarily erudite beloved is standing stage right:

The insommnia is getting better, mostly through repeated doses of gin and SEB. I’m relearning how to defocus and let my mind wander, which keeps me from staying up Thinking all night but did result in the following three ideas last night:

1. A remake of The African Queen starring Maggie Cheung and Eric Raymond.

2. A massive battle between beautiful, solemn children directed by a mysterious mechanical force and teams of robots directed by a single solemn human.

3. A ‘19th Century Colonial MMOG’ set largely in the 19th century Pacific with detailed, realistic game play of the world’s less well-known ethnicities. To counterbalance European’s advantage in the gun department, all indigenous magic would really work so there’d be a slew of fourth world caster classes.

We thought we had some extra curtains but we didn’t, so now we have to go buy some. Or maybe the SEB will sew them? Hard to say. The other option is for me to get one of those little bandit masks without eyeholes that women in the fifties used to wear to fall asleep. I sort of like that idea but they’re surprisingly hard to find.

Sometimes teaching Intro Anthro and spending time on IRC can get a little weird:

(11:54:46) Rex: we’re doing male homosexual initiation in class today, which might get a little crazy.

(11:55:02) Rex: Excuse me — we’re going to DISCUSS male homosexual initiation, and the students may have trouble remaining calm.

I can’t fall asleep. I can’t. Fall. Asleep.

Insomnia is a problem that many people have had to deal with at some point in their lives, but it has always been a recurring problem for me. Here in Hawai’i it has become worse, and my inability to get more than two or three hours of sleep a night has left me feeling full of anger, self-pity, and a hopless listlessness which I always hope will be extinguished by a full night of sleep that never seems to come. Its gotten to the point where I sit aroud idly all day, unable to work on my thesis or articles going to press, too tired to concentrate. Then at night I lie awake, trying not to think about sleep and hoping that it will come, although it almost never does.

I go to bed at 9:30 or 10. I fall asleep at 11. I am awake at midnight from the wind or rain. The security lights outside make sure I can’t fall asleep again. Finally, exhausted, I pass out at two or three, dozing fitfully on and off until 4:30, when my anxiety about getting any sleep at all before dawn drives me fully to wakefullness. After more tossing and turning I wake up with the sunrise between 6:30 and 7:30, depending on when my landlord starts landscaping the grounds outside our house.

With enough coffee I can at least present a semblance of functioning during the day, and occasionally I do manage to get eight hours of sleep and wake up the next day and pound out ten or fifteen pages of writing and revisions. But this is simply no way to live. I can’t imagine what I’m going to do when the deadline for my thesis can no longer be wished away. My students certainly don’t deserve a professor who is more tired than they are despite their own long hours.

Tomorrow morning I’m going to take a long look at myself and my apartment and think about what I can do to change this situation, because as it stands it is simply unacceptable. As for tonight, things aren’t so bad. I only have to lay here staring at the ceilling for five or six more hours before the rest of the world starts again and I can join it pretending, once more, to have rested.

Though we are pefrectly alright, the Scarily Erudite Beloved’s university suffered severe damage in what will doubtless be remembered as the Halloween Flood of 2004. Check out the photo gallery to get some idea of the destruction. The basement of the main library was flooded with six feet of water, destroying the government documents archive and forcing a class which was meeting there to break a window near the ceilling to escape. As far as I know the Pacific Archive, on the top floor, is undamaged. My thoughts and prayers go out to everyone helping to return the university to normal at the moment. In lighter news the Advertiser’s Restaurant Guide also came out today. Show your appreciation for those saving precious books by taking them out to a restaurant!

“A new body, at last…” these immortal words ended “The Keeper of Traken”, one of the final episodes of Tom Baker’s tenure on Dr. Who. Spoken by Anthony Ainsley in his first lines playing The Master, they signal the return of the Doctor’s greatest nemesis in a plot-arc that would provide the hinge between the Baker and Davidson eras, as well as the most extensive presence of the Master since the Pertwee-era season devoted exclusively to their ancient enmity.

A fitting motto, then, for the recent changes that have been going on under the hood of the blog. Thanks to the good folks at evil wire, I am finally running on a proper virtual host with proper name resolutoin. The ugly URL framing and weirdo permalinks are hopefully gone forever, and alex.golub.name now becomes more cannonical than ever before. Huzzah!

Today marks the one month anniversary of my arrival in Honolulu. I’ve been too busy to write much on the blog. Nonetheless, there are some things I’ve learned about in Hawai’i that are worth mentioning:

Biking: Honolulu is one of the most frustrating cities in the world to bicycle in. Every day is a good day to bike, and depending how far up into the hills I want to bike, I can take a rolling trip up and down prospect street, or I can do a straight run down Beretania street in the flat land by the coast. The problem is that there are essentially no facilities for bikes in Honolulu’s streets. Nada. Nothing. Other, of course, than Critical Mass. No bike lanes. Narrow roads, and a suprising amount of traffice — biking out of downtown at 5:30 is not the funnest thing in the world, let me tell you.

Kewpie Mayonaisse: the history of mayonaisse in Japan is the history of Kewpie. There can be only one.

Food Shopping: I don’t know what to say except to reiterate that this is simply the best place in the world to buy food. The other day the Scarily Erudite Beloved and I purchased a fresh, never frozen beautiful 1.14 pound swordfish stake for US$5.69. Then we got some green tea ice cream. The huge amounts of relatively inexpensive, pan-asian cuisine that’s here is simple amazing.

Betelnut: That’s right: betelnut. Frozen areca nuts, lime, and betel leaves are available at a convenience store near my house.

Fine wine: Both local wine stores near my house are outstanding. For some inexplicable reason, the place in the basement of my local stripmall, across from the video store and cell phone kiosk, is scarily well-stocked. The owner flies abroad every year to stock the place personally — this month they’re advertising 2001 Bordeaux that are ready to drink (“both the left and the right bank did well”). There’s also a wide range of pates and fine cheeses if I want to do the whole ‘European food’ thing. Which, frankly, is not that interesting when you live in a place where there’s an infinite amount of incredibly fresh tropical produce available at all times.

The Pacific Collection: The University of Manoa is home to the Pacific Collection, the largest and most comprehensive collection of materials about the Pacific Islands ever assembled in the entire history of our species. Their website looks dorkey, but don’t be fooled — the reading room on the top floor of Hamilton Library (with a gorgeous view of the hills that surround Manoa, I might add) has every book I could ever want to read about Papua New Guinea, Melanesia, or the Pacific.

Hawai’i Vocal Arts Ensemble: We’ve found a choir in Honolulu that is more challenging and has a more interesting repetoire than my old choir. Additionally, Hawai’i Vocal Arts Ensemble is secular, which means I get to wear my tuxedo more often (which makes me feel like buying it was a good idea) and I don’t have to sit through a religious service just in order to sing.

Free Books: Are you aware that the website for every publisher on the planet has a little button next to each book that says “I’m a professor – please send me a free copy of this book?” It’s known as the ‘examination copy.’ Given how many books I buy this is a serious enough saving to me that it offsets the fact that I’m paid peanuts as an adjunct.

Korean Barbecue: Excellent when done well, ok when done ok. However, it takes you a while to realize that the fifteen different things you can order at Korean Barbecue are in fact different versions of the same dish.

Icees: If riding my bike to school every day isn’t enough of a plunge back to my childhood, the enormous abundance of icees, slushpuppies, and slurpees more or less completes the job.

Cafes: There are some here. Numerous. There’s a guy at the one nearest my house who wears an ‘Operation Ivy’ t-shirt to school half the time. There were no decent cafes in Hyde Park. Now my cup is all running over and stuff.

Bound by Recognition: Biella is right, this book is awesome.

Well being settled is one thing, but gettin’ known is another — and I’ve been doing a whole lot of it this week.

To begin with, my first real journal article has been published — Copyright and Taboo in the latest issue of Anthropological Quarterly. It’s part of a wider theme issue on open source software and culture which features The Mad Dog’s article on the politics of open source which has been republished at Linux World and gotten notices by a variety of people. Apparently the full text of my article will be on line sooner rather than latter. We rock. Yeah us!

My scarily erudite beloved has also been the subject of much attention lately, public intellectual that she is. The Honolulu Academy of Arts is not just a museum with a cool Kid’s Page where you can play the “East Meets West” game, they’re also in the middle of a fancy schmancy exhibit of Ming and Qing landscape paintings. As a result the local NPR affiliate dialed up the SEB and she was featured in a story on the exhibit (mp3 link) which played on radios from Nu’uanu to Kailua. Also she sent her first article off today, so our entire household is all articled-out.

We’ve also been working on getting known in the world of Honolulu choral music as part of the process of finding a permanent place to sing. As some of you know, the scarily erudite beloved is not only scarily erudite, she is frighteningly proficient in sight-reading as a result of a childhood of choral singing that was sort of a cross of Immortal Beloved and a Shaw Brothers training sequence. I am not bad myself, of course, but am definitely a bit below her on the singing totem. In Chicago, I was a valuable and competent chorister but definitely not a professional singer. Groups like Music of the Baroque wouldn’t touch me with a ten foot pole — I took lessons (wow — I almost wrote “lesions.” That would have been weird) from members of that choir! On the other hand Honoulu, as you might expect, is not the sort of place where Western High Art flourishes. There’s tons of singing and a wide variety of different vocal styles (you can can hear a service sung in Hawai’ian!) from the Pacific’s rich repetoire of indigenous styles, as well as the many local forms that the Christian musical tradition took in the islands. But the hard-core Western Music As Fine Art thing is not so done out here.

As it turns out, in Honolulu a frighteningly proficient soprano and her first tenor boyfriend are sort of big fish in a small pond. We’re not god’s gift by any means, but the response we got to our tentative attempts to contact choirs were all along the lines of: “One of you can sight-read and the other has the high A? THANK GOD YOU’RE HERE. WE’LL DRIVE OVER AND PICK YOU UP IMMEDIATELY.”

So the end product of this shoping around is our proud announcement that we’re now proud members of the Hawai’i Vocal Arts Ensemble. Their web page is extreme suck (I’m planning on fixing that), but the ensemble itself is the finest in Hawai’i. They have a great repetoire, perform several times a year and are secular, which is an enormous relief for me. Singing in a church choir for a few years was a rich and rewarding interfaith experience, but it did lead to certain awkward moments when, for instance, I referred to the congregation as the “audience” or accidentally let something slip about “the false man-god of the Christians.” The director is obviously talented, and my fellow choristers bring out the best in me as a singer. Best of all, this will be the first time the SEB and I will be singing together in a choir and romantically entangled. We’re looking forward to combining them.

Finally, there are two other super-kewl secret things happening right now that I’m involved in. But one of them I can’t talk about now until I get clear on how much of the confidentiality agreement applies to me, and I’m too tired to talk about the other one at the moment. More soon.

Well with the Days of Awe well and fully underway I feel, as Xander might say, “all atoney.” My experience so far is that my friends overestimate how easy it is to surf in Honolulu and underestimate the number of Jews. They have this idea that the island is two miles wide and a hundred and fifty miles long atoll, and that I just have to roll out of bed to go to the beach. They also seem to think that surfboards are free, instead of costing hundreds of dollars, and that the surf comes in at every hour of the day instead of, say, very very early in the morning. In fact those of you familiar with Polynesian ethnography will understand fully when I say I am a mountain person, not a sea person. My current digs are right up against the mountains, at the foot of the ridge on top of which the really nice houses are located. So I’ll be taking advantage of great hiking before I hit the beach.

At the same time, you probably didn’t think that our local grocery store would have a section filled with yartzeit candles, matzah, gefilte fish and (yes) Kedem wine. But you’d be wrong. Of course, given the fact that’s it’s not yet sukkhot, I sort of wonder how familiar with store’s buyer is with the Jewish year if he’s all stocked up on pesach stuff.

But even this was not my first introduction to Judaism In Paradise. No, the minute that I and my Scarily Erudite Beloved walked into our place we found a flyer for Brian Schatz, my state representative (who has a blog and pictures of his wedding to Linda Kai Yun Kwok Schatz online). Mass mailings from politicians is not new to us. What was new to us was the fact that it was slipped under our door with a little note written on it: “Aloha, sorry to miss you. I’ll stop by again – Brian.”

I was flabberghasted to find that a politician has actually come to my house, and even more flabberghasted to see the man himself standing on the street corner opposite of my bus stop (although I now know that this is totally common on Hawai’i). This sort of thing simply does not happen in Chicago. I quickly formulated a plan of action and then struck. I approached him nonchalantly, crossed the street, and closed to striking distance. He caught my eye, and was about to try to shake my hand when I muttered “shanah tova” and walked on.

Other than just looking Jewish, I knew Brian Schatz was Jewish because he listed his affiliation with Temple Emmanu-El on his mailer. Temple Emmanu-El is not the only shul in Honolulu. There’s also Sof Ma’arav (which is actually diamondhead of Emmanu-El and hence not sof ma’arav, though they do get extra points for the When You Live in Hawaii You Get Very Creative During Passover Cookbook) and, yes, the Lubovitchers who I’ve been told have adopted a cooler uniform, including a liquid-cooled tzittzit casemod. But Emmanuel is unique for having the best URL of any synagogue (I’d say the best URL of all is vietnambla wasn’t registered): shaloha.com. That’s right: shaloha. Just ponder for a moment the profundity of that concept.

Emanu-El is also home to the Kalakua Torah. Originally given to King David Kalakaua by Elias Abraham Rosenburg in 1886, the Torah was periodically removed from the ali’i’s kapu, read and returned. Eventually get hold of the yad, and eventually the entire thing. This torah, along with Linda Kai Yun Kwok Schatz, indicates the richly multicultural nature of contemporary Hawai’i, and the role that Jews have in it. In a place where Korean, Japanese, and Chinese culture mix and mingle, the presence of a strong Jewish community means the creation of a multicultural environment guarenteed to produce an endless stream of successful professionals, academics, and violinists. All of whom are totally down for plate lunch with two scoop rice and some shoyu chicken.

Shanah tova everyone — hope you all have a sweet new year.

After three weeks of packing up, travelling, and moving, I am finally fully settled in Honolulu. Super-big thanks to everyone who helped me out — Remloff, Karl, Seth, J, and Kevin, for moving. Neshura, H0lmes, and Epsas for co-chilling in SF. My family was as usual There For Me (special mad shouts out to Soup). A big special thanks to Alex and Micah for going above and beyond helping me move when the going got tough and they had other things to do. They went out of their way to make their life suck more so that mine could suck less. Every four years I move from one city to another, and every four years I can count on more or less the same group of friends pitching in — there is no diagnostic of your personal network than your library, packed in boxes at the top of a third floor walk-up. So it means a lot to me that most of the people who helped me move — especially Alex and Micah — were people who I didn’t even know four years ago. I spent a lot of time at Chicago feeling like an alienated graduate student with little or no human contact, but it looks like I was wrong. Thanks guys — I owe you.

You won’t be surprised to hear that Honolulu is a fantastic town. All in all, it seems like an over-inflated, technicolor version of California as I remember it growing up. The weather is great of course, but this is less interesting to me than it would be to some, since after all this is merely a return to the weather I grew up with in glorious California. In this light Chicago just looks like a cold, dark interlude in a life of sunshine and palm trees. Even my neighborhood doesn’t look too different from parts of my hometown. There are strange little things about the place. All of the vacuum-sealed bags of coffee come with small metal clips attached, and my neighborhood is suspiciously full of limousines — everyone moonlights in tourism, it seems like.

Despite hearing terrible things about the cost of living in Honolulu, as far as I can tell everything here is cheaper and higher quality than Chicago. On the South Side I could walk into any store and get catfish and collared greens. Here I have an infinite amount of fresh fish (they include ‘previously frozen’ on the packages as a mark of shame), every conceivable East Asian ingredient, and yes, lots of Spam. While name brand beer costs US$6 for a sixpack and I’ve seen milk for US$8 a quart, it seems to me that if you don’t mine buying local brands then you are good to go. At the same time, we have two great wine stores near the house which means that I am in the odd situation being able to walk to the corner, order some Loco Moco to go, and then pickup a nice aged Pauillac or some truffle pate. This is fine with me. And Honolulu’s small town/tourist mecha schizophrenia means you can get great super-cheap Korean take out or blow a couple hundred dollars eating at a restaurant as fine as Trotters or Everest.

Real estate is like New York, or perhaps San Francisco. It’s not much more expensive than Chicago, but the places are incredibly incy-teency. Lucky I have the bomb place with a kewl landlord, but when our sublet runs out we’re going to have to spend a LOT of time looking around for a new place. You sort of have to know someone who knows someone or REALLY shop around.

Numerous reflections on Hawai’i and teaching are coming, but more later. Just wanted to say hello and welcome back. As Ice Cube once said: “Once again, it’s on.”

I’m very happy to announce that I’ll be teaching an intro anthro course at Hawaii Pacific University in the fall. I’m very grateful that HPU gave me this opportunity, and excited to have a chance to teach in Honolulu. As someone at the start of their career I have a sort of unbounded optimisim about how important and exhilirating teaching can be. Everyone assures me that this will fade in a couple of years as I grow more jaded and elderly, but right now I am psyched and planning to prove everyone wrong and become as enthusiastic and dedicated a teacher as the professors who I was lucky enough to study under.

In other news, I finally broke down and rewrote major portions of the Wikipedia entry for the Sapir-Whorf hypothesis. It’s not exactly my area — a fact that I’m reminded of constantly since I know several of the world-experts in the Sapir-Whorf category — but Sapir-Whorf is one of these areas where the divide betwen what academics think it means and what other people think it means is particularly stiff. There seems to be an infinite amount of discussion about Sapir-Whorf out there on the intarweb, and the vast majority of it falls in the category of “vulgar Whorfianism” — the idea that “if there’s no word for it, you can’t think it.” This kind of thing makes my teeth ache. Newflash, folks: Whorf and Orwell had slightly different views of language. At anyrate, my ego grows exponentially now that I’ve convinced myself that I 0wn yet another wikipedia page. So be warned — anyone who wants to mess with the entry on Célestin Bouglé is gonna have to answer to ME.

Hells yes.

An interview I did a month or two ago has finally incubated and turned into a lengthy article in the National Post’s business magazine — produced by one Canada’s biggest print media companies. It’s entitled “Dirty gold or dirty deal? Activists and Placer Dome square off over social responsibility” (no web version available, afaik, sorry). A very lengthy and thoughtful interview with the author resulted in a minor mention — which is more or less how being interviewed by journalists go. Here’s my fifteen minutes of fame:

Anyone who has spent time in Porgera marvels at the Ipili’s negotiating skills and pluck. University of Chicago anthropologist Alex Golub, who spent several years there, recounts the negotiations between the Ipili and Placer: “They told Placer: ‘We want a high school, we want a hospital, we want long-term economic development, we want a road, we want an airstrip, and we want a town to be built. If you agree to this, you will have your mine. If you open a mine without our permission, we will kill you.’” They got their deal.

My current state of exhaustion this week is due to the fact that I’ve spent all of last week hosting the Salsa Queen of Cheltenham.

Despite her official title the Salsa Queen of Cheltenham is in fact French. As is well known, the French are a savage people and so her parents began entering her in the child-fight contests which are their favorite spectator sport at an extremely early age. There in the arena, she quickly became known as a champion in the time-honored custom of Mord ou Meurt (‘bite or die’) and was so successful at biting other French children that her teeth wore down over time. This is the reason that to this day the Salsa Queen of Cheltenham exhibits completely unpointed canines.

Her days in child-fighting prematurely ended by dental smoothing, the Salsa Queen of Cheltenham was quickly directed to the professional ballroom circuit, where she spent her late childhood and teenage years competing professionally. She earned acclaim as a dancer, but her ambitions at a national title were foiled by an old nemesis who she had previously met during her pig-tailed, bite-or-die days in the arena. When she turned eighteen she abandoned competitive dance forever. Seeking to regain a childhood innocence pounded out of her by the ruthless pursuit of excellence in Fox Trot, she sold her sequined gowns, foreswore her country, and moved to England.

It was there that I first met the Salsa Queen of Cheltenham. I will be the first to admit the improbability of us meeting at a wedding reception held at the historic Gustav Holst house. But soon improbability piled on improbability, her interest in Silversteinian metapragmatics matched in unlikliness only by the fact that the newlyweds had engaged the only Salsa cover band in Gloucestshire to play at the party. There was no doubt as to her ability to cut the rug, however, and as the sun rose over the awesome majesty of the Cotswalds its rosy-fingered rays shone on us as we danced ourselves into exhaustion.

At first it seems obvious, then, that I would have a good time hosting her during her stay in Chicago in order to attend a recent conference on anthropological linguistics. This is now her current profession of choice (mostly because it involves showing excerpts of Charlie Chaplin flicks to Frenchmen) and so when the conference location was announced, I was quickly contacted. However, I soon learned that having the Salsa Queen of Cheltenham would be something of an ordeal. The Salsa Queen of Cheltenham’s appetite for Gin and Shoes quickly proved to be insatiable, and I found it much more rewarding to appease the latter rather than the former. That Chicago offered a remarkable variety of shoes for sale was news to me, nor did I know that unmentionables composed entirely of Rhinestones were also particularly cheap in the City of Broad Shoulders, especially given the current exchange rates. As one might expect, I was soon shopped out.

It should be clear from the above that the Salsa Queen of Cheltenham has a certain sort of feral charm. Her knowledge of wedding ettiquette is extensive, though she spurns all emotional attachments. She is enchanted with kitten but loves to wear fur. She loves Bridget Jones’s Diary but considers Pride and Prejudice a boring anachronism. Her reception of American culture was also mixed. Thumbs up on Tater Tots, thumbs down on Sloppy Joes. She now prefers the term ’store’ to ’shop’ but considers ‘beat’ a distant second to ‘knackered.’

After unending pub crawls, endless dancing, and a certain compromising situation in which I learned the French term for ‘Manatee,’ the Salsa Queen of Cheltenham finally departed yesterday in a haze of mimosas and cigarette smoke. As I empty the ashtrays and throw away the gin bottles that litter my apartment, I can only conclude that I both dread and crave our next encounter.

Sidebar works

Ok the permalinks go to alex.golub.name now and the sidebar links actually function. Also my house guest has now left so I have some free time to blog.

Here we go

Well the shields are down, and the photon torpedos inoperational, but the dilithium crystal chamber is still intact. I’ll be spending the rest of this week bringing the warpdrive back up to speed, but as you can see the life support systems are still holding together. We’re in rough shape right now but things will get better soon. Hang in there.

I’m redesigning this web site.

When I first got started, almost three years ago, I installed Gray Matter in order to experiment with the creative writing that I had given up when I entered graduate school. I quickly found out that returning from the field was hard — many of my friends were no longer in Chicago, and I was too intimidated by my dissertation to face it. As a result I installed Movable Type and began producing posts on anthropology and technology, discovering in the process a remarkably rich community of fellow sould who were thinking aloud online about things that I cared about. But over time my life returned to normal and my dissertation and other professional activities consumed more and more of my time. I installed Wordpress and my posts grew shorter and more personal (although less confessional). Today Wordpress tells me I’ve posted 37 stories about my life and only 11 entries on (anthrop|techn)ology. Last week I realized I’d been dropped from Mark Wood’s blogroll.

The web has changed, too. Google emerged full-blown from Stanford’s head while I was still in Papua New Guinea. CSS had come a long way, and this thing called ‘PHP’ had become ubiquitous as well. Other acronyms have grown up since then: xml, rss, soap, atom. The middleware level of the web has thickened as well – we don’t have link pages and referer logs any more, we have technorati, bloglines, and del.icio.us. I used to brag that my website ‘doesn’t just look good in lynx, it looks like lynx.’ But in a world where designing with standards and alternate stylesheets means crafting code which looks good on both handhelds and the command line, this sort of thing just sounds like a corny joke.

So I’m redesigning the website.

I want the blog to occupy a niche in my biography rather than fill the cracks in my life. I want it to reflect my professional interests, rather than balance awkwardly like a private confession in the most public space. I want it to be integrated into who I am. So there are going to be some changes.

There will be a new design, with a working RSS feed. There will be more focus on what I study – Papua New Guinea, politics and policy in the Asia-Pacific, and videogames. There will be two columns (!). There will be a sideblog that will keep its finger on the throbbing pulse of contemporary sociocultural anthropology. And yes, there will still be Jedi fan fiction.

So stay tuned. Times they are a’changin’.

Thanks for reading.

Back up

I was locked off of Word Press for the last two days for a stupid reason. Now I am back on Word Press and will start blogging again. Huzzah!

Well as you have seen by now from the comments on this site, I’ve been hearing stories about Raccoons ever since I posted my first harrowing experience here about a week ago. What you haven’t seen are the emails I’ve been getting deluged with emails sharing some stories and experiences with me. Apparently this has, oddly enough, really struck a chord. Here are a few of the emails I’ve received.

Dear Alex (Rex?) -

Hi. My name is [name removed]. I found your blog down at the bottom of crooked timber and I’ve been reading it for a few months now. I live in Seattle, where I work for [company deleted]. My wife and I have a lovely old home up in the hills with a huge backyard and we haven’t had any problems other than the occasional deer tracks.

I wanted to tell you about what happened to me last week after I read about your raccoon encounter on your blog. It was about two in the morning and I heard some crashing outside our house. There aren’t many homeless people in my part of town, and so I didn’t know what it was, but then I heard the sound of glass knocking together, and I realized it might be some bum stealing bottles out of my glass recyclables bin. I got up and walked outside to see what the matter was and ask him to leave before I had to call the police. Anyway, I went out back onto the deck and there was no-one around at all. I started getting really afraid maybe someone was trying to rob me or something. Then I turned on my flashlight and shined it on the deck where we keep the recyclables. I saw these two glowing eyes just staring at me. They looked really green because of the way the light was shining off of them.

Well I was so freaked out I accidentally let off my minor spell sequencer. The next thing I knew the entire fucking deck had burst into flames! I saw two lit raccoons take off as quick as you can say lickety split. I spent $2,000 putting that deck in and then bam, one fireball later I’m sitting there all mirror-imaged and watching it burn. I was so pissed off. I had to wait like 10 fucking rounds before my Otiluke’s Resilient Sphere wore off and I could call the fire department.

hate raccoons,
-[name removed]

It is amazing how often I have gotten emails like this from people all over North America. Sometimes it is even from some pretty a list bloggers. Check this one out for instance:

Rex-
Saw the raccoon entry. Totally with you. I end up wasting one or two timestops on those little bastards every month.
Regards,
Mark Woods

Unfortunately I’ve also gotten more than my share of emails from the tinfoil hat wearers as well:

Dear Professor [!] Golub,
I found your exxcellennt [sic] website by using Google. They are after me too. I would be very interested in hearing more information from you about the secret plans of the Romulan Palladium.
Regards,
Dr. [name witheld] Ph.D., J.D.

So: If you have any more stories about Raccoons (but not Romulan assassins!) please feel free to email them to me (note the ‘email’ link at the top of the page) and I will post them here.

Ok well technically that’s not true. Its more like I’m dreaming, and then the raccoons come. I’ve known there were raccoons in Hyde Park for years – I used to live in a house with a bunch of other students, and right across from us was a big huge mansion that was poorly kept up. It had a certain tumbledown charm that only mansions inhabited by hippy lawyers can have. But the best thing about it was that the roof was the home of two raccoons. Those little bandit-masked bastards were up there so often they practically paid monthly assessment fees. In the evenings we used to sit out on the balcony of our house and watch the little guys shamble around on the roof, and when the owners would (very occasionally) come outside to cut the grass, we’d point to the roof and scream “Raccoons! Raccoons!” and they smiled benignly at us. This meant that either they already knew the raccoons lived up there and were ok with it, or they just thought we were totally crazy.

Now of course the raccoon comes in three flavors. The first is your standard run of the mill raccoon. The second kind of raccoon is the dire raccoon, which is more or less identical to the regular raccoon, except that it can go into a frenzy. And finally you have your giant raccoon, which does not go into a frenzy, but which gets an additional attack per round and does 1D8 damage. THe disadvantage of this kind of raccoon is that it can only be summoned if you are level six or higher. Indeed, the word ‘raccoon’ itself comes from the Algonquin (Powhatan) word arahkunem, which means “only worth summoning if you’ve taken the spell focus feat”.

At any rate what with the dissertation and all I’ve been a little on edge lately. My insomnia has returned, and with it a certain amount of paranoia. So last night when the banging outside my window began, I was sure that the Romulan assassins had finally tracked me down. Why they were rooting through my garbage was beyond me, though. I was freaking out, as was Manny (the python). But he couldn’t do much about it. Guardian familiars pretty much have to wait for something to come in before they do anything.

It was only when I saw the raccoons that I really began to flip out, because it was then that I realized that there was a sixth level Romulan summoner outside my apartment. But then I realized the badgers were normal sized and not actually going into a frenzy so much as just rooting through my garbage. So then I hit on my door with the broom until they went away.

I know that I am busy and have many many things on my plate. And I know that I am making progress. But as I work on these things I begin to realize how much I have left to do and what exactly it entails. I know that soon I am going to be busy, and not in a fun way.

The final version of the dissertation is due in November, which seems very close indeed. The reception to the diss is positive but sort of bewildered. Everyone thinks the idea sounds great, but somehow between my describing it and how it actually turns out I somehow seem to have failed to produce the dissertation that everyone – including me – keeps expecting to see. This is better than producing the completely mediocre dissertation that everyone was expecting from you. But it just reinforced my feeling that there is no such thing as a ‘day off’ from the dissertation any more.

And I’m also going to be moving soon. Moving. TO HAWAII. That is a long way away, and there is a lot of stuff I’m supposed to do between now and then. So as a result this is also very much on the agenda. Moving is particularly complicated because I don’t actually have the money to do it, and arranging for it (family, more loans, etc.) is Yet Another Layer of Paperwork.

The paper with Mad Dog is going quite well, and as long as I don’t let up I’ll be able to pull my share of the weight on it. It could be a truly excellent paper, so we’re very happy about it and looking forward.

AHATPOLS will be printed with out too much furor, I’m sure – although we’re having trouble finding a model for the cover (any vaguely Maori-like volunteers out there?) or, to be frank, ANYONE who wants to design the cover. And I have to write a preface. And I have to organize to have it printed. But at least its now been sent off to be layed out. I’m hoping to get paper copies before I leave. I don’t think I’ll start publishing the Thor thing until September or so when I’m good and settled.

Also I’m planning on organizing a panel for ASAO. Plus I’m giving three papers, some of which still need to be written or tweaked. And also I’m helping to organize the conference. Or will, once I move to Hawaii. Did I mention I was doing that in August?

Secret Open Source Project will not be too much more overhead, which is nice. And soon I will be able to reveal it to you in all its Open Source Glory.

Also I will have houseguests for essentially the entirety of August. I am happy to put them up, but this does eat into my private time, which I vigilantly save up so that I can use it to Freak Out.

So: busy busy busy. But blogging about it makes me feel a bit better I suppose.

My neighbors play with chainsaws in the morning so I’m too tired to write much in the evening now.

There are an as-yet unidentified number of generically slavic handymen outside my window everymorning who operate their chainsaws without accomplishing anything other than waking me up. They must be building something I suppose, have some end in mind. But what? And why so early?

The mysteries of the universe my friends.

This is my Truss month: grammar, grammar, grammar. Spelling, spelling, spelling. I’ve got proofs for one article to get out the door, the dissertation to edit, Secret Open Source Project #1, AHATPOLS, and an article I’m cowriting with the Mad Dog. After a few weeks I now 0wn the wikipedia entries on Durkheim and the Annee Sociologique, and I’m thinking of branching into Neverwinter Nights modules. And so I’d like to share a few links with you in the hope that all the other blogging anthropologists proofing their Jedi fan fiction won’t have to reinvent the wheel:

American Anthropological Association Style Guide

Chicago Manual of Style (your institution may subscribe)

The Weapons of Star Wars This wikipedia entry is scarily detailed: “The average output of a blaster (data from tech manuals) is about 8 megajoules. Capital scale blasters are called turbolasers. According to official literature on blaster output, the heavy turbolasers mounted on the Old Republic-era Acclamator have an energy output of 200 gigatons per shot. Newer ships in the classic Star Destroyer line are equipped with much larger weapons.”

Yahoo’s French Encyclopedia: Perfect for getting the names and dates of Obscure Frenchmen.

A truly amazing number French social science texts in their entirety. More Halbwachs than you can shake a stick at.

Last night I had a dream I was designing a Neverwinter Nights module about Foucault’s life. The shops were all weird.

What sort of duty do I as an intellectual and an academic have to make my expertise available to the wider public? This is a question I’ve often asked myself – I definitely don’t want to be one of these people who crawl up into the Ivory Tower and then never crawl out. But what constitutes crawling out?

Lately I’ve decided to start contributing to the Wikipedia (you can even check out my homepage, but it’s not very impressive). I had planned to do mostly PNG related entries but somehow got stuck on the French – for instance, by writing the entry on Gaston Bachelard. Most recently I updated the entry on anthropology. So that’s one answer to the question: provide copyright-free information on the author of The Psychoanalysis of Fire – that’s one good thing and intellectual can do.

Now, when I tell people I study ‘mining and indigenous people in Papua New Guinea’ they often ask me: ‘what are you going to do with that?’ or ‘why is that important?’ and then I give a little speech about how what I’m really studying is how representatives of ‘global’ actors interface on the ground with ‘local’ people. And sometimes I even suggest to people that anyone who cares about, e.g., the occupation in Iraq, should be concerned with how global actors interface on the ground with local people.

But then check this out – a few days ago I got an email from Bechtel asking them the help them take over Iraq.

Let me be more exact. I was contacted by someone who is “working with Bechtel Corporation on a research project concerning influx management or in-migration of workers into proposed construction project sites” and who saw the abstract of a paper I presented written up in the annual report of the Max Plank Institute for Social Anthropology. Basically I study how first world companies create a stable social context within which they can carry out huge infrastructure projects, and this person is hoping my paper gives them some pointers.

So what do you think I should do? I believe information wants to be free – that’s why I write for Wikipedia – even if the people who exercise that freedom happen to be involved with a situation that I consider morally and ethically incorrect. I think I’ll probably just tell her the truth – that the paper is not available for distribution and that it’s about Ipili religion and historical consciousness anyway. But beyond a certain professional responsibility to make my work available to others, I don’t plan to go out of my way providing them with information.

That’s it. It’s done. I am not writing any more tonight. If I am feeling generous I may smooth out some prose. It’s done and it’s going to my committee tomorrow. They’ll give me comments, I’ll revise, and then defend in the fall.

On 20 April I had 100 pages. Now, roughly three months later, the dissertation ended up being 319 pages. More later when I am less exhausted. I must recuperate through LDF.

Uh… it’s all downhill from here, right…?

It is a little amazing to me to realize that the bibliography of my dissertation is longer than most of papers that I wrote in College. Too. Many. Books.

My favorite line from chapter four is “Indeed, the success of George Murdock’s program for the scientific study of kinship is perhaps best indicated by the fact that his most well-known student was David Schneider.” Trust me – it’s real funny.

After a lovely five days or so spent away from the dissertation, I am back at work. Nine days until it is due. I am now entering the last leg of the race, that point where you don’t have to pace yourself because the finish line is in sight and there’s nothing left to do but sprint. All the months of keeping the apartment clean, getting enough sleep, keeping my caffeine intake down and so forth are about to dissolve into one massive thesis-frenzy. I’m not sure if this means I’ll be posting very often to relieve and relive the stress of a days revising, or whether I will, Plain Layne like, drop off the radar screen.

Today in imitation of my more successful beloved (who is now officially Dr. Beloved) I purchased a ream of paper, a very large binder, and some binder tabs. The plan was to print up the dissertation and keep printing out sections as I revise them. This way I will have a complete hard copy of it which, when I enter the final 48 hours, I can proofread in one lump sum.

The snag in the plan, as it turns out, is that I don’t have a hole punch. Which sort of complicates the whole process of attaching the manuscript to the binder thing. I think this is pretty much indicative of the whole process as I’ve experienced it so far. On the other hand, the formatting and bibliography are coming along quite nicely and the final version may actually be spell checked.

(oh, and by the way: Louis Menand’s beat down of Lynne Truss is truly a joy to read )

Oops – no wonder why my dissertation master document seemed so anemic – I forgot to include chapter 6! So with that added I’m now at 271 pages of text, and I’m at a point where all the super-extraneous stuff has been trimmed (ok, ok, I guess I’m looking to slim down chapter 2 a bit). There’s nowhere to go now but up – more beefed up sections in the introduction, include more and more census data and analysis in chapter 4. Chapter 5 probably has beween 10 to 20 pages that in an ideal world I would include. And chapter 6 is now only a measly 21 pages when, all things considered, it could be up to 50 or 60 pages long.

A lot of my friends obsess about writing short dissertations so that they can easily be converted into book manuscripts. Others dream of multivolume jobbies because, intellectually speaking, they’re of the camp that firmly believes that ’size matters’. I suppose at some point I imagined that it would be great to produce a massive massive tome, but this was only the most abstract of ideas. My concerns with the page count of the diss have mostly been that it would be too short, since I have a deadline to meet. And like everyone else, every once in a while I check out how big the entire thing is to give me some sense of completion and accomplishment that I can parlay into a desire to Keep Working.

Mostly, however, I haven’t really paid much attention to the ultimate size of the dissertation. I know my committee would like a short dissertation to read for convience’s sake. I certainly know that I prefer lucid readable prose. Which is to say I’m not against super-big dissertations, but I’m skeptical when I see them – in my experience excessive length is more a sign of someone’s inability to write well than their total god-like mastery of their topic.

I’m content to keep writing. At this point, with less than a fortnight to finish up (and five of those days taken up by a visit from la femme) things are set enough that I just know what each individual section needs to be complete. That’s what I’m trying to give the dissertation – just what it needs. However long that has to be, that’s how long it will be.

I still have the usual highs and lows – moments when I feel I’m totally inadequate to the task, and others when I feel I am just blowing the roof off of anthropology. Obviously, neither of these extremes happen that often. Mostly I feel panicky that I Could Be Working On It More when I’m not and a sense that it is more or less coming along ok when I am. I think at this point I worry about 1) making it live up to its potential (which it has in spades) and 2) the mechanics of producing something the committee can read. Which are sort of different things if you think about it.

Above all, as I contemplate how the dissertation relates to the broader field and my own narrow field of specialty, I mostly experience an itchy curiosity: how the hell did I of all people end up knowing so much about mining in Papua New Guinea? It seems so weird and random. The strangeness of it all only increases as I contemplate how much I know about mining in Papua New Guinea. This isn’t meant to be hubristic – I mean mining in Papua New Guinea is not exactly a high prestige area. But I do know a lot about it. Which is, as I say, just very very weird. Life is so strange – how did I end up here? And (more importantly) how am I going to end chapter three?

More contemplation later. I’ve got to get back to work – the iced coffee is wearing off…

I’ve not been writing a lot lately – at least not on the blog. I don’t know whether I’ve really been writing a lot of the dissertation either. I’ve been thinking a lot and writing a little. I’m to that point where I have to take all the scarily complicated ideas that I’ve sort of packed into Golub-readable shorthand in one paragraph and expand them out into three or four pages, and then ventilate those pages with citations in order to situate the ideas. So I’ve been thinking a lot, reading less than I like, and bracing for the coming month, when deadlines and inevitability sign up with my super-ego for a 30 day long insomnia and angst plan.

I still vividly remember the way that I was introduced to blogging – watching in shocked amazement as Tinka’s struggle with her thesis spilled out of her brain and out onto the network. At the time I sort of half-hoped half-feared that someday I would end up writing something like that. It looks like that might happen – which would at least be interesting. But I worry about all the other small revelations that no longer find there way here. The way I realized recently (well, about 20 minutes ago), that I find Ned Rorem and Audrey Hepburn fascinating in exactly the same way: unparseable at core in a way that makes each unfolding of them fascinating and simultanesouly unsatisfying. Somehow, France lingers in the center of them both. The entry I wanted to pound out about anthropology as stand-in and interpreter – a reworking of Habermas’s account of the role of philosophy in the light of science. The as-yet-only-imagined discourse between Kotor and Dis, the twin angels on my shoulders (one light, one dark of course) in which they each seek to tempt me into self-fulfillment. One urges me to complete writing him, reminding me of how much more complete I feel as a person when I do so. The other encourages me to play Knights of the Old Republic for five hours on end just to get away from the stress of the world. “But this is avoidance,” I plead with him, “escape is not the same as fullfilment.” “Really?” smirks Kotor, “then why did you just spend a half hour reprogramming a prototype Sith assasin droid?” (note to readers: always take the Combat Subsystem off line first).

And finally there is thorstart.txt, the next installment in the Huff fandom that sits uneasily at the bottom of my “Most Recent Documents” list. I see it, I think it, but it’s been hard to to write it. It started off great and is now stalled. I think this is most likely just because I’ve got way too many other things to write (articles in various stages of publication in addition to the diss etc). But I do feel a certain sense of responsibility to get it up and running. Which is probably why I’m choking. Anyway.

Blech. Paralysis sucks. Hopefully if I can tip over in one direction inertia will do the rest.

There are many reasons why dissertation writing might interfere with my productivity on the blogosphere front: my attention is elsewhere, I’m thinking about different things, I don’t have time to write. But the real reason the diss is biting into the blog is actually quite embarassing. It’s not that I lack inspiration. It’s simply that at the end of the day, when that world-weary oceanic feeling of contemplating my human condition rolls over me with the tidal majesy of the sublime, I’m just too tired to write about it. I’m like: (a) tidal majesty of the sublime, or (b) sleep? So, you know, as a result, even the site’s previously low standards of sublimity are being challenged. Because frankly, oceanic majesty is not all it’s cracked up to be when it goes toe to toe with freshly laundered sheets in your future and a long day of writing in your past.

I know I’m going strircrazy working on the diss. I’ve begun walking around Hyde Park making up lyrics for a cover of Barry Manilow’s ‘Coppa Cabana’ which is ALL ABOUT LAKHDAR BRAHIMI. The weird part is that it starts different and then goes back to the real lyrics:

His name was Lakhdar
He was an envoy
Urging technocratic rule
By people who weren’t tools
He would Merengue
And do the Samba…

God, please make it end…

Huzzah! It is now official and public – I am moving to Honolulu in late July/early August to follow my girlfriend out to her snazzy new tenure track job at the University of Hawaii Manoa. It’s been my policy to never mention her on the blog – it’s one thing for me to lay bare my soul here, but she deserves her privacy. Nonetheless, I thought I’d break radio silence on this issue to report that we are both overjoyed and inredibly excited to have a chance to move to such a wonderful city and such an excellent university. Also, I figured you ought to know why my next piece of Jedi Fan Fiction features an entrance to the Underdark just outside of Hilo. I will wrap up a rough draft of my dissertation in July, give it to my committee, and then polish it off/up in the fall – I plan to defend in fall 2004. Hawaii is the absolute center for the study of Oceania in the US, so I am very hopeful that I will be able to rustle up some sort of position or other. If not, I am prepared to accept the sad fate of being a kept man on a tropical island. Finishing is scary, moving is scary, future potential financial insecurity is scary, but all in all I can not imagine a happier ending to graduate school. Not that I can take any of the credit, of course – that goes to my super-foxy and scarily erudite beloved. Mad props to her. Huzzah!

In other news, Netflix has tallied and cross-referenced by movie preferences and determined what it has decided will be my next two favorite movies: Billy Wilder’s noir classic Sunset Boulevard and Transformers: The Movie. I tried explaining how gunny this was to my friends, only to find they had all seen either one or the other but not both. I was the only person who appreciated the juxtaposition. Which means, I suppose, that Netflix is right.

It was the same old url-forwarding frame problem. Now all is well. Comment away!!

Comments on the site are not working since I switched servers. Working on it now.

As of today the dissertation is 100 pages long and I’ve still got a long way to go. Steady progress the past couple of days in more or less rough-draft type writing. As I move on to actually citing people and looking over my fieldnotes, it’s going to grow even more.

Today I received, via the usual sources, certain items such as a bottle of Grappa, twenty four chocolate bars, and a set of silver for eight from the officer’s mess of a decomissioned battleship. It is hot and I am thinking about my dissertation, sipping grappa, and listening to the wind – warm, finally, as it twists its sinews around the windowsills. The heat reminds me of the past – a time which I now call my childhood. I remember coming home in the evening after rehearsal and falling asleep, waking up after dark and taking my mother’s car out into the hot, dry evening to a cafe where my friends sipped ice coffee and talked about Guy Debord and tried to make our own situations in the nine o’clock night. I write better like this: in the dark, later, now, than it was then and older, of course, sitting in this chair. The screen is glowing too bright not to strike my imagination but too anachronistic, alas, for poetry and metaphor. I am thinking about my dissertation – a harder work than fantasy which fills my mind these days with remembrances of negotiations and hard living now four years old. It seems impossible to me now that I will not finish this work that I have begun. I know now that there is light at the end of the tunnel. But I wonder at what sort of sky will hang above me when I step out, blinking, into the sun.

Wow – someone is sufficiently interested in Gapers Block (to which I regularly contribute) that they’ve actually dedicated a whole blog just to trashing it. So far it appears to be designed to provoke a Quadrophenia-style Battle of the Mods and Rockers between the GB Staff and the people at The Chicago Report. The writing isn’t super-hot right now, but hopefully as they gear up we’ll get some high quality denunciations. The site makes me feel a little bad but mostly very flattered. Check it out.

Of the five things that I had on my to-do list tonight, I managed to complete two, and one of them was duck soup.

Stock, technically, although after four or five hours of simmering most of what was left of the duck had indeed been turned into soup. The duck didn’t feel a thing, since it was in fact the carcass of the winged beastie who served as the main course in my Seder, and thus suffered the fate of being consumed by one Jewish intellectual, one cowboy sys admin, the lead developer of a major open source software project, a self-taught conductor, a dread pirate queen, and a woman whose idea of a good time involves Extinct Chinese. Ok, technically that’s not true – the cowboy sys admin had a salmon steak.

Of course I had to clean the house so the company would feel at home and not tip over the precariously perched piles of photocopies that seem to form in any area where I think for more than a week at a time. But you know how it is with cleaning – once you put everything away you can never find it again. So in fact most of this evening I’ve pretended to be a member of the Pile Extraction And Retrieval Team. Lots of filing, lots of throwing away, lots of sorting through piles.

The results have been mixed. By cleaning, I lost visual contact with my W2s, which is disappointing as I had hoped to do my taxes this evening. On the other hand, I have been secretly worrying for sometime that I’ve been unable to find my 2000 census of Porgera, which is sort of necessary for the chapter I’m writing now. Luckily, I stumbled across it today – I managed to cleverly hide it by putting it in a manila folder labeled ‘Porgera 2000 Census Data’, and then to store the folder in a document box clearly labeled “Porgera Fieldwork data”. Fiendishly clever.

I don’t feel that I got a whole lot done tonight, but I comfort myself somewhat by knowing that 1) it is all valuable groundwork laid for the Big Dissertation Push tomorrow evening and 2) if I get hungry, there’s always duck stock.

As many of you may know, this is the week that Jews around the world celebrate Edward G. Robinson and the King of Siam’s defeat by Moses, whose portrayal of Charleton Heston is perhaps his greatest role, in The Ten Commandments. My Passover has been a happy one and I hope yours has been too. Let’s keep it real all the way to Shavuot, yo.

I’ve updated my links page. It will continue to change a little bit. Not very exciting.

My plan for world domiation proceeds apace even as my CV grows to fullness. I’ve just been granted cash money to fly out to San Diego to use the Melanesian Archive at the University of California San Diego. I am super excited – it is perhaps my own particular peculiarity that my idea of a good time is flying out to sunny SoCal and then spending 10 hours a day inside reading books. Last year the Melanesian Archive puchased a rare carbon copy of Jack Hides’ report of his 1934 Strickland-Purari patrol after they got the tip off from me that a copy was available for sale. Now I hope to have my picture taken with it. I already have a picture taken of me with John Black’s 1939 field diary from the Hagen-Sepik patrol. I might start putting up a gallery of Me With Famous Patrol Reports on my website. Anyhow San Diego has one of the coolest librarians around, as well as a number of Kind Melanesianists, so I’m psyched to be going out there and – hopefully – giving a talk. And best of all, they’re so accomodating they’ll actually fly me back in the library when I’m ready to return to Chicago. Go UCSD!

Syracuse University scores big, manages to bag Graham Leuschke. Other universities wail and gnash their teeth.

White House responds to Dick Clark’s accusations by threatening to release recordings of Clark. “First we will release tapes of Clark during his time with our administration,” reports Condi Rice, “and if those don’t work, we’re going to rerelease the tapes those guys Negative Land made of him on that one album”.

Ousted Liberian dictator and moral philosopher Charles Taylor secretly controls his former country via cell phone from his office in McGill. “Modernity demands a different understanding of authenticity and ethics,” says Taylor, “and after a quick keynote to that effect at NWU I will return to Liberia to crush all in my path. Jurgen Habermas will lead my puppet regime in Sierra Leone, and Seyla Benhabib might just get Burkina Faso if she treats me right.”

I went to the store this evening and purchased a six pack of beer and four rolls of toilet paper. I did this for two reasons. 1) I was out of beer and 2) I was out of toilet paper. The man in front of me bought three bottles of Andre Pink Champagne and two boxes of condoms. This is one of those times where maybe reading the mind of a stranger isn’t that hard. Still, two boxes indicated an optimism that I thought was, perhaps, misplaced.

Vice City is not a great game, it’s just a nice place to spend your spare hour or two.

Metaphors make a badly-understood phenomenon comprehensible by comparing it to something already well known. As a result there’s always an sort of revealing opacity to good (Ricoeur: ‘live’) metaphors since they always take you a little farther along than you were before. If they didn’t puzzle you a little bit before you got them, then they wouldn’t be insightful. But, as Roy Wagner points out, on the other end of the scale they can grows so cryptic that you can’t interpret their meaning at all. I delight in sort of stringing metaphors out until they become enigmatic. Particularly when they are hopelessly academic. Hence: “I’m gonna download her dissertation if you know what I mean, heh heh. And then I’m gonna go home and eat a couple of microwave burritos, if you know what I mean heh heh.”

I actually have free time, and have actually begun reading books for pleasure once again. Here, for my own quick reference and (?) your edification, is my list. Tell me if any of them are suck/non-suck.

Altered Carbon
Reality Dysfunction
Voice of the Whirlwind
A Case of Conscience
Cassini Division
Dispossesed
Life Along the Silk Road
On the Silk Road
Silk Road
Hard Travel in Sacred Places
The Anubis Gates
Titus Groan
The Water Margin
Dispossesed
Rise of the Vulcans
Silk Road
Wallet of Kai Lung
Fifth Book of Peace
Creek Country
Code
Towards and Anthropological Theory of Value
Papua New Guineas Last Place
Hans-Georg Gadamer: A Biography
The Beast on the Table
The Grifters

What a week of transitions hither and yon in my life. Some highlights:

The City of Chicago celebrates the thirtieth anniversary of Ned Rorem day.

Please join me in congratulating the parents of the superbly named Maxwell Fearless McCullough as he enters this world to begin his journey through life.

The ownership of the Porgera mine has changed hands once again – in a serious and important way, as far as I can tell in Chicago – with the acquisition of a full 10% share by the Enga Provincial Government.

The Department of Anthropology makes official a series of new appointments – Judith Farquahar and Karen Knorr-Cetina are now officially members of the department, and Danilyn Rutherford has received a tenured appointment which she richly deserved.

The United States and Japan celebrate 150 years of diplomatic relations as the cherry blossoms begin blooming in Washington, D.C.

And a few others that I can’t now properly remember.

The stress of multiple presentations is done, the post-traume decompression is over. I’m back to normal, refreshed and relaxed. The templates are made, the styles designed, and every day I sit face to face with the last two chapters of my dissertation.

After months of honing and honing the other chapters – or rather the presentations that will become chapters without too much fuss – sitting down to a blank screen and starting on two fresh chapters from scratch means immersion in a kind of creative process that I haven’t had to deal with in quite some time. A blank screen is a whorling potential combination of words – an endless sort of infinity in which your writing could take any possible form. Every word I type reduces the possible combination of letters and phrases by orders of magnitude. Every draft limits your possibilities in a liberating way, turning your thought into one of a fixed number of forms, relieving the burden of possibility and replacing it with a text, external to you, which is utterly more manipulable than the swirling mass of potentialities within you. When you pick up a draft it is in such-and-such a form, arranged one way and not another, fixed and hence fixable. Its potentiality is manageable. Writing from scratch is something else altogether.

I am looking forward in the next couple of days to pounding out a rough draft of the pages that will become the meat of the dissertation. But even more, I’m looking forward to seeing the pages lined up, the thought externalized, and the chaos controlled. Somewhere in the heavens is that celestial dissertation, the one that perfectly expresses all of the great thoughts and ideas that you know your project deserves. The craftsmanship in writing comes in learning what it means to soldier on towards that ideal while simultaneously recognizing that it is, by definition, unobtainable. This is not a great loss – who can bring heaven down to earth, after all? It’s certainly not, as some would say, proof of the futility of writing. For me, the process of writing means turning around the pivot of unfulfillable expectations and the relief of dealing with the earthly, external text rather than the ineffable, intangible expectation. Writing well means dealing with this dilemma. I’m looking forward to it.

I had to come up with a brief speakers bio for a talk I’ll be giving this weekend. By the time I was done, I was like: “d00d – I rawk.” It’s sort of good to be reminded all your hard work has resulted in some sort of describable semi-success! So here it is, for the record:

Alex Golub is a Ph.D. candidate in anthropology at the University of Chicago. He has conducted two years of field research in Enga Province in highland Papua New Guinea. His research focuses on gold mining and indigenous peoples, identity, ‘globalization,’ and issues in land policy, common property, and kinship. The recipient of a Fulbright-Hays research grant, Starr Lectureship, and Century Scholarship awards, Mr. Golub has spoken at institutions as diverse as the University of Queensland, Columbia University, and the Max Planck Institute for Ethnography in Halle, Germany. His first book, Gold Positive, was a not-for-profit popular history of the valley where he did his fieldwork. Gold Positive was based on extensive archival research, and was written at the request of, and for the benefit of, the community in which he lived. His dissertation, written under the supervision of Marshall Sahlins, focuses on negotiations between mining companies and local landowners at the Porgera gold mine. Mr. Golub’s second field project – tentatively being developed now – focuses on selfhood and property relations in massively multiplayer on-line video games such as Second Life and Star Wars Galaxies.

(mostly about Amazon.com)

1. Snow in March. Late March. Let me repeat: Snow. In. March. MARCH!! Grrr.

2. Call me crazy, but when I type the words ‘Islands of History’ into Amazon.com’s search box, I have weird idea that oh, I don’t know – IT MIGHT SHOW ME INFORMATION ABOUT THE BOOK ENTITLED ‘ISLANDS OF HISTORY’ without me having to page through four pages of irrelevant search results. This is particularly infuriating when you type ‘ “islands of history” ‘ – which results in only three pages of incorrect answers. Is it just me, or shouldn’t Amazon be able to successfully locate a book for me when I submit the name of that book, in double quotes, to its search box.

3. Amazon lists with titles like “the complete works of Gregory Benford” or “all of the books by Robert Heinlein” especially those WITHOUT REVIEWER COMMENTS. Do you know how I would go about getting a list of the complete works of Gregory Benford out of Amazon.com? typing the words ‘gregory benford’ into the search box. And then, for extra thoroughness, clicking on one book and then clicking on his name in the listings of the book display. Folks: There is no point in making a list with no information (or value) added. Why do the work of an Akamai cache?

4. Searching for classical music on Amazon? Better have the ISBN. Otherwise – forget it.

There are more things that bug me, but I can’t think of what they are right now. Don’t worry though, I’ll let you know.

The Gaper’s Block/SPEC blogger reading a few weeks back was a great success, and it generated a couple of articles in the local papers, including one in the Harold . This would be gratifying if the quality of the reporting weren’t so mediocre.

Of course, the main reason that I’m irked is that I was denied my own 15 nanoseconds of fame when they misattributed a quote by me to David Elfving:

“Elfving found that out when he dropped a reference to the 1980 movie ‘Caddyshack,’ and got no response. Then he worked the 2001 film ‘Memento’ into his spiel, and got some laughs.

‘Ah!’ he realized. ‘The demographic is becoming apparent!’ ”

I mean

1) How many people reference Caddyshack in one breath and then say something like “the demographic is becoming apparent” in the next?

2) YOU MUST CORRECTLY QUOTE YOUR INFORMANTS! Don’t be a sloppy fieldworker. I’m sure I’ll make mistakes in my dissertation so I’m not trying to be higher and mightier. But I lived there for two years and am writing up my stuff years after the fact. This guy sat through three hours of presentations and then wrote it up a week later. Please.

I appreciate the publicity and I’m glad The Block has got the nod from the local press. Really I do. But I’m too much of an anthropologist not to notice poor craftsmanship when it come to writing up one’s experiences.

All right. I feel better now. At least they noticed I had a forty.

Sometime you don’t really realize what sort of a rough patch you’ve been through until you’re through it, and it’s only now in retrospect I realize how hard I’ve been working. It has been such a relief and a blessing to be done with it all and have some time to really relax. I gave my last paper of my massive paper-a-thon on Friday. A lot people had problems with it – mostly because it was hastily and sloppily written – but the discussion turned out to be quite interesting.

I’ve spent most of this week relaxing – I feel I deserve a little sleep. Or, as it turns out, a lot of sleep. In fact I spent a good part of this week asleep. On Friday I went to bed at 1 a.m., got up at 10 and ate something, and then went back to bed slept until four. I’ve done laundry, cleaned up my house, cooked some, and generally lurked and been domestic. It’s been fabulous. I am so happy.

I’ve also turned my attention to taking the glowing-white slag of metal that is my last three months of intellectual activity and forging it into a razor-sharp, vorpal blade of a dissertation. I essentially only have two chapters left to write – one in which I synthesize and present my census data, and the other in which I describe in detail the negotiations that I followed for most of my fieldwork. I’ve felt a lot of trepidation about tackling these topics. Like most anthropologists, I feel a certain anxiety that I ‘didn’t get enough data’ – particularly on the census, given the fact that the two most characteristic features of the Ipili are there extreme mobility and penchant for secrecy. The negotiations – which were for over US$50,000,000 – were extremely difficult for me to go through personally. They sort of failed and I watched people’s careers being slowly destroyed. In fact it’s only now, three years later, that I feel I can really step back and deal with all of my material. Sometime you don’t really realize what sort of a rough patch you’ve been through until you’re through it, and it’s only now in retrospect I realize how hard I’d worked while I was there.

As it turns out, I don’t think I need to worry about ‘not having enough’. I spent most of yesterday afternoon indexing 130 pages of genealogical data, and I’ve correlating it to aerial photography of my village! So while whatever bugbears about certainty I may have might not go away, I can at least rest assurred that I am the only person in the world who will ever be convinced that my data is not convincing. In fact now, at the end of a long period of publically presenting my work, I am looking forward to writing too chapters which require a lot of leg work and sorting through my notes. Collating data seems like a welcome grind after being forced to conceptualize my argument at an abstract level over and over again.

I’ve been meaning to write my annual ’spring is here’ entry in my blog but my temperment, like Chicago’s weather, hasn’t definitively tilted towards the uplifting and so I think I’ll wait until we’re both done equivocating before I wax lyrical.

Hm. UChicago email is down and I have a deadline for Gapers Block. I thought I managed to send off the article to the editor, but it hasn’t yet appeared, and I’ve gotten no phone call. Andrew, leave a comment here if you’re having trouble, k?

I spent three hours last night writing my paper for the upcoming Interdisciplinary Christianities Workshop. Then I cranked up the John Adams and Elliot Smith and pulled two hours worth of AHATPOLS out of my soul. I went to bed at two exhausted and – due to the music – feeling simultaneously both exhausted and minimalistic. Going to sleep after writing two hours of Jedi Fan Fiction set in nineteenth-century central asia leads to strange dreams indeed. Last night the words ’spin’ and ‘master’ circled each other warily in my head, grappling occasionally to produce images of our president landing on an aircraft carrier and an elderly man pulling a fine thread from a spinning wheel.

The next morning I felt as if I was, if not over the hump, at least carefully balanced atop it. The paper is in place, AHATPOLS is set to wrap up with only a little more work, and my thee month long slog of job applications, dissertation writing, and paper giving is finally winding up. I still have a little way to go, but now I can not only see the light at the end of the tunnel, I can feel the breeze from the other side blowing on my face.

My morning was made, of course, by Mimi Smartypants taking issue – as I knew, inevitably, someone would the minute that guy went there and I thought ‘oops, it’s bad enough that he’s wearing that tie with that haircut but now he’s dwelling on menstruation’ – with Mr. Bucknell about the intimate details of fictional female characters. I mean, I just finished a novel written from the point of view of a sixteen year old girl. Am I going to go there? Hells no! I thought it was brave of me just to talk about her hair and what she thought about boys. Because, you know, these are really places that I’ve never have been and I’m not about to pretend like I have.

Then I asked the internet what the word ‘ginchiest’ meant. On the one hand, I’ve never really been compared to an Olive Oil look alike who attracts homeless black men. On the other hand, given the fact that the other possible definition includes “pussy. typically nasty biker pussy” or “an unsightly chick, good only for getting head from” I’m not sure I mind so much. I’ll take it as read she meant the kindest definition of ginchy out there. I’m just pleased to be noticed. :)

In other news, the number of books that I plan to read continues to jump in leaps and bounds, which wouldn’t be so bad except for the fact that I seem to keep on buying them. If God has mercy he’ll allow me to resist this inexplicable urge to purchase French Modern – or at least let me just check it out of the library. I also have a strong desire to listen to Abby Road.

Finally, I’m now part of a brand new all-link blog project called, simply, “List” – sort of what you’d get if you crossed Leuschke.org and Boingboing.net and then gave the resulting URLs to a fascistic web designer obsessed with minimalism. That is to say, it looks and feels a bit like Robot Wisdom. I’m trying to get Naz to be less brutal with the simplicity of the layout, but I can understand his desire to cut through all ‘the trackback crap’ (as he put it) and get back to basics. It’s been slow taking off (i.e. over eight hours – we’re talking web time here folks), but some of the links that have been posted today have been really great. Now if only we could sort by author, or even get some idea who posted what.

That’s me lately. Next AHATPOLS in the PM, and the final one tomorrow.

Just one 30 page paper to go and I’ll be over the hump of the marathon paper giving and application spree that was this winter. Twenty pages to write in two days. Must. Keep. Going.

I appear to have worked myself into exhaustion again. Give me a day or two to recover and I’ll be right back atcha.

Off for an extended weekend of Important Things in Gotham, so no posting for a bit. But FYI to potential thieves – I’ve left the python watching the apartment, so don’t even think about it.

It gets cold in Chicago at night, and the radiator starts hissing and spitting in the darkness to keep me toasty warm. As a Californian I appreciate its presence although I am unaccustomed to it. There are two major side effects of this: First, I wake up in the middle of night since, as a light sleeper, said hissing and spitting tends to rip the shroud of morpheus from my brow, if you know what I’m saying. Second, I get really dehydrated.

One result of living two years in Papua New Guinea is my keen appreciation for the very simple things in life – being dry, being clean, freshly washed clothes, and so forth. And so I happen to take an enormous amount of elementally simple pleasure in waking up at four in the morning, straggling out to the kitchen, drinking half a pitcher of ice cold water, and then falling fast asleep in bed again. This enjoyment is also enhanced by my completely irrational and yet deeply held theory that drinking tons and tons of water makes you more healthy. Anyway. So while I sort of resent living in a cold climate and being dehydated and awakened, I’ve learned to find the silver lining.

The problem, of course, is that this sort of behavior deeply upsets the enormous fifty-foot long python who watches over me as I sleep. Hell, just geting him to ignore the urban racoons who forage in my trash cans was hard enough. But he seems almost constitutionally unable to not get freaked out when I stumble out of bed for some water. Which is fair of course, since his job as sacred guardian python is to, well, guard me.

Like most guardian animals, he mostly just chills out and falls asleep like I do. But this thing’s got a hair-trigger alertness to sounds. I start snoring and the thing wakes up and starts going ballistic. It’s like an out of control postcolonial Rikki Tikki Tavi where the snake is the guardian and mongoose is the bad guy (although in this case it would be racoons). Its immediate reaction, understandably enough given his ‘constrictor’ status, is to coil. A while back – when it was really bad – he accidentally scrunched my copy of The Nuer in his massively protective serpent-coily grip. That was when I had to order him one of those long, orthopedic collumnular pillows for people with bad backs. I thought he could squeeze it as, you know, a security blanket kinda thing. Constricting makes him happy, know what I’m saying? Gives him a sense of purpose. And I’m not willing to let any other classic Africanist Monographs go to waste, hey?

I don’t know why I have so much more trouble than the other people in my family. We’ve been doing this for the better part of a century. It all began when my great-grandfather, Shmuel Masterson, was unwitting drafted into the Czar’s army at the height of the Russo-Japanese war in 1904. Poor guy got shuttled off to the Amur river basin where, in his gentle big-heartedness, he noticed a wounded garden snake in the road and, rather than killing it, kindly took it in his hands and released it into the forest. How could he have known it was the Serpent Diety, fresh off the loosing end of a prolonged Hanuman-the-monkey-god vs. Serpent Diety matchup? And don’t get me wrong – it’s not like we Mastersons aren’t grateful. I mean, the 20th century was a bad time for Jews in Eastern Europe. There’s nothing quite like watching a fifty-foot guardian python crush seven SS officers in its adamantium-like grip to make it clear that maybe this is the time you should start implementing your long-term plan of becoming a greengrocer in Brooklyn. And lots of the quick members of my family still rely on the herpetological surveillance that is my blood kin’s inheiritance. Linda swears by her python, after all.

But ultimately I find the python more trouble than he’s worth. Which isn’t to say that I don’t love him, mind you. It’s just that it’s one thing to have to buy an extra seat on the plane for your gigantic fifty foot python guardian everytime you fly. But these days? Man – forget it. They don’t even let you on the plane with metal rods in your shoes, much less an enormous constricter snake that can understand human speech and is hyper-anti-nazi. It’s like: “What’s that in the framepack then, sir?” “Uh… well, see, back in 1904…”

Don’t get me wrong – I’m not blaming him. It’s my issue, something I need to work through. I’m just saying – sometimes I get thirsty is all.

Here are some 2 year anniversary questions:

1. WordPress has a nifty feature that asks you to put in a password if you want to see certain restricted blog posts. As the job search progresses, I want to share some of the pieces I’ve worked so hard on with people other than the twelve people who will decide that I Am Not The One. But obviously I am not about to post this world-readably. How would some of you feel about going through the trouble to sign up for a mailing list to get passwords to sensitive entries? I know, I know, it seems INCREDIBLY self-important, but its either that or y’all will be getting two paragraph “I’m really too busy to write” entries for the next three months. You have to promise not to share the password.

2. Please respond to the following characters with either A) Angel of Light or B) Angel of Darkness: Cinnamon, Kathy, Bjork, Lessig (Lawrence), Sammy Davis Jr., Lessig (Willem).

3. Do you think a smaller font size would make this blog read better? Different font or line-spacing?

4. How do you think it’s going?

Let me know,
-A

I’ve been pretty productive over this break, but I think that spending this much time alone in my house is probably not that good an idea. When left to my own designs my circadian rhythms tend to slide around ’til I find myself going to bed at 4 a.m. and getting up at 11. Additionally, my typical daily routine lately looks something like this: a five hour block of thinking/writing about Papua New Guinea; a five hour block of Medieval Total War; alcohol. Rinse and repeat. At a certain level it’s not just a recipe for the total domination of Europe by a renascent Spanish Empire, it also means a lot of quality writing. Still, I can only keep this up for so long before I start to go a little off – even if I make it a point to leave the apartment for at least 15 minutes a day.

I usually can’t feel the first stages – they’re pretty subtle. A good sign, however, is when I catch myself repeating the words “A.R. bruthas don’t be takin’ no layba day off” under my breath – ok, ok, sometimes not so under my breath – as I walk around the house. I first read this line in a Herbert Kornfeld editorial in the Onion years ago, and for some reason that I can’t quite understand, it has lodged itself in my unconscious with a sort of tenacity that I am afraid can only be explained by some sort of frightening link to a repressed childhood trauma. The next stage comes when I find myself in the kitchen demonstrating a pose that I can – and frequently do (again, out loud) – describe as “my dragon stance”. It sort of involves balancing on one foot. This is an unusual choice for me, obviously, since I chose as a child to master the Mantis Rapture katas, and have never learned much Dragon Stance.

Finally I get to the Joe Pantoliano thing – you know, where you’re sitting around your apartment reading or listening to music and you suddenly start thinking “how would Joe Pantoliano read that line?” It’s not just “Your forces have seized Trebizond” it’s “hey, your forces have seized Trebizond, now stop busting my balls, wouldja?” or “making sense of these circumstances requires a fine-grained ethnographic approach” it’s “Aw, c’mon buddy – making sense of these circumstances requires a fine-grained ethnographic approach”. Since I spend a lot of my time alone in my apartment listening to litrugical choral music, this leads to some pretty odd expressions: the fuck?/Verbum patris/tu, paisan, lumen prime aurore/in circulo rote es/omnia in divina vi operans – although trust me, you shoulda taken the BLUE pill.

This then led me to think about his role as Judas in the Matrix, and this then led me to a blog entry which I decided not to write. The entry would be part of an category called “Unfortunate Blue Pill Moments” – a series of documentary fan fiction about all the mistakes the characters from the Matrix make trying to find people to free from the matrix. It would play off of ironic shifts of register, and frequent appearences by celebrities. The first one, for instance, would feature Morpheus trying to free Jesus Christ from the Matrix.

“All of your life, you’ve known… sensed that there wasn’t something right about this world.”

“Why yes – ”

“And you’ve wondered. Wondered what it is…”

“Uh, actually…”

“Wondered: what is the Matrix?”

“Um… is there something I can do to help you? Are you in pain? Do you want to talk about it?”

“I’m about to offer you a choice – ”

“Look – I’m sorry to interrupt. I really am. It’s obvious to me that this is really important to you. And I respect that. I respect your issues around ‘the Matrix’. But in the past couple of weeks I’ve really made some very difficult choices in my life, and I’m feeling kind of vulnerable right now, you now, trying to accomodate myself to the ‘new me’. My biography for the next two years is kind of booked up, actually. And frankly, I’m getting a little bit creeped out about this whole scary-deep-voice-leather-trenchcoat thing – it’s really reminding me of a some very traumatic encounters I had on the walls of Jerusalem that I’m still trying to work through, you know? And while I’d really like to talk to you more about this, but I’m kind of in the middle of a wedding, and I sort of promised to go on a beer run in case they run out – although {chuckles} they’re about to hella shocked about how I fill up on the wine, though. Anyways I gotta go or my dead will kill me. Oops – oh man, I’m sorry. That was tasteles, wasn’t it? Sorry. Oh no wait – you don’t get it yet! Man, this whole thing is so complicated. And Andrew Lloyd Webber wrote this entire thing way out of my tessitura.”

“Trinity?”

“Uh… I don’t know what to say. On the one hand, he seems to be The One. On the other hand, I feel strangely unmotivated to take off my cat suit for him. He’s insufficiently cute and inarticulate for me to really feel he’s the one The Oracle had in mind. I mean, if he was covered in tatoos and time was running backwards I’d at least have a pretty clear directorial imperative to sleep with him…”

Other episodes would include Morpheus trying to maintain his gravitas while offering Jerry Lewis the two pills, Morpheus encountering Churchill (punchline: the Morpheus/Churchill confab is the true origin of the line “I may be drunk dear, but you are ugly”), Morpheus attempting to offer the pills to Pynchon and Gaddis but being unable to locate either of them. Special season finale with Morpheus and Minsc: “I turned to shield Boo and lost my spell… I am not sorry.”

But then I thought I’d better not write it, because it might upset AKMA. And that’s usually a good sign you’ve lost your moral bearings. He generally doesn’t mind it when I do Dragon Stance, at least not during mass. I personally think it makes evensong a whole lot more interesting. But that’s just me.

Hang in there

Hang in there… updating blogging software…. ignore the man behind the curtan…

The blog is two years old today. This time last year it was a much bigger deal for me – I was excited and proud that I had managed to keep the thing going for three hundred and sixty five days. Today, however, the blog seems as much a part of my life as drinking coffee or not doing my laundry. Today it seems so much a normal part of my routine that knocking back another twelve months seems almost pedestrian. My shifts of attention and focus both within and without the blog no longer seem like dealbreakers, and my online presence seems has settled into an happy coexistence with my increasingly active career writing in real life. And so it turns out there’s not much to do, really, except to keep writing and thank you all for reading. Thanks – it’s been great.

I was looking over my fieldnotes today while writing my dissertation and came across this entry about a dream I dreampt sometime in July or August 2000 – after I’d been in the field just about a year. I had completely forgotten that I had it, and even reading it over it seems foreign to me despite the way the words on the page bring memory to my mind. This is what an anthropologist dreams when he is in the field. Directly transcribed with no augmentation. -A

Man, had this dream that was totally compelling, so I’ll write it down. The dream centered on a castle. I was some sort of community relations officer/explorations officer [i.e. like the white expats I studied at the mine] who, along with a few other guys – mostly two – were responsible for exploring/assessing/archaeologizing this castle. The castle was square, with three or four stories of rooms arranged around the perimeter, the top level of which looked out over the main courtyard through columned windows. In the courtyard’s various tilted levels there was a fountain overgrown by weeds and other curious rock formations which cast a strange organic sense to the otherwise clean and classical lines of stone of which the castle was composed.

There were two things undoubtedly true of this castle: first, it was haunted, or rather, was alive with some magical force of its very own. Secondly, the acoustics were excellent – the stone reflected sound perfectly, perhaps preternaturally. Sometimes it seemed that harmonies began emerging, somehow, just from the echoes, or that the resonance of the bulding would change with the music, becoming less live, for instance, when a new entrance or line began that might otherwise be lost. These two things seemed related [marginal note: Super Flumina the constant soundtrack].

The overgrown fountain – slanted and broken, unyielding to the horizontal symmetry the flagstones of the courtyard tried to impose on it – as well as the curious rock formations both seemed to be sources or signs of the intelligent energy suffusing the castle.

In league with this, or because of it somehow – because it was fairly benevolent this power – I had the ability to transform myself in a brid and fly. There was a brief interlude here, a mix of the floating Xenoworlds of Half Life and Waiwanda’s [my home in PNG] steepness, as I was able to explore it’s hidden places with this ability, learning of the sacred stones hiden in the curious rock formations that were, in the way of dreams, simultaneously inside and outside of the castle.

Back in the castle, a small exploration party – mostly UC graduate students, although of course the kind that you’ve never met in waking life, the dummy extra kind – are visiting or inspecting the castle for some reason, in the conference room on the northwest side of the castle. As the senior inspection officer I and my two other workmates have the job of keeping them safe, entertained, etc. Suddenly an angry blizzard, spitting ice and snow, arrives, sending everyone away to the interior of the conference room. I understand, somehow, that the corporation for which I work has, in some executive citadel, made some decision about the castle which angers it. Although still basically benificent – I retain my supernatural powers – it is a warning that exploration of the castle and disposal of it as property must remain within certain limits or its power will turn malevolent. I usher people into the conference room, including the recently arrived X [a woman I knew in Oregon], and then set off in the storm with a neoprene bottle clutched in my beak/teeth/claws and fly against the wind to the fountain to get water. Space expands in the courtyard. It becomes a maze, a wilderness, before I finally get the water back to the waiting students, feeling paternally important and upright. Waiting out the storm, X and I are mysteriously in love – she sweet and not bitchy and psychotic as in waking life. We hold each other wordlessly and I bask in a sense of total love and intimacy with a woman that is undoubtedly the high point of the dream.

Time shifts in the dream. It is now a year or so later and I am visiting the castle for the first time since it was purchased. Immediately I am filled with sadness: the fountain and rock formation have been removed. There is no trace of grass or life poking through the flagstones. The whole place has been sanitized, cleaned – the courtyard is flat. Furniture and furnishing has been polished up, imitation period pieces put in. The acoustics are dead and dull, sound dies on the stones. I am close to tears as I remember the adventures and excitements I formerly had here [marginal note: most of these occurred after the snowstorm and now, skipped in the dream's fast forward] – my most rewarding job to date (I’m freelance apparently). And now to see it all… amputated. I walk through the conference room, its adjoining music room and library, with the castle’s ancient manuscripts, around to the east wing and rooms now sanitized and used for secretarial staff – the castle’s age and stone now only stylistic gestures in an office full of neo-gothic furniture. The last office, however, I see has not a secretary but some sort of ghoul or zombie, eye sockets barred, flesh rotting, bones exposed. As I stare in disbelief its face fixes in a rictus. I laugh – this is a secretary in disguise, as a joke, then am afraid, then alternate wildly between the two until I finally realize this is not a joke, it is an evil undead sort of creature, the castle’s power, although pruned, has turned malevolent and is slowly growing stronger, waiting in some dark secret place to strike back. I scream and faint.

Act Three: I am dreaminig. I am not sure of what – it is a bad dream, about the castle. I wake with a bad start in the bedroom of the teachers transit house in Wabag, except, of course, it isn’t. I’m in a bedroom with my two former workmates on the castle job. Apparently we sleep together or something – two in a bunkbed, me on top, another in Ben’s bed (they’re all white). We are all in a state of more or less waking up. I ask and it turns out that all three of us have had dreams – bad ones – about the castle. We figure that this is the time – the castle’s power is growing – it is just a matter of time before it is strong enough to strike back. We decide to go and warn people before it’s too late. We (although at this point it is again me). I go into the castle, which is not empty and feels all abandoned in that malevolent sort of way. the doors close and I am trapped inside, stripped of my powers. There are huge swarms of insects – a giant chrysalis teeming with larva holds the main gates shut. There is a single, psychotic man – already defeated by the castle – in the music room. I am trapped. [marginal note: this is somehow tied to my trying to contact Commander Plaza. Also big metal doors]

This somehow segues into another scenario – the castle’s purchasers are having some sort of open house. The whole area around the castle has been flooded or else it has been transfered to another location entirely, a sunny tropical clime as a sort of moronic holiday spot totally out of keeping with it as a sort of mist-and-forests Celtic type of phenomenon. Behind it, a huge rock formation, branched out and black with barnacles like a cencerous tree, has emerged form the sea and towers over it. Water spouts cascade. I ask a company rep what that thing is – obviously some evil excresence looming over the castle – and he says, blindly “Oh, I don’t know, it emerged from the sea a few days ago.”

Inside the castle, I find a huge crowd. An exhibition of all the castle’s good points is being conducted. The minute I arrive I can tell there is trouble. There is a sense that the castle is prepared and powerful again. It affects people in small ways – in a demonstration of the library, a scribe copies information on the books to create a catalogue of the holdings. He writes an author’s name incorrectly, and then, after I correct him, also botches the catalog number – both mistakes caused by the castle. The whole situation is psychotic – people trapped inside these malfunctional roles they don’t even know they’re in. Although an adult will is too strong, the castle can possess children, and I see a child – Potomi or Nimrod [children from my village] – smiling maliciously at me, taking pleasure in my comprehending what it’s about to do. The parent holding the kid’s hand has no idea what’s happened. At last some sort of trap is set. Whole gallery tries to escape as the doors close. Commotion and a cacaphony of lights. Perhaps some people escape. There’s a huge electric clap, like a giant bug light, and people are killed, disintegrated. A moment before, luckily, some hidden, subaltern, benificent splinter personality protects me – a sort of purplish-pink light envelops me and knocks me unconsciou for a moment and protects me. As I awake – mere seconds later, I find I’ve fallen back on one of the sarcophagi of the past kings that line the southwest gallery where I’m situated. I realize that it is arthur, and his magic sword (not, oddly enough, conceptualized as Excalibur) is just the ticket to kill the thing haunting the castle. I pull it from his leathery corpse. It is not as magical swords ought to be. It is old, rusty, the hilt too short, the pommell too long. Nonetheless I take it and throw open the sarcophagus of the immobile but powerful lich that is, at this late stage of the dream, repsonsible for all the problem. Again, things are not fairy tale: there is no clean slice, flash of light as evil atmosphere evaporates. Instead the leather armor the thing was buried in holds. I push hard and the sword goes in. I thrust again and again. At this point I am on my way, although as the dream fades, I’m left with the sense I’ve suceeded, although no joyful emotions…

Like many graduate students, I tend to suffer from insomnia. This is just part of the package, and I’m fine with it most of the time. But last night I found myself puttering about in the kitchen at three in the morning, and was trying to make the best of it – one of the things about insomnia that you quickly figure out is that getting stressed and worried about being up at three in the morning is not the best way to get to sleep. So I thought maybe I’d do some dishes or something, only to find that the light wasn’t working in the kitchen. So I tried flipping a few other switches etc. and realized that the fuse for all the power in the kitchen had blown – a not uncommon occurrence when I try to use the microwave without unplugging the refrigerator first. But then I was like ‘wait a second – I didn’t use the microwave today!’

It was then that I realized that I was not up at three in the morning. I was actually asleep, and dreaming that I was up at three in the morning. And this realization – as is often the case when you realize that you’re dreaming – came upon me so forcefully that I actually woke up and stayed up. I turned to look at my watch – it was three in the morning. I was like “what did I do to deserve this?” Sometimes you just can’t win. It’s sort of like the old Chinese story about the man woke from a dream and couldn’t tell if he was a man who had dreampt he was a butterfly or a butterfly dreaming he was a man. Except in my case I was a man who couldn’t tell if he was unable to fall asleep, or a man who was unable to fall asleep. Jesus. Does that sound fair to you? I mean really.

I continue to putter. The permalinks are now gendered correctly. Old MT archives are now available, so you can read Leuschke.org fan fic to your heart’s content. Just click the archive link at the top of the page. Also, Golublog patrons actively interested in having fan fiction written about them can now view my amazon wishlist by clicking on the line about the title of the blog where it used to say ‘it doesn’t just look good on lynx – it looks like lynx‘ and where it now says ‘if you buy me things I will write fan fiction about you‘. I figured I’d cut to the chase. Any of the items on this list will make a much better present than soap or pictures of my face on cereal boxes. Not that I dislike soap or pictures. I just like hottie coloraturas better. Although please send only audio recordings – I’m currently all booked up in the flesh-and-blood hottie coloratura department.

Just a quick note for those who may have missed it – you can get to the permalink for a blog entry by clicking on its title. You can veiw all of the entries in the same category by clicking on the subject of the blog entry (this appears just under the date). I considered this an extremely elegant way to set up the website – unfortunately, it left no affordances for users to move through the site. Elegance over affordances – that’s me in a nutshell. I’ve also added a more mundane ‘permalink’ entry at the end of each entry. Also the blogroll link is back, and will soon be followed by RSS and archive info. Sorry it took so long to get around to this. Also, I’ve finally gotten around to adding analog to the site so beware – you’re being watched.

Cheers,
-A

I’ve missed at least three great potential posts lately:

1. Kill Bill: Why the movie fails because Tarantino doesn’t know the differce between a Japanese and a Chinese martial arts film.

2. The Matrix: Why it’s actually good.

3. Ned Rorem: Why he is the greatest living American composer. Trulies.

I’ve been busy with my other job – you know, the one where I write the dissertation and become a professor? Met with my advisor the other day to go over a conference paper I gave him that would eventually be turned into a chapter. He said that it was ‘better than ok’, which is the most positive comment I’ve ever gotten from him. Much better than when I was writing my MA, when he’d give me back drafts with comments like “don’t ever give anything of this quality to me again ever”. The tough love thing does work, however, as do I, continuing to churn away…

Many many moons ago, back when I was poor and willing to tell the world about it, two total strangers I’d never met before were nice enough to give me presents to keep my spirits bouyed. I thanked the first on my website, but my second – and substantially more generous benefactor – never got the thanks they deserved.

The reason is that this Andrew W. and Cinnamon W. Huff Endowed Chair in AHATPOLS Fan Fiction was endowed via an amazon.com gift certificate which I used to order two very obscure albums (specifically, Put a Flavor to Love and Eric Whitacre: The Complete Acapella Works, 1999-2001) which it took amazon like thirteen centuries to ship to me. But they have both just recently arrived and damn if they don’t both rock the house.

So thank you very much Thor – please be assurred that I very much appreciate your generosity and that it hasn’t been forgotten, despite Amazon’s inability to order CDs from small, independent record labels. You rawk very much indeed – and if I knew more about you you’d definitely get a spot in some sort of AHATPOLS fan fiction.

And just to make this perfectly clear: I consider myself an artist struggling through his prose to reach out to the inarticulate joy that is the sublime and, in capturing it, deliver it Prometheus-like to my readers. Another way of saying this is: yes. If you buy me stuff I will write Fan Fiction About You. It just doesn’t get any simpler than that. And don’t worry, there’s no shame in it. After all, if it’s good enough for Catherine of Cleves it’s good enough for you!

The sun is going down and we haven’t even picked up our last delivery – there’s no way now that I’m going to get back in time for shabbat. But this is New Guinea and there’s a plug of betelnut in my mouth, and that, at least, is some comfort. Our tanker truck jerks dinosaur slow through the underbrush towards our destination, and we all grimace silently as our bodies sway. We get out of the truck quickly, grunting with the weight of hoses and machinery and trot toward the well head. We’ve all got a Friday night to get to. A swollen sore on the inside of my arm from where the liquid natural gas has accidentally touched me. It scratches against the inside of my muddy work clothes.

I stop by the college to at least put in a show of support. The sun is going down again and the people from the refrectory have set up a buffet outside. We all line up with paper plates and plastic forks and serve our selves from a variety of bland wasp-food. I smile and shuffle in line with the others, trying to fit in in this new place, uneasy with the elaborate rules with which Oxbridge surrounds even their informal events. The fellows smile at me, I smile back, waiting to see how much longer I have to stay before I can reasonably duck out and get on with my real work.

The sun keeps on going down but this reprieve never seems to keep me from being late. I’m driving as fast as I can, pulling out of the parking of the nursing home with indecent haste. The old woman in the back seat is nervous with anticipation as well, but she doesn’t say anything to me. By the time I get to the condo, I can hear all the other witches bustling about inside, finishing up preparations for this alignment of moon, sun, stars, and sabbath whose observance I’ve been drafted to facilitate. Candles burn in the window and they’ve stuck fake cobwebs in the corners of all the doors. Paper cut-outs of skulls and skeletons stretch in strings from under the eaves. The pack of old women surround the car as soon as we stop, hugging their new arrival and taking me by the hand inside. They stuff me full of cupcakes and punch and I have to agree to take a bag of cookies home before they’ll let me go.

I watch the sun go down from the balcony while below me the other fellows watch it from the porch. I stretch and relax and wonder at the course of my biography as the sun reaches the end of its own, extinguishing its history in a mushroom penumbra of purple that is doubled in the mirror of the sea that it sinks into. There’s a smell of salt and grass and my clothes are more informal now, relaxing. From inside the college the voice of a television announcer drifts up, mooting the strengths and weaknesses of current scholarship because in my dream the presure we put on each other is matched by public interest. The season is getting underway, and a retired professor analyzes how recent faculty trades in the off-season strengthen and weaken different colleges’ chances at getting some real research done over the next academic year. Another man talks about how Columbia’s restructuring is going to affect professor performance and what it means for academic fantasy leagues on the internet.

Now they’re talking about us – the huge research grant the college got two years ago, the recent corporate sponsorship that pumped additional funds into it and which brought me on board. But what are we going to do with it? Once you’ve been spotted you’ve got to be able to produce, and all this optimism could have some very bad consequences if we don’t. I muse at the challenge ahead and idly scratch the embroidered Pizza Hut logo on the breast of my tshirt.

“Do you hear that, guys?” I call down to them, utilizing the vulgar americanism, “this is it – we’ve got to change the world!” They’re great, smart people but too used to a world where keeping up appearences is enough. My accent puts me out of place here – its enunciation signals the restless modernity of the new world. I am young and hungry. I think they need me.

So the Jedi have an ‘arrangement’ with Mayor Daley to help smooth things over for us here in the City of Big Shoulders. I know, I know, I’m not happy about it either. That’s just the way the cookie crumbles, ok?

So anyway as a result I have to put in a certain amount of community volunteer work every month, liase with cops, go down to the police station once a year and pay my annual licensing fee to get new stickers to put on my light saber. That sort of stuff. I spent most of Sunday doing plainclothes security for the marathon between Cermak and 37th. This was important, since the Robert Taylor Homes are right around there and the cops are terrified that some moron tourist from Indiana whose wife is running the marathon is going to wander in there trying to buy some bottled water or something.

Well I was still prowling around that area after the sun went down and I heard a ruckus and followed the sound. It was a bunch of Gangster Disciple guys having some sort of meeting. They had this guy tied up to a chair and were slapping him around and threatening him and everything – it was just like a movie, since they had choosen a darkly lit room with steampipes and dripping water and chain link fences and the entire kit and kaboodle. Pumps and valves were hissing and clanking – it was very atmospheric, although also kinda hard to hear what people were saying. The way these things go these guys were probably like “hey, this looks just like in the movies – let’s live out our gangsta fantasies here”.

So finally the boss gangster has had enough and tells one of his lieutenants, “I’ve had enough of this, pop a cap in this guy’s ass.”

And the lieutenant just gives him this totally blank look.

“What?”

“Pop a cap in his ass, yo.”

What?” asks the guy, now clearly totally perplexed.

“You heard me.”

“But I ain’t got no cat.” says the lieutenant.

“What?”

“I ain’t got no cat, I’m telling you.”

“You damn fool just do what I tell you!”

So then – I can’t believe this – the guy actually leaves the room. And no one can figure out what the hell’s going on except me since I’m like using the force and everything, right? They just think he’s walked right out the room for no reson. But he comes back a few minutes latter and he’s holding a bright orange tabby and he’s like stroking it and talking to it and whispering and everything and he’s actually crying a little bit and sniffling like tough guys do and saying things like “It’s ok Mr. Trixie, it’s ok. You’re a good cat, man, a good cat”. And I realize this guy has just gone and got his own cat from his apartment is now about to attempt to insert it into some rival gangster’s ass and that this is probably like the one thing outside the gang that he really cares about and loves and that he thinks he’s been asked to make a choice between the only two things in the world that matter to him. It’s like the akedah all over again, with the gangster boss as god, the lieutenant as Abraham, Mr. Trixie as Isaac, and some Latin Kings flunkie as Mount fucking Horab. I don’t know whether to laugh or cry.

And then it hits me like a wet finger in a lightbulb socket – I’m the angel. I have exactly ten seconds to descend from heaven with a ram or other appropriate alternate offering. Except, I think soberly, probably given what he’s about to try to do with that cat, substituting any large bodied mammal is probably not that good an idea.

Well lacking any clear alternative I dive out of the rafters, spread out my hands, and proclaim in as stentorian tones as my dulcimer tenor voice will allow, “Lay not hands upon your cat, or let any woe befall him. For now the Gangster Disciples see that you are a God fearing man, and no longer ask that you offer up your only tabby.”

There’s a moment of complete and total silence as everyone just stares at me like I’m a loony. Which, I realize, is fair, since none of them have ever heard of the akedah before, have never met me, and still haven’t figured out what the hell is going on. As far as they can tell, their friend has responded to an order to execute someone by getting a cat, and then a guy dressed in jeans and an earth tone shirt with a suspiciously Light-Saber shaped holster jumps from the ceiling and starts spouting vaguely biblical type of stuff. Then they all attacked me.

I didn’t have the heart to fight them. I was already pretty embarassed, to tell you the truth. I just cut their prisoner loose and then took off myself. Did I feel bad that I was so hubristic as to assume the role of an angel? Is it the robes? Do I feel inadequate without them? Like I’m not a real Jedi? It’s hard to say. At any rate, chalk this one up typical Sunday afternoon luck. Sometimes I just can’t believe this sort of stuff happens to me.

I think I’m back up and stabilized. Finally. Blech. What an unpleasant upgrade.

Ok. Naptime.

*sigh*

Well right after I got everything as I liked WP .72 was released – like literally the next day. Guess how the upgrade went? Grrrr……